it hurts to live without you
with you I feel I am not myself
I cannot find happiness
with or without you
everyday is torture
my life is hell on earth
I scratch at my arms for release
all I see is scars
im not myself
it shouldn't be this way
**** society
and what is expected of me
I want to die happy
I want to live free
Feb 16, 2015
Feb 16, 2015 at 10:31 PM UTC
Change is good.
we need to change.
we learn, we grow
and we change
for the better
I've changed
and boy,
have you changed.
And
We've changed
into people that
aren't compatible
I love you
so its time
to part and to
let each other
grow.
Feb 6, 2015
Feb 6, 2015 at 8:28 PM UTC
The things
That build you
Are the things
That will break you
Jan 5, 2015
Jan 5, 2015 at 12:08 AM UTC
all you
its always been about you
i lost myself along the way
im miserable and hurt
we both are
but i cant always think of fixing you
whos going to fix me?
i need to think of myself.
just this once
about me
Jan 4, 2015
Jan 4, 2015 at 8:36 PM UTC
The world spins slowly,
Yet we feel nothing.
A strange concept,
That we are in motion,
Yet motionless.
A body, with nerves.
Feeling and thoughts.
Blood and a brain.
All these things I feel
As I feel nothing.
A rush of adrenaline,
and still I tempt my fate.
Tear at my skin to feel again,
but all it brings is tears.
To force myself to feel
is growing quite old.
3 years and I'm still lost.
My head spins.
I sit still.
A strange concept,
That I am in motion,
Yet motionless.
Jan 3, 2015
Jan 3, 2015 at 6:14 AM UTC
Left behind
I knew all along I wasn't enough
If still hurts
Seeing you happy without me
I thought I loved you
It may have just been friendship
I was confused
You were looking for something I'm not.
Loving a friend is a short distance
From romantic love
The lines blurred, so I stepped back.
You came out.
I knew you were, but I was in denial.
Asexuals are weird,
No primary ****** attraction.
That means I can't distinguish
Like from love.
Either way,
I love you.
Jan 3, 2015
Jan 3, 2015 at 6:08 AM UTC
Breathe.
I try, but the words are stuck in my throat.
I brush it off,
"Nothing, nothing."
Everything is trapped,
And inside I cry.
My escape is brief,
But it eases the pain.
I soar, happy.
Everything is a breeze,
I think it'll last this time...
But I crash yet again.
Coming down is harder.
I lose myself.
There's no point, I want out.
A vicious cycle of destruction:
Panic, pain, push through...
Breathe
Dec 14, 2014
Dec 14, 2014 at 3:10 PM UTC
I am full of you.
every action, every thought,
reminds me of you
youre all I want,
though you don't see.
I love that youre my best friend
but I want more
Oct 12, 2014
Oct 12, 2014 at 6:53 PM UTC
Take these words and hold them dear
as proof that once I lingered here
within these hallowed written walls
that speak the fate of one and all.
Do not mourn me when I'm gone
heal your heart and carry on.
In sorrow ne'er my heart did dwell
for I was blessed to know you well.
Place no flowers, lay no stone
for barren earth is not my home
no marker there to bare my name
no mourners heads bowed deep in shame.
Shed a solitary tear,
then walk in light and never fear
as darkness creeps across the land
I will be there to hold your hand.
Sep 2, 2014
Sep 2, 2014 at 12:22 AM UTC
I don't know if what I'm feeling is right
Staying up late, thinking of what this is
What we are, and what we could become
I dream of you, dreaming of me.
Laying in the grass late at night,
Listening to music and pouring our hearts out.
These things I imagine, and will never see.
You let go before I was ready,
Idle, I sit waiting for your return.
Lost, like a balloon in the sky.
Free, but needing something
Anything to hold on to.
I've lost my way.
Sep 2, 2014
Sep 2, 2014 at 12:20 AM UTC