Why do you keep relapsing?
Well,
Its like yours mind give s you a hunderd reasons
To be happy.
And your depression says
Wait.
Here's a reason to be sad.
Every single thing thats wrong,
That you have done wrong
In your entire life.
All of the memories
And then that voice over rules
Everything.
Dec 12, 2015
Dec 12, 2015 at 9:12 AM UTC
Home alone.
You break down,
letting out everything,
crying as loud as you can.
Your family come home,
and here you go.
Fake smile,fake laugh,
pretend everything okay.
They do not suspect a thing.
They do not suspect their child is broken and falling apart.
Sep 1, 2015
Sep 1, 2015 at 7:04 PM UTC
Everyday it gets harder.
Everyday it is a nightmare
progressing on and on.
Everyday is another prayer
echoing from my bones,
asking God to please take me now.
Everyday I close up more and more.
It is getting more impossible to stay here.
Everyday I feel myself die more and more.
When I lay down each night,
I wonder how ill leave this hell..
I never felt so much pain.
Aug 16, 2015
Aug 16, 2015 at 1:07 PM UTC
Just one cut,
During the night,
Crimson red that feels so right.
Drops that last all through the night,
Your only friend,
A shiny knife.
The ones you love,
Only judge,
so no one knows,
The horrible curse.
You start out young,
Then move on,
The marks are deep,
The scars are long.
The ones that stop you,
Care the most,
The ones that don't,
Just let you go...
You try to stop,
But thoughts come back,
You mark again,
It's not your last.
You are the smart,
You hide the marks,
Beneath layers of cloth,
In hidden spots.
The very next day,
the thoughts come back,
It starts all again,
the marks are back,
that forever last
Only some,
Who truly know,
The life of having a horrible curse....
Jul 22, 2015
Jul 22, 2015 at 12:22 PM UTC
When the urges are to high,
take some time to breath..
I know is hard to breath then,
but you will get through this..
This storm won't last forever,
take some time to look back at your life.
It may seem like it was horrible and not worth the memory's,
but your wrong..
God put you here for a reason.
So when you get those thoughts and urges.
Just take 15 minutes and,
breath, and try to relax.
Do something that will get your mind of those things.
God will never put something in your life,
that he knows you can't handle.
You can get through it with his help,
and your strength in him..
Jun 14, 2015
Jun 14, 2015 at 2:39 PM UTC
The sweetest lie I told myself
The lie was sweet as honey
I told myself I wasn't in love
Although I am going crazy
You are always in my mind
You are there all the time
Although I'm afraid to admit
I can't sleep nor could I eat
I only think about you
That is all I could do
My greatest fear that I know
Is that I'm afraid to be alone
But the worst thing than being alone
Is watching you leave outside my door
With somebody by your side
The moment when you left mine
Jun 14, 2015
Jun 14, 2015 at 2:16 PM UTC
i just
want to
stay home
the world
is full of
********
that want to
break your heart
and
ex-girlfriends
that want to
break your face
i just
want to
stay home
id rather not
waste
the make up
Jun 14, 2015
Jun 14, 2015 at 2:08 PM UTC
Don't you dare tell me I am beautiful.
Until you have seen my scars...
That are craved into my body,
and the blood that pours out of my soul..
Don't you dare tell me I am lovely,
until I completely shut you out of my life..
Because I swore to myself,
you are just like the others and you will get sick of me.....
Don't you dare tell me I am flawless,
until you have seen me break down in tears..
I will show you the darkness that's inside me that's consumes me,
and you will run away form me...
But if you,
have seen my scars,
my bitterness,
and darkness...
Then I might believe you....
Jun 2, 2015
Jun 2, 2015 at 9:41 AM UTC