Is it just me
or is the rain amazing
I wish we got more here
I love the rain because even though it makes you cold and wet
It feels comforting and warm, like a blanket
The rain also gives of a happily depressing feeling
It's beautiful
As the rain drips down my face
I cry
because the rain is like a friend
you can share your secrets and sadness with it
and it won't tell anyone
When I go inside I lift my blinds
get in my pj's
get a fuzzy blanket
make hot chocolate
and listen to the pitter pat on my window
Rain I love you
Oct 22, 2018
Oct 22, 2018 at 11:02 PM UTC
I hate you more than anything
more than I hate myself
and it's all your fault
You trap me in a box
but I can't breath or see
You scare me
**** it
you TERRIFY me
It's like drowning
but I can see everyone around me
breathing
As much as I hate you
I love you
because
you were there to hold me
when nobody else would
I have one more thing to say to you
**** You
You take everything I love away from me
except my true friends
who aren't afraid of you
I don't mind anymore
But recently you took away the one person I love the most
call him what you want
I could care less
Carberry
Cranberry
or simply
Quinn
and that is why I say such awful things about you.
Oct 22, 2018
Oct 22, 2018 at 10:42 PM UTC
There's only so much you can take
I guess I've pushed you to that edge that I never meant to
Now you say you want space
that's fine
I can't look at you anymore without thinking about what you said
I can't think about you without crying
Which is why I avoid my eyes whenever I pass you
Please forgive me and my cuts
Hug me tight enough to show that you care
Please talk to me
I think I
L o s t m y m i n d
Oct 11, 2018
Oct 11, 2018 at 12:53 PM UTC
We’re all as bad as we can be
We’re all as rebellious as hell
We’re all bullies
We all sneak out to smoke and do drugs
Even though we only 13
Even though just last year we were still in the same middle school
Even though we are still surrounded by the same people
All of us end up having bigger demons then last year
Most of us are living ticking timebombs on the verge of suicide
Most of us are terrified of the future and will do anything to get away from that
We all yearn to go back to the time when we could just play hangman
Most can’t play hangman because we know hangman is the perfect example of if you say the wrong thing you can end someone’s life
We’re not all bad on purpose some of us are just
b r o k e n
Aug 2, 2018
Aug 2, 2018 at 12:18 AM UTC
"He doesn't love you, sorry."
Oh, really, that's fine I wouldn't love me either.
"Oh, it's okay. I'll get over it."
I'm not surprised he doesn't like me
I mean there's really nothing to like about me!
I'm
U g l y
I'm
S e l f i s h
I'm
W O R T H L E S S
Everybody else is so
beautiful
and perfect.
I'm nothing and he's something
So don't worry,
I w o u l d n ' t l o v e m e e i t h e r
j.b.
Jul 31, 2018
Jul 31, 2018 at 8:52 PM UTC
In the deepest of nights
the monster comes to me
It hurts me so much
but it says
I t l o v e s m e
It tortures me deep into the night
consuming ever last bit of me until I'm almost
g o n e
That's when I start to control myself
I look down at the razor
'This isn't what I want to do'
I tell myself but
I d o i t a n y w a y.
Cut, C u t, C u t
It doesn't hurt but it distracts me
I don't want to cut up my arms so. . .
snip, s n i p, s n i p
I cut my hair instead and look at how pathetic I am
As the tears stream down my face I pick myself up and wait for tomorrow to get it fixed.
j.b.
Jul 30, 2018
Jul 30, 2018 at 4:49 PM UTC
The night is so beautiful,
the stars shine so bright
They make me so happy.
Lying down and looking at the space over you
not knowing what they mean or are.
Getting up and looking over the cliff
wonder what would happen if you jumped,
but then the moon tells you that you're important
So you go back to your car
and go home
j.b
Jul 28, 2018
Jul 28, 2018 at 3:18 PM UTC
The silence is suffocating
the demons sneak in through the silence
they scream that I'm
W o r t h l e s s
S e l f i s h
N u i s a n c e
N O T H I N G
Shut up, Shut up, Shut up
SHUT UP, SHUT UP
S H U T U P
But I stay quiet
even in the most painful moments
Those moments make me want to
S C R E A M
M Y
G U T S
O U T
But again, I just stay
q u i e t
j.b.
Jul 28, 2018
Jul 28, 2018 at 12:05 AM UTC
At first I only saw you
You, your brown hair,
your acne covered tan face,
your smile
just as it was
Then more of your personality started to show
and I fell in love you
Your silliness,
your sense of humor,
your sense of fun
But then your image changed to me
I didn't just see you
your smile
your hair
or your face
I saw someone extraordinary
the cutest smile
acne that complements beautiful skin
adorable curly brown hair
But then you said you didn't like me
And that destroys me
but i can't stop loving you
G o d , s t o p l o v i n g h i m
j.b
Jul 27, 2018
Jul 27, 2018 at 3:20 PM UTC
It’s okay….
I'm just tired.
T-Torn
I-Insecure
R-Ruined
E-Emotional
D-Depressed
No amount of sleep can get rid of the tiredness I feel.
I’m really happy.
H-Hiding
A-Anxious
P-Pretending
P-Pained
Y-Yearning
My smiles are faker than the popular kids
When people try to ask what’s wrong and I tell them, it makes me feel selfish.
S-Self centered
E-Emotional
L-Low
F-Fake
I-Intolerant
S-Shameful
H-Horrible
All my friends look so perfect in my eyes
E-Encouraging
M-Marvelous
M-Magnificent
A-Astonishing
Emma
Q-Quirky
U-Unique
I-Incredible
N-Nice
N-Neat
Quinn
M-Magical
E-Extraordinary
L-Loving
E-Exceptional
Mele
L-Loyal
E-Empathetic
A-Amazing
R-Radiant
S-Supportive
I-Inspiring
And Learsi
I want to be as selfless and amazing as them but this thing inside my head says I’m not good enough to be.
J-Jealous
O-Obnoxious
C-Clumsy
E-Exhausting
L-Liar
Y-Yielding
N-Nuisance
These are more than just words.
j.b
Jul 27, 2018
Jul 27, 2018 at 2:26 PM UTC