Too scared
Too meek
Too quiet to speak
Pushed to the edge
When the meek
Start to speak
Speak up
Don't Speak
May 9, 2024
May 9, 2024 at 10:14 PM UTC
Feel nothing
Say nothing
Be nothing
I've tried
Feel something
Say something
Be something
I've won
I
have
become
n o n e
May 9, 2024
May 9, 2024 at 9:20 PM UTC
These thoughts
so dark
These visions
so bright
One cannot exist
without the other in line
Like the stars that shine
through empty space
Don't you see it?
The
D u a l i t y
Of
L i f e
The
B a l a n c e
Of
L i f e
We hold the key
To destroy
To create
But to wield
such power
Who are we and
Who are
You
May 6, 2024
May 6, 2024 at 12:43 AM UTC
Push, pull
Take me away
I cannot stay
All I can say is that
I loved you anyway
Oct 9, 2016
Oct 9, 2016 at 8:43 PM UTC
Could you blame me
For my mistrust
Could you blame me
For every flinch held back
My muscles remember
Your hand, their hands, his hand
He wasn't the first one
To show me l o v e ?
F E A R
He was just the worst one
Could you blame me
For always looking down
Always leaning away
Always shutting down
Every conversation
Because I'm afraid
Of where it will inevitably lead
Could you blame me
I've been
Used
Abused
Bruised
Choked
Hit and thrown
Could you blame me
I've been
Taught to be less than
Taught to be useful to others
Taught to be last
Taught that I am nothing
Shown I am nothing
So could you blame me
For being so afraid
Could you blame me
For not trusting you?
May 23, 2016
May 23, 2016 at 4:32 AM UTC
It's such a lovely thought
To have once had
Everything you've caught
In your palms
*Crumble away
As sand does
On a windy shore*
Through the spaces
From your fingers
Cascading back
Into the tide
Apr 28, 2016
Apr 28, 2016 at 2:17 AM UTC
He told me
I was beautiful
O n c e
He told me
I was ugly
Countless times
In every way
His words always sharp
Laughing like a hyena
Circling a wounded prey
His words always cold
Laced with the venom of a snake
Slowly cutting every chord
His words always hollow
Resonating
With an empty soul
Lost in its darkest thoughts
That he had proven right
But then
He would tell me that
I was beautiful
O n c e
Again
Feb 7, 2016
Feb 7, 2016 at 4:47 AM UTC
I don't know
What is left of me
Or even
If there is
Anything at all
Ground down to nothing
I am not here
Not anymore
You see
Looking back
I can see
All the signs were there
Over these last four years
Memories can't be trusted
Were they all lies?
Your sociopathic inferno of illusion
Little by little I played into
Your game of chess
Thinking I was an opponent
In good spirits
But only was the pawn
From the very beginning
Spiraled into your manipulative ways
You were the puppet master
Now I see
And now the damage is done
Over
But not
Really ever
And yet
You still find a way
To pour salt in the wound
And you are not
Even here
Just sharp words
That cut me down to size
Smaller
And smaller
Until I cower once again
My mistake was bowing down
My mistake was valuing
Y O U
Over M E
Now I'm left
Deeper in the pit
Damaged beyond return
I am broken
Left less of a being
That I was before
Jan 26, 2016
Jan 26, 2016 at 3:29 AM UTC
Cringing
At the memories you
Left me with
Backed into a corner
Broken on the floor
Tears streaming down
You
Towing over me
As I cower
Covering my naked frame
From your threatening punches
That you stopped
Right before
My face
Over and over
Laughing
Asking
If I really thought that
You were going to hit me
This is the terror
I relive thinking of you
Left shattered
With thoughts suffocating
Shattered
With marks
You left me for dead
Shattered with the thought
That I once trusted you
Memories only prove
To me once more
Trust no one
Love means
Being backed into a corner
Love means
Terror
As you wrap hands around my throat
Love means
Testing me
To see how far
I'd let you take it
Over the edge
That's what love taught me
You weren't the first
But I had prayed
That you weren't the worst
Jan 26, 2016
Jan 26, 2016 at 2:39 AM UTC
Seems that I always came last
Didn't know how to put myself first
Took care of others to fill a void
That I couldn't place
Tried to be there
Tried to give
What I didn't really have
So I gave up myself
All of me
Everything
To others
Gave it all away
Gave everything I cherished
To those I cherished
Because happiness matters, right?
But my own happiness
I could never find
I don't think I ever had that in mind
Because I gave it to others
So they wouldn't have the void
That ate away at me
Couldn't find myself
But I never had an idea of who I was anyway
Serving the needs of others
So I didn't have to face
The lack of self
That I never gained
So I put myself on a shelf
Saved for later
And collected dust
Forgotten and left alone
For all the years that came
A love that was boundless
Never shined bright enough
So I left myself on the shelf
Hoping someone would
Return the favor
And here I am collecting dust
Left to myself once again
Lost to the world and
Lost to myself
Forgotten
Always forgotten
Always picked last
By those you picked first
A shine that was just never enough
Jan 3, 2016
Jan 3, 2016 at 2:41 AM UTC