I've grown a crutch by my side
It's quite unstable and unpredictable
When I lose everything, it's all I lean on
Yet, sometimes it breaks, and I fall
I can stand on my own two feet
But I'm afraid I won't get very far without you beside me
Dec 4, 2019
Dec 4, 2019 at 1:05 AM UTC
No matter how deep a person will cut me
I will always turn around and say
“But they are only human”
But he didn’t mean it
He didn’t mean to give me poison
It’s a common mistake
May 24, 2019
May 24, 2019 at 12:44 AM UTC
like a cigarette, ignited and raised to your scornful lips
you made me your addiction
and i let you consume me
Jan 21, 2019
Jan 21, 2019 at 1:44 AM UTC
I’m addicted to your love
I’m addicted to the pain
I’m hurt and I cope but I don’t know the real thing
I stay cause I’m lost
No value in trash
I’m used and abused
But I haven’t forgotten about you
Dec 24, 2018
Dec 24, 2018 at 2:13 AM UTC
regret.
i regret letting you in.
love will always start with illusion.
and i fell in love with
the mirage you displayed.
i told myself that
the person i fell in love with
was still there.
that is why i stuck around
for so long.
for so long i believed that you still loved me
as much as the sun loved the sky.
even when you said you didn’t,
even when your voice didn’t feel like
home.
home was late night conversations.
home was your laugh ringing in my ears.
but what was once the house we loved in,
it is now dominated by ghosts.
it has been 8 months.
i still
regret.
i regret letting you in.
Nov 27, 2018
Nov 27, 2018 at 9:28 PM UTC
It hurts
when you tell me you love me over texts
But you won’t say it in person
When you change your mind
From one day to the next
am I not enough?
That this is all I deserve
a man so insecure
He’s destructive with his words
Nov 27, 2018
Nov 27, 2018 at 9:26 PM UTC
If I try to speak, I am quickly silenced
If I try to run, I am quickly tripped
I am in a time loop where I can’t escape
I am on constant edge, to ends cannot make
Where every turn leads back to you
In everything I say and do
where no exit signs exist
Only a painful notion of what is
Jun 5, 2018
Jun 5, 2018 at 11:05 PM UTC
When I fell in love with you
I fell in love with your imperfections
when I fell in love with you
I felt a different connection
Despite all of your flaws
You’re the one I love
Despite everything
You’re my everything
Jun 2, 2018
Jun 2, 2018 at 1:50 AM UTC
I want to see the flowers in the day
Just as I feel the ocean breeze
I want to see the sunset when the sun goes away
I want to swim in nature so deep
What can you see outside?
Nothing but the pitch black of the night
I want to cry at ethereal sights
I want to understand the colors of things
I want to feel what others feel inside
When they see mountains, what joy it brings
When waterfalls roar, and birds fly
I can only appreciate the magnificent divine
As I close my eyes when I get tired
Nature is as beautiful unseen
I feel the wind, rain, and fire
Everything is as marvelous just as I dream
Is it as beautiful as it is in my mind?
Says an old man who is blind
Jun 1, 2018
Jun 1, 2018 at 1:49 AM UTC