Sinnet - Hello Poetry

Do you know what the worst part is? As much as you break my heart into two, I can not help but love you. You pull me back in with the simplest thing and suddenly i’m good as new. no scratches, no bruises it’s almost like you never hurt me at all and my heart has never been split into two.

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Aug 11, 2018

Aug 11, 2018 at 4:56 PM UTC

Sinnet

Two

Do you know what the worst part is? As much as you break my heart into two, I can not help but love you. You pull me back in with the simplest thing and suddenly i’m good as new. no scratches, no bruises it’s almost like you never hurt me at all and my heart has never been split into two.

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Sometimes i wish i could go back to the end of 2015 and the very beginning of 2016. I don’t remember having very many deep emotions or overwhelming feelings i just remember floating on top of everything. The only big emotion i really remember having was when i got my first real feelings for a girl. I used to stay up reading wattpad stories and the only song i would listen to was lost boy. I dreamed of being in love one day, and i would wake up everyday thinking of a new way i can finally talk to her. It all seemed so simple. I was so innocent, so pure. My hair was down to my waist, straight as could be, tamed and frizz free. I didn’t know anything, i was blind, i was excited to be alive, i had no idea one day my hair would be at my shoulders and my life would take a turn. Now i take pain killers because i don’t want to be in pain anymore and i always check the weather before i visit the cutter. I hope it’s not all over, i hope some of my innocence is still there, i hope it’s not all gone forever, i hope my hair grows back to where it once were.

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Aug 10, 2018

Aug 10, 2018 at 7:16 AM UTC

Sinnet

hair

Sometimes i wish i could go back to the end of 2015 and the very beginning of 2016. I don’t remember having very many deep emotions or overwhelming feelings i just remember floating on top of everything. The only big emotion i really remember having was when i got my first real feelings for a girl. I used to stay up reading wattpad stories and the only song i would listen to was lost boy. I dreamed of being in love one day, and i would wake up everyday thinking of a new way i can finally talk to her. It all seemed so simple. I was so innocent, so pure. My hair was down to my waist, straight as could be, tamed and frizz free. I didn’t know anything, i was blind, i was excited to be alive, i had no idea one day my hair would be at my shoulders and my life would take a turn. Now i take pain killers because i don’t want to be in pain anymore and i always check the weather before i visit the cutter. I hope it’s not all over, i hope some of my innocence is still there, i hope it’s not all gone forever, i hope my hair grows back to where it once were.

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What to do with a mind you can not control A mind that thinks of things you wished it didn't behaves a way that isn't you Split or multiple but their is certainly more than one personality residing in this mind Scares me with the images, with the dreams I'm losing control over something that belongs to me I'm losing me So far no voices but the images I see the way it controls my every move I can not help it but I'm losing control It scares me that I can not keep control of something that is so capable of beauty love compassion friendship peace It scares me that I am losing everything that makes me, me My mind is something I can not control

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Sinnet

Jun 21, 2018

Jun 21, 2018 at 6:07 AM UTC

craig-harrison

Can not control

What to do with a mind you can not control A mind that thinks of things you wished it didn't behaves a way that isn't you Split or multiple but their is certainly more than one personality residing in this mind Scares me with the images, with the dreams I'm losing control over something that belongs to me I'm losing me So far no voices but the images I see the way it controls my every move I can not help it but I'm losing control It scares me that I can not keep control of something that is so capable of beauty love compassion friendship peace It scares me that I am losing everything that makes me, me My mind is something I can not control

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I still reference you in conversations. I still smell your flannels. I wonder how soft your hair is today. I kiss the walls of the shower just to hear the same pop our lips would make. I wish I had endless pictures of your collar bones and eyes. I wish I had endless access to your thighs and chest and that dot on your neck. When I *** I say your name. Your voice recordings aren't the same. I want you to call and put me to sleep with your breath and I want this all without the repercussions. I want you to be my friend. And I want the benefit of you being my lover again.

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Sinnet

Apr 25, 2018

Apr 25, 2018 at 5:24 PM UTC

dolores-l-day

'Friends with Benefits' don't benefit at all.

I still reference you in conversations. I still smell your flannels. I wonder how soft your hair is today. I kiss the walls of the shower just to hear the same pop our lips would make. I wish I had endless pictures of your collar bones and eyes. I wish I had endless access to your thighs and chest and that dot on your neck. When I *** I say your name. Your voice recordings aren't the same. I want you to call and put me to sleep with your breath and I want this all without the repercussions. I want you to be my friend. And I want the benefit of you being my lover again.

