I have secrets written down on scraps of paper thrown underneath my bed but you're my biggest I took advantage of you and how you felt when I would make you smile I made you feel like a grain of dirt in my garden and I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I thought I was innocent and perfect that I could do no wrong especially to you but it was all a lie I made myself believe and you believe for so long I hate that I hurt you and I hate how I can't take any of it back I cannot stand the thought of you wandering around today or years from now thinking of me as a storm who did not do anything good but destroy it's precious surrounding I really pray that the thought of me does not pass your mind when you are sad and that I'm not pinned in the back of your mind but out of your mind I cannot stand to think that you will remember me as someone who broke you instead of someone who loved you
-something I wish she would say to me.
j.f
Jul 6, 2014
Jul 6, 2014 at 4:50 AM UTC
J: Hey.
A: Wazzup.
J: Eh, could be better could be worse.
A: Could also just stay the same.
J: Tru dat. How about you? I haven't seen you in forever... hows ur love life? >:)
A: Ugh. Could be better, can definitely get worse.
J: :( aww that ***** I expected your love life to be in full bloom!
A: Not yet, not yet. Hows ur love life???
J: Uhhhhh... my love life? Never heard of it.
A: Sure, theres the guy whos last name starts with an "s" :D
J: ??? What guy??? maybe its just a stupid, foolish, good for nothing crush...
A: You don't know unless you try!
J: haha I can say that to you. I know you have at least five not-so-secret admirers and have a crush that is totally worth pursuing...
A: U at least have a chance with ur crush. Gtg. BAIIII :D
J: Au Revoir, mon amie! STUPID HOMEWORK!!!!!!!!!! :P gtg tackle Lasko as well... plz help meh! :P
Jul 6, 2014
Jul 6, 2014 at 4:46 AM UTC
i look into your eyes
and all I see is bliss
i listen to your lips
and all I hear is my wish
to hear your heavenly voice
crash against my ears
Jul 6, 2014
Jul 6, 2014 at 4:46 AM UTC
Why suicide?
1. I'm too stressed out.
2. Life will end anyways, so why not die now?
3. Someone's ****** at me for doing something.
4. I'm drunk/high.
5. Life *****
6. No one likes me.
Why live?
1. Stress can be relieved in other ways.
2. You have a great future ahead of you if you work hard.
3. Try to seek forgiveness. If this fails, seek forgiveness.
4. Seek rehab.
5. Life has its ups and downs. It will get better.
6. Someone loves you, even if you don't know them.
Jul 6, 2014
Jul 6, 2014 at 4:46 AM UTC
Pretty pretty pretty
But you remain the same
As the childish and petty
To whom living is a game
Ugly ugly ugly
Not a blemish in sight
Because the pretty ones bug me
What counts is inside
Jul 6, 2014
Jul 6, 2014 at 4:46 AM UTC
Everyday I smile,
As cheerful as can be.
The colors around are
Bright and sweet,
The faces kind and friendly.
Hahaha.
That's fake.
That's a lie.
If we read each other's minds,
We'd all have to die.
The faces at school are
Laughing,
Mocking,
Never, ever changing.
Hope is a ridiculous abstraction.
Bully,
No matter what you say,
No matter what you do,
There is nothing in the world that will
Make me respect you.
Leave me alone, classroom demon.
What have you to gain?
Let me be in peace.
Instead you must pick on me?
Tell me why's that, please.
Still, on my walk home,
Are busy people walking;
Sociable people talking,
*They seem to have forgotten me
In those roles of faking and lying!*
Why do I wait? Why do I do nothing?
No matter how hard I fight,
My life still stays the same.
With this dull and meaningless life,
I might as well put an end to it, right?
I am so alone.
Jul 6, 2014
Jul 6, 2014 at 4:46 AM UTC
There is a fire in me
It burns in my soul
It gives me passion and energy
And a drive to go
Inside of my lungs
It crackles and burns
It ignites my mind
As my stomach turns and turns
It heats up my head
So I cry out hot tears
To cool down I breath in
But I breath out my fears
It is growing, I feel it
It spreads through my chest
It laughs and dances
Wishing never to rest
So I'll drink some iced water
And lie down for a while
In the case that my fire
Might burn love for miles
Jul 6, 2014
Jul 6, 2014 at 4:45 AM UTC
I am struggling to get the words out
They are starting to feel empty, and forced
Poetry shouldn’t be like that.
Poetry should be as natural as breathing
As flowing as air currents
It should pour out with power, with purpose
Unrefined, but beautiful
Not in spite of it, but because of it.
And that is getting difficult to do.
Jul 6, 2014
Jul 6, 2014 at 4:45 AM UTC
when your heart is broken and your love denied
and your eyes are swollen with all the tears you cried
when your mind is restless and you cant go to sleep
with your emotions in a tangle running very deep
give your self some time this will make it heal
and change the way you think and the way you feel
start again once more open up your heart
start your life a new and make a brand new start.
Jul 6, 2014
Jul 6, 2014 at 4:45 AM UTC