Dear God, why create me this way??, Another Being for the world to sway.
God do you even listen when I pray??, Lend me your ear I’m in disarray
Lend me your hand my soul breaks away.
Lord, I’m tired of pretending to be okay, weakened by every obstacle you throw my way
My heart hurts it’s on the verge of decay
This life you’ve forced on me and I’ve fallen prey, victim from the very first light of the day
Sad and sorry I have to say, anything I owe I’d be happy to pay
But I’d rather be far away, than live in this world for another day.
Jan 4, 2021
Jan 4, 2021 at 6:53 AM UTC
And I remember watching that stupid movie
It had so many awards
Nothing scary had happened but the darkness it projected made me anxious
You held me
You held me during
You held me after
But even then,
Though comforting,
I still don’t love you
Oct 16, 2020
Oct 16, 2020 at 12:45 PM UTC
i love the way your eyes look inside me
like they can actually see me
i haven't felt like i exist in other peoples world but my own
it is like the universe sent me you
so i can remember what it feels like to live
Oct 16, 2020
Oct 16, 2020 at 12:45 PM UTC
I enjoyed a world only I could see, in a way only I understood
You came to me and spoke words we both knew
About a world only you understood
Each time we talked and in each your smiles
I could see how hard you tried and how with every word
with every smile, you tried to stir my thoughts
Ever so slightly towards your world, away from mine
Towards your definition of sadness, away from mine
My sadness you never understood, and It never left
The proof that I didn’t belong, the cause of your pity
I am happy, even without your smiles
Happy to be different, happy to breathe, to think, to live
Happy to be sad, Sad to be lonely, but happy to be me
Oct 16, 2020
Oct 16, 2020 at 12:35 PM UTC
He sat away from every one, he talked to no one
Not saying he was, but he seemed lonely
Not saying he was, but he seemed sad
Out of empathy I went towards him
Because I cared I talked to him
I smiled and I shared the joy he so much seemed to lack
Each time we talked, I smiled. He inquired and I answered
His interests, his dreams
Everything I could understand and everything I couldn’t
I accepted and in return I smiled
I smiled and I shared the beauty of life.
Oct 1, 2020
Oct 1, 2020 at 1:57 PM UTC
I have known you for a while now
Unable to tell you what I think, to reveal my feelings
Witnessed our relation become awkward and our conversations turn to greetings
Unable to reach to you with me words, unable to understand those said to me
we talked through writings, I tried to talk and share more
but we were never close enough for me to share all that I stored
Random chitchat and deep feelings, but I have found a way
To write down these thoughts and emotions in a way that pleases the soul
I am still unable for fully comprehend all you try to convey
But let this once the beauty of my words bewitch that heart, I have so long wished to know
Jun 20, 2018
Jun 20, 2018 at 3:03 PM UTC
I now see how frail was the link that binded us
How much effort we all put in to make it seem easy to be with you all
I am now far from then,
drowned in new voices,pleased by new faces
unknowing of what they think when looking at me
I now only endure this new reality awaiting the bliss of slumber
living in a past which is now all beauteous
trying to remember the moments I was then unable to forget
You are all now gone,left behind or forgotten
And I am left wondering how easy it was for you to make new ones.
Apr 20, 2018
Apr 20, 2018 at 12:32 AM UTC
I now and then have this feeling,
different from the overwhelming sadness,
the comforting joy and happiness from enjoyment.
It makes me forget my troubles or rather I feel that way when I do forget them,
about the happiness, sadness and injustice,
when I am no longer human and the beast within me vanishes.
Then sin exists no more and all is beauty,
I become a mere watcher and I observe with wonder the fullness of the creation,
which I cannot and might never fulfill to conceive.
Then with sadness, I am flooded as the feeling is swayed,
slowly but surely and I am back to being human, weak, emotive and conscious of that.
Then that feeling retreats deep within me, in parts unknown to my conscious self
now all I can do is live on and hope that feeling engulfs me once more.
Jan 12, 2018
Jan 12, 2018 at 12:27 PM UTC
We sure felt alot,
Sorrow, grief, guilt and a little of joy;
Each was a different experience, different voyage;
We were Humans,
Not of those who each day die,
Rather each day was a new life;
But one was differnt, wonderful emotion,
Unique, above all.Love;
Love made you smile,
Love made me cry,
Love made us guilty,
Love gave rise to all, fragile,
weak being, shortlife who changed us;
It was special,
A second in love became years,
And years loving you was a wonderful day;
When all was over, it was like nothing had happened,
But when I looked at you and you at me,
In the time of a heartbeat,
We felt that stream of feelings flow through us,
Yes, we once lived.
Jun 12, 2017
Jun 12, 2017 at 8:22 AM UTC