gosh
i've been able to avoid the basic divorced parent kid tropes or situations
but
i've met my foe
meeting.
moms.
new.
boyfriend.
now correction
he's not her "boyfriend"
actually just a friend
but whats it matter when it comes to
(jokingly)
antagonizing your mom
(plus the fact he's another male in general has been introduced)
but why did I have to get up from my nice
(fake)
sleep
and have to stand in the doorway
and say
hi
Lord i know I looked so stupid
man
this is a new kind of self hate-
loathing?
but anyway
what's worse is that he kept a conversation going
and I had to like be with it and
like..
social interaction already kinda *****
(depends tho)
social interaction with adults ****
(also depends tho..)
but, social interaction with adult MALES
(NAHH yk what-) this is making it out the parenthesis
that, just kinda really *****
and i bet I sounded so quiet and dumb and dorky and-
and fr makes me wanna claw at my skinn
but
*sigh
the guy's still in my house
feet propped up on my ottoman
but then again, im cozied up in a blanket, high, protected in the fortress of my mom's bed, in her room
(door closed) shut away
with my computer
so
i'll just ignore it like other things and go with the flow~
(afternote though: i might need therapy or somethign for this reaction toward a male..)
Feb 15
Feb 15, 2026 at 12:39 AM UTC
Yo
i'm 13
imma teen-year-old
i'll be in EIGHTH GRADE next year
imma teenager
I can and should be able to stay home alone responsibly
imma teenager
i'm literally just a lil kid
mom, cut my pizza please
tell me when to go to sleep
imma teen-year-old
really
what is age but
a number?
i dont feel 13
thir-TEEN
imma teenager
imma teen-year-old
whats a specifc age supposed to feel like?
whats
13
12
11
10 and so on
supposed to feel like
?
im 13
imma teen-year-old
im a teenager
idk
lifes complicated
i'll focus on something else
religion
:)
Feb 14
Feb 14, 2026 at 11:17 PM UTC
i like my seed
not mine
given to me
by a tree
the orange tree
but its gonna rot
shrivel up
and be taken away
and given away
:(
i cherish my seed
good memories
good vibes
comfy
fun
me
:(
its gonna wither
and be picked
and given away
my seed
not mine anymore
i'll remeber forevermore,
remeber the vibes
of my seed
that isnt mine
Feb 7
Feb 7, 2026 at 3:21 PM UTC
im sad
there are tears
and i dont usually cry
im sad
im sad for dumb reasons
im sad cause carissa
im sad cause mikayla
im sad cause myself
im sad cause alaryce
im sad
im sad cause life
im sad cause school
im sad cause myself
it dumb its stupid
im sad with no reason to be sad
i wanna be alone
i wanna be gone
im sad
there are tears
and i want the tears to go away
i want it all to go away
im sad and dont want to be sad
i dont like sad
Feb 7
Feb 7, 2026 at 1:46 AM UTC
Jellyfish just happily float
serenely listening to ocean sounds
and its seems nice
really nice
i would like being a jellyfish
jellyfish are beautiful
so pretty
and light
ethereal
picture perfect
and best of all
they're just jelly
no thoughts
just floating through the ocean without a care
without a rambling inner voice
no whisper in their head
jelly fish just float
all alone in the ocean contentedly
together with lots serenly
happy alone
or with others
no matter the circumstance
jellyfish
i wish i were a jellyfish
no thoughts
just pretty
content
jellyfish
Feb 7
Feb 7, 2026 at 1:43 AM UTC
sparkly juice with ice
a kiss
a b-i-g kiss
a big kiss as valuable as a big hug
this is just a piece of writing
a "poem"
idk
what defines a poem?
will not be getting into that tonight
i like being alone
i feel the most like myself when alone :D
not like sad alone
that..that was blehh
but just aniyah
aniyah
aniyah's such a ****** lol
and aniyah's totally aniyah
all alone
i've been doing my duolingo
and adding whatchamacallits to my words!
'
...
ooh!
i watched
i listened?
to alien stage a bit ago, it was-
marin happy gushing sounds
that
yeah that :)
yapp on paper --
yapp on a keyboard ^^
aniyah yapps
whats up with her
so many thoughts
so much..
...
just yapp
its 5 now
no more sparkling juice
not till there's ice!
c:
Feb 7
Feb 7, 2026 at 1:16 AM UTC