Wall to wall and ceiling to floor
They bounce and shake their sheltered home
My thoughts whirl in a whirlwind of smoke
One after the other, there they go
Chasing after one another innocently
My mind enjoys the play of tag
One moment its thinking of this
Another of thinking of that
My A.D.D. Is getting out of hand
Words that are spoken to me
Go over my head
My mind would rather dream instead
Work is a chore for my focus,
It wavers and is forgetful
My mind doesn't care if it is important
Sleeping is pitiful
For the dreams are bursting in
My mind that cannot rest
Getting up is a joke
The midnight dreams want to be relived
My mind is too nice to reject them
A shower takes hours
The water is so nice for a daydream to run wild
My mind gets clouded with the steam
Everyday task gets overwhelming
When my attention runs in the opposite direction
My mind decided to go and wander
A.D.D. Has left me insane
It had given birth to depression and anxiety
My mind is in shambles
Oct 4, 2018
Oct 4, 2018 at 7:51 PM UTC
Little fireflies flowing through the wind,
Twirling, swirling all the way in,
Through seep settled fog,
And a brief counter bog,
They shine a temporary light,
That makes the night seem bright;
Little butterflies flowing through the wind,
Up and down, and up and down they go flying in,
Bringing nectar to flowers and a show for others,
They go on and never bring bothers,
Instead they give the gift of colors,
To show the world the true making of their collars;
Little birdies flowing through the wind,
Twisting and turning through the passage of the bend,
They do not pay mind to the watching souls,
They rather bring joy to the newborn foals,
This proves their life has power,
Never do they have to show their cower;
Little gifts of life flowing through the wind,
Plowing through the sunny sky out of their whim,
Providing their bodies as a source of show,
Continuing their flights for the peoples bow,
Filling themselves with joyful laughter,
That we shall not bring to shatter.
Oct 2, 2018
Oct 2, 2018 at 12:00 PM UTC
Find me
Fine my heart
Find my pain
Find my sanity
Please
I beg of you
For I have gone
Too far without it
It has left an emptiness
A loneliness so deep
A numbness that spreads through me
That it boils over inside of me
I miss myself
I miss my heart
I miss the pain
I miss my sane
Just please
Find these things I need
I don't know how long I'll last
Without them here
With me
Sep 27, 2018
Sep 27, 2018 at 9:23 PM UTC
We didn't see the wind
We didn't see the rain
We didn't see the way
His eyes were sinking in
We didn't hear the storm
We didn't hear the thunder
We didn't hear the way
His voice grew vacant
We didn't feel the humidity
We didn't feel the cold
We didn't feel the way
His hands gripped ours
We didn't taste the water
We didn't taste the salt
We didn't taste the way
His words that were meant to invoke
We didn't smell the air
We didn't smell the tang
We didn't smell the way
He didn't take a shower
We didn't see him heal
We didn't hear him cry
We didn't feel him here
We didn't taste his pain
We didn't smell his self-hate
We didn't want to look
That far into him
Sep 27, 2018
Sep 27, 2018 at 8:27 PM UTC
Somehow I do not feel safe
In this big life of mine
I do not feel secure
Within these bonds of love
I do not know
Who I'm suppose to be
Or what I want to do
With this impending future I have
I feel so fake
In this world that people say
I'm accomplished in,
That I succeeded in
Yet, I've never felt more like a failure
In the entirety of my life
By preparing for college
And trying to live life
I cannot help but wonder
What my future holds for me
Or how I shall shape it
And I am in constant fear
Of making the wrong decisions
Of ******** away all of my best possibilities in life
There is so many roads to choose from
And I may not choose one at all
I may end the road I am already on
Will they call me a success then?
Will they still believe in my abilities in living life?
Would they still see me as their daughter, friend, and sister?
Jul 2, 2018
Jul 2, 2018 at 10:09 PM UTC
My therapist told me to think of three good things to describe me
Nothing came to mind
I thought and thought, but nothing good
So I told her I was thoughtful
She asked for another and I spoke in a whisper
Remembering what my grandmother always told me
That I was kind
She looked at me, that therapist of mine
With a look that tried to be understanding and fine
And asked for one more word
Which was really hard
For there was nothing less
So I said I was deep
For there seemed to be
A hole that dug
So low
It left me empty
My therapist thought she understood the words I gave her
But she never really knew at all
May 2, 2017
May 2, 2017 at 1:31 PM UTC
Funny things are happening
Funny things are falling
Some things stay the same
Some change for the worst
There is no silence
To the deaf ears
There is no sight
In the seeing eyes
There is no blood pumping
In these hearts of ours
Funny things are happening
Funny things are falling
Some have been left broken
Some have be arised
Both have been affected
By these ignorant eyes
May 2, 2017
May 2, 2017 at 1:06 PM UTC
How do we breath in the scent of forgiveness and never once think to ask if it was willingly met?
How do humans function with one another when there is so much prejudice and turmoil?
How does the wind so simply carry away all of our pains when there's nothing to keep it steady?
How does love conquer all when its all just a fictionalized lie?
How am I here when I should be there?
How is my heart still beating when there is no value in the life that I live?
How can I love when all I ever been met back with is the force of friendship?
Apr 11, 2017
Apr 11, 2017 at 3:03 PM UTC
We let each other go
With the wisp in the silence that was in between
You had hurt me so deeply
But you'll never know
For it was time to let go
There are no hard feelings,
No second guesses,
You did what you said
For the first time ever
And trust me
It was a breath of relief knowing that we were free
From these bounds that we once called home
I'm sorry that it didn't work out how we wanted it to
Or how we imagined it would be
But that was for the best
I wasn't made to be in your life forever
And that's okay
People change
However the world still stays the same
It'll still rotate on its axis
And the world would move on
This isn't such a bad thing,
We left a mark together in our own worlds
In our own way
That's what matters most
Our time has come to a close
But that is not such a bad thing
It was for the best, my long lost friend
I wouldn't change a thing
This is goodbye, my friend
I wish you the best
Mar 23, 2017
Mar 23, 2017 at 9:54 PM UTC
Beer, you said
Was all you ever had
Affair, you said
Was all you ever needed
Waste, you said
Was all you ever felt
Abuse, you said
Was all you ever wanted
Family, you said
Was such a waste
Reality, you said
Was just an illusion
Daughter, you told
Was such a disappointment
Son, you told
Was nothing that mattered
And yet you beg for us to forgive
These statements you made
The actions and consequences you caused
And this turmoil you've created in our heads
Thank you mother
For showing me that even heros can become villains
For giving me the truth of the world
That everything will change
And it could wreck you whole
You gave me the biggest lesson in life
That no matter the circumstances
You have the right to fight against
The right to take matters into your own hands
To do the best you can for you
Sounds a little selfish,
And trust me it is,
But its the right amount of sin
That makes the world spin
Pain, I say
Is what I have known
Love, I say
Is hard to let got
Family, I say
Is a hard thing to leave
Life, I say
Is never easy
Moving on, I say
Is a fight worth taking
Mar 22, 2017
Mar 22, 2017 at 11:02 PM UTC