*in the deepest and utmost corner of my heart
the pain is being hidden*
*and on the outside
you will witness
my sweetest smile*
*if only
you will catch a glimpse
behind those eyes
is the loneliness that being kept*
*if only
you will stop and stare for awhile
you will find out
that i am in despair*
*i was wondering
if the saying*
"in the eyes you will see the real feelings of a person"
is true
because why can't you see?
that i am
alone
crying
and
dying
inside?
©IGMS
Dec 28, 2015
Dec 28, 2015 at 6:49 PM UTC
Lakasan mo naman ang iyong loob
Ang isip, 'wag hayaang makulob
ng kalungkutan at kaba
Labanan mo, lumaban ka.
Alam kong gabi-gabi ang iyong pag-iyak
pero sa dulo, ikaw rin ang magagalak.
Alam kong pagod ka na,
pero ngayon ka pa ba susuko?
Laban lang, sugod lang.
Wala sa nakaraan ang inaasam
Kaya 'wag kang aatras.
Kaya mo yan, kaya ko 'to.
Dec 28, 2015
Dec 28, 2015 at 6:48 PM UTC
It feels like someone's continuously tapping a hammer on your heart and I know you've taped her together so many times and there's still so many fresh wounds covered in band aids. But you refuse to let her break. You refuse to hide her behind your ribs where it's safe and protected from all the coldness and cruelty of the world. And every night you wash her cuts clean with your salty tears and tuck her under your sleeve, careful not to touch the bruises. But you're the only one who's careful with her aren't you? You're the only one who night after night still believes in her and tells her she's still capable of love and someday you're going to give her to someone and they're not going to have guns for hands and bullets for words. They're not going to grab her and hold her against their chest and whisper that they'll be there for her no matter what, only to carelessly drop her, sometimes throw her aside, when realizing how close to falling apart she is. Don't they see how hard it is keeping her in one piece when all anyone tries to do is rip her to shreds? Don't they see that you're trying to love and love and love in the hopes of getting some in return to fill these cracks? The worst is when you see other broken and battered hearts, and with the sole intention of helping them you only end up in worse pain than before. I can't stop crying I can't stop crying. Somethings got to wash her bleeding wounds. She might be ruined but she's still capable of love. She is. I am. I am. I am.
Nov 19, 2015
Nov 19, 2015 at 1:02 PM UTC
The fading memories are all I have,
Since when you left and didn't say goodbye
Those promises you made are all I have,
They taste like poison on which my heart sighs
That pain you gave is all I have,
How ruthless you've become;here your friend cries
These words which I write are all I have,
They make fun of it; still better than your lies
The broken trust is all I have,
In this mean world and these fake smiles.
Nov 14, 2015
Nov 14, 2015 at 8:42 AM UTC
It's been 202 days
Since the last time we're together
202 days since I last held you,
202 days since we last kissed,
And everyday that I wasn't with you
Is everyday I missed you
Because I love you.
202 days and counting...
Nov 14, 2015
Nov 14, 2015 at 8:41 AM UTC
I lay in my bed and think about you
I love you so much I don't know what to do
I feel your warmth at my side
The pain in my heart moves to my eyes
So far away yet always so near
You are the reason I am still here.
I await the times when we can talk
I await the times we can finally hold hands and walk
To feel you for real... so close to me
The happiest person in the world is what you would make me.
Your eyes shine like a million suns
You shine more brightly than anyone
Your smile so sweet can't help but make me smile
It stops my world even for a little while
I await the time when my hand is in yours
To hear you say those 3 little words.
There are still no words I can say to describe
My heart it aches and my eyes they cry
But when we talk my heart flies
you always wipe away the tears I cry.
Even though you aren't here
And I miss you so much my dear
I'll love you forever and ever
I'll always love you my far away lover.
Oct 23, 2015
Oct 23, 2015 at 12:35 PM UTC