broken-poet - Hello Poetry

Pretty girl with your silver hair And smile that could outshine the sun I’ve come undone just at the sight of you I don’t have the courage to talk to you So I don’t know what your voice sounds like But I’ve heard your laugh and it’s most divine I could never talk to you You are a child of the stars Your beauty makes me stutter And me I’m just a mere human wishing for a star I don’t expect for my wish to be granted

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Sep 15, 2018

Sep 15, 2018 at 9:52 PM UTC

broken-poet

Pretty Girl, turns out she's straight

Pretty girl with your silver hair And smile that could outshine the sun I’ve come undone just at the sight of you I don’t have the courage to talk to you So I don’t know what your voice sounds like But I’ve heard your laugh and it’s most divine I could never talk to you You are a child of the stars Your beauty makes me stutter And me I’m just a mere human wishing for a star I don’t expect for my wish to be granted

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I’m drowning I’m supposed to be feeling better I’m talking to someone My feelings are out in the open I no longer want to slit my wrists in a bathtub I no longer feel the urge to slit my wrists period But I’m not better I’m drowning in my own tears In a salty sea of self hate I barely keep my head above water Then a big wave comes and I think I’m a goner I slowly sink to the bottom I know this is it It’s over Then the current pulls me back up to the surface I float for a bit Then the cycle starts all over I’m drowning and there’s nothing I can do to stop it

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Jul 11, 2018

Jul 11, 2018 at 11:51 PM UTC

broken-poet

drowning

I’m drowning I’m supposed to be feeling better I’m talking to someone My feelings are out in the open I no longer want to slit my wrists in a bathtub I no longer feel the urge to slit my wrists period But I’m not better I’m drowning in my own tears In a salty sea of self hate I barely keep my head above water Then a big wave comes and I think I’m a goner I slowly sink to the bottom I know this is it It’s over Then the current pulls me back up to the surface I float for a bit Then the cycle starts all over I’m drowning and there’s nothing I can do to stop it

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I hate my birthday It’s never been about me or what I want It’s always been about accommodating other people And after spending a week trying to find a restaurant that will fit everyone’s needs FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY They still have the audacity to find something to nitpick and voice their annoyed opinions I hate my birthday Everyone expects you to be happy and cheery If you're not exactly what they need you to be to make them feel good about themselves then they give you **** for it I should get an Emmy for my acting skills I haven’t had a good birthday since I can remember My family doesn’t know that They think I love my birthday every year They notice what suits them My birthday has been a dreaded day since I can remember I’m a good actor but keeping up the act non-stop And amping it up on special occasions it gets really tiring

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Jul 11, 2018

Jul 11, 2018 at 11:47 PM UTC

broken-poet

birthday

I hate my birthday It’s never been about me or what I want It’s always been about accommodating other people And after spending a week trying to find a restaurant that will fit everyone’s needs FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY They still have the audacity to find something to nitpick and voice their annoyed opinions I hate my birthday Everyone expects you to be happy and cheery If you're not exactly what they need you to be to make them feel good about themselves then they give you **** for it I should get an Emmy for my acting skills I haven’t had a good birthday since I can remember My family doesn’t know that They think I love my birthday every year They notice what suits them My birthday has been a dreaded day since I can remember I’m a good actor but keeping up the act non-stop And amping it up on special occasions it gets really tiring

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I wasn’t gonna leave a note I was gonna just do it With no thoughts for my family I wasn’t thinking about them I just wanted everything to stop I wasn’t gonna leave I know that’s horrible but how would I explain my pain in a note How would a note help them in any way If they didn’t have a note then they’d just assume it was bullying If I left them a note they’d have to come to terms with the fact that All the signs were right in front of them for years If I left them a note it wouldn't be to help them feel better it’d be to tell them how they could have stopped it if only they’d paid attention If I left a note it wouldn't benefit anyone so why should I have left a note

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Jul 11, 2018

Jul 11, 2018 at 11:43 PM UTC

broken-poet

a note

I wasn’t gonna leave a note I was gonna just do it With no thoughts for my family I wasn’t thinking about them I just wanted everything to stop I wasn’t gonna leave I know that’s horrible but how would I explain my pain in a note How would a note help them in any way If they didn’t have a note then they’d just assume it was bullying If I left them a note they’d have to come to terms with the fact that All the signs were right in front of them for years If I left them a note it wouldn't be to help them feel better it’d be to tell them how they could have stopped it if only they’d paid attention If I left a note it wouldn't benefit anyone so why should I have left a note

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"You need to chill." "Why don't you just relax?" "Why are you so sensitive?" "Why are you depressed?" "What are you doing about your depression?" "Why don't you just eat something?" "Are you even trying to get better?" "You're not trying" "Why don't you try harder?" "You should workout more" "Why don't you grow your hair out?" "If you lost more weight you'd be really **** "You need to learn how to entertain yourself" "Everyone has problems" "Would you just stop talking" "You make everything about yourself" "You're just confused" "We've plateaued" "My mom thinks you hate her" "You don't listen to feedback" "You make jab comments" "You take everything as a jab comment" "If you can't see I'm trying to help you then, sorry" "I don't have the mental fortitude to deal with you" "You're not supportive enough of others" "I give up" "You complain to much" "You just sit around and mope all the time" "You're always on your phone" "You bring up the past to much" "You don't do enough around the house" "You should be grateful for what affection you get" "Why are you anxious?" "You make me crazy" "I don't care" "You're too needy" "You need to just get over it" "I give up, there's no talking to you" "I can't say anything to you without you getting upset" "Just stop crying" "You need to be nicer" "You're impeding my progress"

