make it easy on yourself
and pick apart each one of my bones
let me know what you have seen
while you ignite every part of me
screams drown in my lungs
i can feel it almost there
corrupted minds are too far gone
and way beyond repair
and if i lose my mind or choke on fear
my dear
please save yourself, my dear
please save yourself
i've lost my mind
i would give you all my breath
a breathless, twisted life i'd live for you
a never ending novocaine
will strip me of my pain
but i'd never tell
Apr 6, 2015
Apr 6, 2015 at 9:38 PM UTC
i have lost
my oldest home
in the
f
a
l
l
i
n
g
rain
i can smell
gasoline and
now i know
what i've done
i can't
see you
i can't
know you
can you
show me
who i
used to be
Apr 6, 2015
Apr 6, 2015 at 9:30 PM UTC
i gave you all the best of me
all i lacked was sanity
the pieces of my peace of mind
were always very hard to find
but your faith in me
is all i need
to complete the picture
that was burned
you held the match
i poured the gas
we wore no masks
because our lungs had already turned black
Apr 6, 2015
Apr 6, 2015 at 9:19 PM UTC
Dear friend,
I've been missing you to death
Years a prisoner and you're finally free
I hope its everything you hoped it would be
Your mind hung your soul on a string and dangled it in front of you
They painted your black eyes a shade of blue
Instead of one life you had two
You were never a stranger to me
Your eyes mirrored everything you wanted me to see
A mind full of wonder but so very far from wonderful
Because
Your twisted mind made lies out of your eyes
Truth is something you gain through pain
You know that very well
Sorry
Excuse me
I meant "knew"
Because you are gone
You left me half alive on the floor
But the door is still open
I could see you again
But I know you'd never let me in
Heaven forbid
Feb 7, 2015
Feb 7, 2015 at 8:42 PM UTC
I hate that feeling.
that feeling when you're sad,
But you have no idea why.
You feel so **** void,
but nothing has happened.
They ask you what is wrong,
but you can not explain.
Or they did not ask anything,
I do not know what is worse.
It just feels like I miss someone,
someone I never met.
I need someone who does not need me.
Loneliness hovers over me,
takes control of me.
I do not even care.
I extricate itself from the goals.
Sadness for now is my best and only friend.
I begin to hate myself and
I want everyone to leave me alone.
At the same time,
I want someone to hug me and
told me that everything will be okay.
**I just hate that feeling.
That feeling,
when you do not even know what the hell you feel.**
Feb 7, 2015
Feb 7, 2015 at 8:37 PM UTC
I worry (a lot)
when I think (of other girls)
about how they (shine)
sparkle and radiate beauty
and about how I could be (brighter)
(and) nothing hurts worse than thinking about
not being with (you) my love, my heart
because I know you (deserve the) best,
you are my (sun), moon and stars
Feb 7, 2015
Feb 7, 2015 at 8:37 PM UTC
**I remember when I was around six
soon to be seven
We met on a plain grassy field,
the first place where our lips,
never touched.
You swore this was not a game,
but why did you bring the dice this time?**
*Oh what did I bring?
Nothing but this blanket covered in dust.
Was I too lazy to brush the memories?
No, I just could not imagine
our childhood being in the air.
I reach for your hand,
like a baby reaches for their bottle.
Silly is not?
Please just listen.
The crickets are still and accept us.
No coyote is howling at our skin.
You swear a tree is falling,
but how sure are you about that?*
**Now we are nineteen and
moving on to our twenties.
You swear that we have changed,
but all I notice is our age becoming older.
More memories with
our wings damaged.**
*My wings?
Oh, you care to know now,
they are shattered as you left.
I have one healthy wing,
the other is bruised and crippled.
Why?*
**You can answer that one,
with your memories and imagination.**
Feb 2, 2015
Feb 2, 2015 at 12:10 PM UTC
Lets raise a black flag for the dark times we've had
And let the white one burn because it is our turn and we'll never surrender again
And then we'll dance in tears of rain
And wash the fears away
For our troubled minds have found refuge in words
Our screams were never heard
So we turned into birds
For we just long to belong
So we migrated
To a home we created inside our heads
They will never care that we had to tear
Through flesh and bone
To take control of our minds that owned
us
This home doesn't exist
Its a figment of our imagination
But creation
Is the only thing keeping us alive
Jan 31, 2015
Jan 31, 2015 at 11:18 PM UTC
I am hollow and afraid
I wonder - do they see my pain?
I hear echoes of the rain
the downpour inside my brain
I see the drops falling down
I want to stop them, but
I am hollow and afraid
I pretend I am fine, but
I feel very far from fine
I run my fingers through my hair
I fear judgement, everywhere
I cry inside, but only there, for
I am hollow and afraid
I know they say "life is a wonder"
I say life is a four-letter word
I dream of death, desolation, disaster
I just want it all to end, because
I am so hollow and so afraid
Jan 31, 2015
Jan 31, 2015 at 11:11 PM UTC
I came looking for answers but all i hear are whispers
Of what has become of me
But I've seen this coming for years
Millions of tears have watered my barren wasteland of a mind
Where i cant find
Anything but broken glass
But i walk across
And try to find
My minds last words
Where my imagination was once pure
Jan 30, 2015
Jan 30, 2015 at 9:46 PM UTC