at 3 am when you and i lay in my bed
you wrap me in your arms and intertwine me with your affection
i feel guilty
for i am not the one you should be intertwined with
then you whisper words that caress the loneliest parts of my soul
and i drift into what could be
but once i am not in your arms
and we are untangled
you intertwine with someone else
the someone you call your girlfriend
and i hear the i love you’s slip off your tongue
the same tongue that told me that she wasn’t what you wanted anymore
Jun 21, 2019
Jun 21, 2019 at 4:35 AM UTC
when you look into my eyes and search for me, just know you cannot find me for i am locked away in a room that has no key
Jun 21, 2019
Jun 21, 2019 at 3:57 AM UTC
i am no ordinary book, you cannot judge me by my cover, i am softer and sadder than any book you’ve read before, be careful because my pages are delicate and worn. i am not a book you can skim, you must read every word carefully for i tell a story that is unlike any other.
Jun 21, 2019
Jun 21, 2019 at 3:57 AM UTC
you look me in the eyes and whisper to me, “i want you”, my lips quiver and my breathing becomes heavy
my body doesn’t know how to react because no one has ever wanted me before
Jun 21, 2019
Jun 21, 2019 at 3:56 AM UTC
you wrapped your hands around my throat and told me to breathe
Jun 21, 2019
Jun 21, 2019 at 3:55 AM UTC
your kiss is the key to my soul
our lips meet
my feelings begin to pour
my excitement intertwines with my anxiety
you intertwine with me
its overwhelming
but i dont ever want to stop
Jun 21, 2019
Jun 21, 2019 at 3:54 AM UTC
my veins are the strings of a violin
yearning so desperately to be played
by that sharp silver bow
knowing that every stroke is one more scar
every cry is the music that my broken symphony of a body releases as a call
a call for help, a call for safety
every breath is music that my ears crave and
my orchestra has just begun
the drums in my chest begin to play a tune i’m way to familiar with
the cymbals in my head crash with every beat
my legs shake from every vibration
the symphony has started
i reach for my bow so i can begin
i start with a tune thats comfortable
eager to release my energy i play
and with every stroke my symphony slows
the cymbals stop crashing
the drums fade
and the orchestra has come to a stop
i release my bow and look at what i have created
i read the lines on my skin like lines of sheet music
the songs of sadness have stopped and im finally at peace
i know the consequences of being a composer
but my art is so addicting
Jun 21, 2019
Jun 21, 2019 at 3:54 AM UTC
my mind is a sea of thoughts and you were a life raft, you kept me above, you told me youd save me but one day you decided that you didnt want to save me anymore and suddenly you became cinderblocks tied to my feet, pulling me under
Jun 21, 2019
Jun 21, 2019 at 3:52 AM UTC
you gifted me a sunflower
the petals were a hue ive never seen before
they had a glow brighter than the sun
so i kept it and rooted it deeply in my heart
i watered it and helped it grow
and one day you told me you didnt love me anymore
and suddenly those petals became dull
and the flower began to droop
i tried to water it back to life
but it was no use
i tried to pick it out
but it was rooted too deep
so there remains the sad sunflower
in the deepest pit of my chest
a reminder of something i no longer have
you
Jun 21, 2019
Jun 21, 2019 at 3:52 AM UTC