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broken-poet

Jul 6, 2018

Jul 6, 2018 at 1:58 AM UTC

AlainaPoetry

Fault

"You need to chill." "Why don't you just relax?" "Why are you so sensitive?" "Why are you depressed?" "What are you doing about your depression?" "Why don't you just eat something?" "Are you even trying to get better?" "You're not trying" "Why don't you try harder?" "You should workout more" "Why don't you grow your hair out?" "If you lost more weight you'd be really **** "You need to learn how to entertain yourself" "Everyone has problems" "Would you just stop talking" "You make everything about yourself" "You're just confused" "We've plateaued" "My mom thinks you hate her" "You don't listen to feedback" "You make jab comments" "You take everything as a jab comment" "If you can't see I'm trying to help you then, sorry" "I don't have the mental fortitude to deal with you" "You're not supportive enough of others" "I give up" "You complain to much" "You just sit around and mope all the time" "You're always on your phone" "You bring up the past to much" "You don't do enough around the house" "You should be grateful for what affection you get" "Why are you anxious?" "You make me crazy" "I don't care" "You're too needy" "You need to just get over it" "I give up, there's no talking to you" "I can't say anything to you without you getting upset" "Just stop crying" "You need to be nicer" "You're impeding my progress"

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I don’t want to die I just don’t want to be alive I can’t live with my pain Add on the pain of the world I can’t handle with the monsters in my closet I can’t bare the ones infecting this planet I’ve tried to be strong It just doesn’t work I don’t want to **** myself But if I were to slip into darkness never to wake that would be a-ok

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Jul 6, 2018

Jul 6, 2018 at 1:51 AM UTC

broken-poet

Me

I don’t want to die I just don’t want to be alive I can’t live with my pain Add on the pain of the world I can’t handle with the monsters in my closet I can’t bare the ones infecting this planet I’ve tried to be strong It just doesn’t work I don’t want to **** myself But if I were to slip into darkness never to wake that would be a-ok

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I stopped because I lost my blade I stopped because my blade broke I stopped because my blade was dull I stopped because I became numb to my blade I stopped because my blade no longer had the needed effect My blade is gone I’ve now found new ways to do what I need

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Jul 6, 2018

Jul 6, 2018 at 1:50 AM UTC

broken-poet

My blade

I stopped because I lost my blade I stopped because my blade broke I stopped because my blade was dull I stopped because I became numb to my blade I stopped because my blade no longer had the needed effect My blade is gone I’ve now found new ways to do what I need

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**** doesn’t always hide At parties and outside clubs **** doesn’t always hide In dark alleys and empty parking lots Sometimes it is right in front of you But you choose to look the other way **** doesn’t always hide Behind the faces of strangers in the night Sometimes it is hiding behind the closed doors Of your uncles Cousins Fathers And brothers **** isn’t always loud- Screaming, yelling, and crying Sometimes **** is quiet- Gasping for air and silent tears

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broken-poet

Jul 6, 2018

Jul 6, 2018 at 1:38 AM UTC

She_Writes

**** Doesn’t Hide (trigger warning)

**** doesn’t always hide At parties and outside clubs **** doesn’t always hide In dark alleys and empty parking lots Sometimes it is right in front of you But you choose to look the other way **** doesn’t always hide Behind the faces of strangers in the night Sometimes it is hiding behind the closed doors Of your uncles Cousins Fathers And brothers **** isn’t always loud- Screaming, yelling, and crying Sometimes **** is quiet- Gasping for air and silent tears

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1:43 AM I should be asleep I was on my way to being asleep Then a thought filled my mind I had to write it down before I forgot how important it was 1:45 AM I should be asleep I just can’t seem to make myself want to sleep Maybe I haven’t written in awhile because I’m most creative when I should be asleep I guess we’ll never know 1:48 AM I should be asleep I should be closing my eyes and waiting and hoping for sleep to consume me 1:49 AM I should be asleep I want to be asleep I wish I could go to sleep 1:51 AM I am going to close my laptop, close my eyes and pray for sleep, and I will eventually fall asleep.

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Jun 10, 2018

Jun 10, 2018 at 1:53 AM UTC

broken-poet

1:43 AM

1:43 AM I should be asleep I was on my way to being asleep Then a thought filled my mind I had to write it down before I forgot how important it was 1:45 AM I should be asleep I just can’t seem to make myself want to sleep Maybe I haven’t written in awhile because I’m most creative when I should be asleep I guess we’ll never know 1:48 AM I should be asleep I should be closing my eyes and waiting and hoping for sleep to consume me 1:49 AM I should be asleep I want to be asleep I wish I could go to sleep 1:51 AM I am going to close my laptop, close my eyes and pray for sleep, and I will eventually fall asleep.

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dear eyes, i’ve felt you looking i’ve seen the hidden glances at first i ignore then i look back dear eyes, i’ve felt your stares and to you i stare back after a while your looks, glances, stares, they have faded so i can only say one thing dear eyes, you have derailed my life for the last time next time you feel the need to stare or glance or look at my pain just remember that i’m not afraid to stare back and haven’t you heard i stare to **** and my stares kills

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Jun 10, 2018

Jun 10, 2018 at 1:32 AM UTC

broken-poet

dear eyes,

dear eyes, i’ve felt you looking i’ve seen the hidden glances at first i ignore then i look back dear eyes, i’ve felt your stares and to you i stare back after a while your looks, glances, stares, they have faded so i can only say one thing dear eyes, you have derailed my life for the last time next time you feel the need to stare or glance or look at my pain just remember that i’m not afraid to stare back and haven’t you heard i stare to **** and my stares kills

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