
You will always end up hurt.
I do not care how strong physically and mentally you are,
there will always be tears shed and hearts broken.
Because you cannot do something so physically intimate and
expect it to not be mentally intimate.
That is like jumping off a cliff and hoping you don't fall.
You cannot make pretend love.
You cannot look at someone and see them as an object.
For they are not an object, they are human
Someone will fall, and they will fall hard.
They will spend their time praying that each kiss is real.
They will pray that its more than just physical.
They will pray that rough touches and loud moans are more than lust.
They will spend their time hoping and praying
that you will see them as more than a quick distraction,
but, darling, this is not a fairytale.
They will not fall for you all because you kissed them differently.
They will not see you in a different light.
For this started as physical and it will stay physical.
(b.c)
Jan 30, 2015
Jan 30, 2015 at 3:51 PM UTC
I remember it all as The 1975 played
Eyes dancing in the smoke of your wilted cigarette
Tangled in the bed comforter
Our lips pressed together
Carving novels from the sweep of your eyelashes
Your hand on my leg sending lightning through my bloodstream
Kneading contained desire into new shapes
Though room was frigid
I could feel my cheeks getting crimson and heated
As we pressed closer
Skin to skin
Whispering unspoken truths through laced fingers
My lipstick wore off on your neck
Around the bruises I left
Time waving goodbye as the sun slowly rose
Jan 29, 2015
Jan 29, 2015 at 10:19 PM UTC
Look at me pretty eyes,
you do not notice im in dicise,
you quietly stare at skys,
in a dream like hase with love on rise
Jan 29, 2015
Jan 29, 2015 at 8:43 PM UTC
*my favorite plaid shirt
smells of her perfume
letting memories saunter in
like she did to a room
now that it's all over
what else is there to do
except to wear my favorite plaid shirt
that smells of her perfume*
Jan 28, 2015
Jan 28, 2015 at 2:20 PM UTC
Hello my name is Anorexia
I will make you an obsessive freak
You will hate yourself
I will make you hungry and weak
I will turn your meat to bones
You will lose excessive weight
You must be super skinny
Food you must hate
Skinny is perfect
So your diet is strict
You live struggling
Because you are an addict
Do not eat breakfast
The scale numbers matter
Do not eat lunch
Do not get fatter
I promise to make you beautiful
I am your best friend
I will make you so skinny
Even if your life might end
Jan 28, 2015
Jan 28, 2015 at 12:58 PM UTC
1:32 am
I told you not to jump whispered the skeleton to the ghost
I begged you to eat replied the ghost in a voice of frost
But I wanted to fly
Jan 28, 2015
Jan 28, 2015 at 11:00 AM UTC
3:24 am
Green eyes come back
You left me stranded on the grey
I slipped into the black
Please, please
Green eyes come back
Jan 28, 2015
Jan 28, 2015 at 10:55 AM UTC
4:57 am
I find myself wondering about him
The taste of his skin calling to me in the black
His sweet breath on the back of my neck, illuminating my insides
Hands finding each other and weaving unknown sadness together
Jan 28, 2015
Jan 28, 2015 at 10:54 AM UTC
I don't think all this pain is good for me
Fuckin' up my hands punching walls.
Razor Blades to my skin
Its not good.
"A world so hateful someone would rather die then be who they are"
"A happy ending be slitting my throat"
You thought your jokes were funny
When I used to run away with tears rushing down my face, it was 'funny'
Now I stand here ready to kick the chair,
When I stop and think
"Wait"
Who needs 'em.
Bunch of insecure ******** trying to make themselves look good.
I say stay strong, **** bullies and be with people who accept you for who you are and don't give a **** what other people think.
Thank you ********
You helped me see the light.
Long Live.
Jan 26, 2015
Jan 26, 2015 at 4:18 PM UTC