The sad reality is
You’ll never be him.
The way he feels
The way he touches
The way he pauses
How he is obsessed with me.
The sad reality of it is
It will always be him.
Mar 2, 2021
Mar 2, 2021 at 11:30 PM UTC
I’m so new to this whole like give God your all.
And I have messed up time and time again.
I stopped reading my bible and stopped really being involved beside going to church.
But like in the extent in my week that’s all I do.
And today something was pulling me to sit and read my bible and not take a 2 hour nap.
And I kept fighting it and fighting it.
And I did. I read.
And I started with psalm because I like to write poetry.
So I’m like on psalm 6 and I just feel like that was written for me in the moment.
And it’s sooo crazy.
My pastor and mentors always talk about obeying Gods orders when he tells you do something.
And like He was talking to me.
He was calling for me to sit at His throne.
He pleading me for to stop and spend time with him ...
Nov 27, 2018
Nov 27, 2018 at 9:12 PM UTC
Forgive me
For the mistakes I have made
Forgive me
For what I am about to do
Forgive me
For the things that haunt me at night
Forgive me
For the words that I preach
Forgive me
These spirits will not leave
Forgive me
For not believing, not only in you but also in myself.
May 18, 2018
May 18, 2018 at 11:54 PM UTC
Trust me and I shall trust you
Love me fore I will love you.
Say what you mean
And never mean what you say.
Follow me and you shall never fade.
May 4, 2018
May 4, 2018 at 11:23 PM UTC
Brexit and Trump
mass shootings
and bombs in
schools
mosques
churches
streets
These are things that happen
when people forget
how to
talk
to
each
other.
Mar 27, 2018
Mar 27, 2018 at 11:58 PM UTC
A couple hours from now, as we are toasting a farewell to a neoteric past, a new year will emerge from the ashes of 2017. Like a phoenix, it will rise again, and sing sweet songs of new beginnings and manifest hope for a better year. We wait for this day in anticipation praying the months to follow will be anything but a repetition of a life once lived. We convince ourselves that we will be more productive, that we will be more active, and that THIS is the year that will change our lives. So we set New Years resolutions, we mark our calendars with exciting new adventures, we establish new goals and reimagine our old dreams hoping that in this new year, we can accomplish them all. But, for many eager and willing people, months will go by without any true transformation. And as the year draws closer to its end, they are again transfixed by old habits and excuses. Their excitement and determination will have faded into the mundanity of reality setting them back to where they were before. For a new year can’t be the driving force for change. A new year shouldn’t be the starting point for innovation. Because refinement shouldn’t be pushed to a certain date and time. And if someone really wants to revolutionize their life, why wait?
Dec 31, 2017
Dec 31, 2017 at 11:10 PM UTC
Dear Daddy,
Do you know what these men say to me?
With their
eyes and their mouths
when I walk on the street.
With a grin and a nod
and a look up and down.
A wink and a kiss
and a cat call heard from downtown.
With my skirt short
and my top
low,
It’s a cold world daddy
and no
doesn’t mean no.
Daddy do you know
how these men look at me?
Like I’m a piece of meat
strutting down the street?
With my head buds in
and my favorite song on.
I’m asking for it Daddy,
I’m in the wrong.
Do you know how it feels
not to wear what I like?
To walk a little faster
when I’m alone at night?
Daddy the world is my predator
and I am it's doe,
Daddy what happens
when I can’t say no?
Sep 22, 2017
Sep 22, 2017 at 10:52 AM UTC
Love,
They say,
It will fix all of your problems,
All your broken,
All your pain,
Love,
Will take that all away,
All I can honestly say to that,
Is how can you put that kind of pressure on someone?
heal me
fix me
save me
Because "you're all I have"
Or "I'm lost without you"
Love,
Will fix everything wrong with me
Don't care if it makes everything wrong with you.
Someone told me,
That love,
Is a lie,
And that we only think we need it,
Because everyone tells us we do,
And we do,
But not from her,
And definitely not from you,
We need love
Because society convinces young girls,
That it will fix everything
And it will.
But its not the kind of love
That is taking over 13 year old girls,
The love,
From another human being
Isn't what's gonna fix you,
you have to,
Because yes,
Love will fix everything,
If you love you.
And believe me,
This is something that I wish I knew long ago,
Because I went so long,
Hating myself,
And wanting love from someone else,
When all the healing I needed to do,
Was inside of me,
When I figured out,
That love for yourself is beautiful,
It makes everything clearer,
Everything,
Makes sense,
My love,
Your love,
Is what'll fix you,
That's not something I can do.
Sep 16, 2017
Sep 16, 2017 at 12:46 AM UTC
*I cry myself to sleep night after night
In seek for a better life
One not so suborn and filled with love.
I drowned in my tears every night
Just like my ancestors have night after night
One’s that were less fortunate to live the life I am living today.
They would tell me to let things be
At least you have a place to sleep and food to eat
At least you have property you can own and an education you have grown.
But this is America, Home of the Brave
And if no one is going to be brave then it must be me
Someone needs to say it, someone needs to speak it
It’s not just for the black but for people who are different,
People with disabilities and people who fall under diversity.
We fight so many wars but yet we can’t tame the ones inside
If it’s not my country then it’s certainly not yours
We have to be bigger, we have to think greater
Then someone’s gender and always remember
Your religion is sacred and so is your history.
Night after night a soul dies
A life flies away into the unknown
Hoping that the children they left behind
Can have a better life then their own.*
Sep 13, 2017
Sep 13, 2017 at 11:50 PM UTC