I told him no but he kept pressuring me it turned into a yes
I lost my virginity to a one night stand
well I guess 2 because I went back for more
I don't know what it was that made me want the pain
Maybe it was how it felt to make someone else complete
Maybe it was the look of relief on your face when I gave in
Maybe it was how you rolled on the ******
Maybe my life would be different
Maybe
Nov 24, 2020
Nov 24, 2020 at 9:26 PM UTC
After all this time how can I still be so broken
But I welcome you with arms wide open
You tear me to pieces that you don't pick up
Just one word and that's enough
Jul 22, 2020
Jul 22, 2020 at 10:51 PM UTC
You will grow up loved
Little boy
The way it should be
Little boy
You will smile
Little boy
you wont know what got me into your life
Little boy
I wont leave
Little boy
As you get older and taller we will love you the same
Little boy
I would have died if you were mine
Dec 1, 2019
Dec 1, 2019 at 10:53 PM UTC
On the eve I die alone
Don't morn me
simply delete me from your phone
Remove my contact info erase all pics and tweets
Don't simply RIP me
Or shout me out on FaceBook statuses
When I'm gone ignore me
Go back to your regularly scheduled programming
Let me slide into oblivion
Where I resided in life let me rest in death
If it mattered that much surely I would have known
I would have sensed the emotional necessity that I placed in hearts
That I etched in minds and lives
So let me slip to slumber
Cast out blindly on the pyre
With backs turned don't mind the blaze
Embrace your loved ones and hold them tight
Remind them that to love and lose is to lose at best
And to be stolen from and assailed at worst
But still warn them of this plight
And when I lay down that eve
Don't wish this soul goodnight.
Sep 25, 2019
Sep 25, 2019 at 9:43 PM UTC
I think this
Is what death feels like
A never ending scream
filtered through a smile
No one can hear
Helpless
Hopeless
Silence
No one will ever know
What hides behind
These eyes
May 10, 2019
May 10, 2019 at 10:58 AM UTC
Why do I love you?
I think at times,
It's your smile or laugh,
And the way you hold my hand,
But maybe,
The largest reason of all,
I love you because,
You remind me to love myself.
May 10, 2019
May 10, 2019 at 10:48 AM UTC
Just because I smile and laugh
Doesn't mean that I'm happy
Apr 30, 2019
Apr 30, 2019 at 11:42 AM UTC
I am his
Only his
Wanna know why?
Because I want to
He never take me for granted
Especially in times of my vulnerability
He lift me up
He let me talk to him and spill all my imperfections
Yet he still there and never judged me
Nor left me hanging
Even at my worst state
I am thankful that he didn't gave up on me
I am grateful that he let me realize that the world is just a battle ground
Where faith is an essential
That makes you stronger than what you think
He's always there for me
No matter what that keeps me going
And I am forever thankful for what he've done
And his name is GOD.
Apr 30, 2019
Apr 30, 2019 at 9:48 AM UTC
If you could read my mind,
You’d see a thousand papers
Filled with broken poetries
And deadbeat proses
Full of woeful verses
With mournful pieces
Of unfinished stories
That are yet to be written
And failed to be spoken;
If you could read my mind,
You’d hear horrible screams
And earsplitting weeps
From shattered dreams,
Kept in a nasty notepad,
Scribbled on a bed
Of bloodstained words,
Ringing in my head.
If you could read my mind,
You’d see the shadows
That lurk within me;
You’d hear the bellows,
Screeching the words
“I’m tired,”
“I’m a failure,”
“I’m stupid –”
I know it sounds stupid,
It’s pathetically foolish
And seems like *******
If you could read my mind,
You’d feel the tears
I had ever failed to cry;
You’d see the people
That make the weak weaker;
You’d see the monsters
That consume my head;
You’d hear the hollers
That failed to be freed;
You’d see the heart
That still bleeds and bleeds.
If you could read my mind,
You’d see the face
I’ve failed to show back then,
The face I’ve faked back then.
If you could read my mind,
You’d see a character
I had ever failed to become
If you could read my mind,
You’d be able to read
A book you never wished
To touch and read,
But sometimes I still wish
Someone could read my mind.
Apr 30, 2019
Apr 30, 2019 at 9:46 AM UTC