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I waited...and I waited But I never got that phone call The one that I have been waiting for all day Just to hear your voice To hear the reason why Why you chose to end us Why you chose to stop loving me Why you chose to throw away something of significance But instead...I get a text

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Sinnet

Apr 25, 2018

Apr 25, 2018 at 4:44 PM UTC

JustAriana

The Phone Call

I waited...and I waited But I never got that phone call The one that I have been waiting for all day Just to hear your voice To hear the reason why Why you chose to end us Why you chose to stop loving me Why you chose to throw away something of significance But instead...I get a text

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She swept down from the heavens To find me Then eyed me Lashes long and eyes longing She kissed like a Goddess If Goddesses have Long purple tongues And swept me off of my feet I almost fell for her then But I could tell It wasn't her First time And she had Other men

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Sinnet

Apr 25, 2018

Apr 25, 2018 at 1:09 PM UTC

james-jarrett

Giraffes are good kissers

She swept down from the heavens To find me Then eyed me Lashes long and eyes longing She kissed like a Goddess If Goddesses have Long purple tongues And swept me off of my feet I almost fell for her then But I could tell It wasn't her First time And she had Other men

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Oh, ocean Take me away Envelope me in your waves Wash me away from the shore. Freeze me Numb my pain Let me drown In your vastness. Let me sink To the bottom of the ocean.

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Sinnet

Apr 25, 2018

Apr 25, 2018 at 11:19 AM UTC

ccjisawesome

Ocean

Oh, ocean Take me away Envelope me in your waves Wash me away from the shore. Freeze me Numb my pain Let me drown In your vastness. Let me sink To the bottom of the ocean.

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Upheaval of the present Takes you back to nostalgia Fragments of memories Plays in your mind Incoherent thoughts edited A certain place in the past Where a part of you lived No matter how far you have come Nostalgia takes over It’s a romance with the past The vintage film in black n white Now plays, colored with imagination

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Sinnet

Apr 23, 2018

Apr 23, 2018 at 12:54 PM UTC

amitav

Nostalgia

Upheaval of the present Takes you back to nostalgia Fragments of memories Plays in your mind Incoherent thoughts edited A certain place in the past Where a part of you lived No matter how far you have come Nostalgia takes over It’s a romance with the past The vintage film in black n white Now plays, colored with imagination

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You were the one That helped me Find myself Once again Lost in an ocean Drowning in my vices Of my hurting spirit You told me it That it was all me That I had it in myself To get up again The whole time But I still thanked you For that helping hand You reached out To grab my drowning hand And you helped Me pull myself out But now I'm drowning again And this time You're the one holding me under You are crushing everything You've told me That was so positive So helpful So kind So caring And you tell me Exactly what I was telling myself While I was drowning I don't know why You are doing this to me You make me feel So worthless I feel a pain Strait in my chest For every time you hurt me With venomous words And a contorted face Of misplaced anger You even said That I'm worthless You told me I was pathetic You told me "*I can say whatever I want to you, And do whatever I want to you, because I'll never lose you.*" While you held me in you're arms Stupid me Said yeah... Because it's true I love you Too much for my own good That was The most defeated voice I've ever heard in myself Where have you gone?

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Sinnet

Apr 23, 2018

Apr 23, 2018 at 12:49 PM UTC

Thedeerwitch

Held Under

You were the one That helped me Find myself Once again Lost in an ocean Drowning in my vices Of my hurting spirit You told me it That it was all me That I had it in myself To get up again The whole time But I still thanked you For that helping hand You reached out To grab my drowning hand And you helped Me pull myself out But now I'm drowning again And this time You're the one holding me under You are crushing everything You've told me That was so positive So helpful So kind So caring And you tell me Exactly what I was telling myself While I was drowning I don't know why You are doing this to me You make me feel So worthless I feel a pain Strait in my chest For every time you hurt me With venomous words And a contorted face Of misplaced anger You even said That I'm worthless You told me I was pathetic You told me "*I can say whatever I want to you, And do whatever I want to you, because I'll never lose you.*" While you held me in you're arms Stupid me Said yeah... Because it's true I love you Too much for my own good That was The most defeated voice I've ever heard in myself Where have you gone?

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