I'm not quite sure where we were
Maybe the tunnels by the creek
Or maybe the canyons on the west side
Those details are minor
Because what I remember
Is my head on your chest
And your whisper in my ear
You told me we'd figure it all out
Someday, this would all make sense
But I wasn't so focused on your words
As I was remembering your scent in my hair
Eventually my heart slowed
I feel as if it's been racing for days
And my breaths became more even
As your chest rose and fall
What a feeling peaceful bliss is
Or maybe it'd be more appropriate
To call it ignorance
To think that maybe we were made for each other
I awake and darkness surrounds me
What a surprise, it's 3am
My heart sinks a little
And a slow chill envelopes me
As I realize you're not there, you never were
It was just a dream
Nov 1, 2015
Nov 1, 2015 at 11:46 AM UTC
It's been raining all day
And how fitting it seems
We knew it'd happen eventually
So why am I having trouble breathing?
I watch you fall through emotions
Like the rolling thunder outside
You try to understand my mind
But oh, I've broken your heart so
I'm not sure what delusion I was in
That this wouldn't be a messy conclusion
Or that I could somehow make you understand
That loving someone doesn't mean they're best
You're no good and I know it
I'm no good though I've tried
But your touch is like ******
Toxic as it seems
It takes me higher and higher
And I've played these games for far too long
Running away from a truth I've known
So how can I be so surprised
That you lash out and scream 'why'
I dream about the day years from now
When I run into you on the street
You'll have her hand in yours
And I'll be alone
We'll catch eyes, and for a brief moment
We'll go back to those times of love and loss
But then we'll smile, and casually walk on
And that, dear man, is why I can't find the words to speak
I know this is really the end
Oct 29, 2015
Oct 29, 2015 at 5:21 PM UTC
i mean
we can talk about
the weather or
summer plans
we can talk about
our families and
our schools
but
i would much rather talk about
life and death
and everything in between
i want to
spill out all my secrets to you
and i want to
know my way around your mind
i want to
tell you how i feel about things
and i want to
hear what you have to say about the world
i want to
hear you rant about your friends
and i want to
tell you what i do at 3am
i want to
reach the deepest parts of you
and i want you to
break down every wall i’ve ever built around my heart
i want to find intimacy
without it putting me
in a constant state of anxiety and discomfort
and i want to
find it with you
Sep 23, 2015
Sep 23, 2015 at 12:28 PM UTC
Thoughts race inside
My unstoppable mind
As I lie, still as ever
In this bed of mine
Not moving, won't stop,
Can't grab them or drop
them on the floor under my feet
where they belong, I can't compete
I'd love to think of rivers
Or calming peaceful streams
Oh what I'd give to think of flowers
Or the buzzing sound of bees
Inside is a hurricane
Outside is a drizzle
I can't control my hurried mind
But at least it's working well
Oh I shouldn't complain,
Yes my thoughts run all day
Each one deeper than the last
And although I'm led astray
My thoughts tell me more
Than your words ever could
Because I've had a hundred
More thoughts than I should
Oh the thoughts race inside
My unstoppable mind
As I lie, still as ever
In this bed of mine
Sep 23, 2015
Sep 23, 2015 at 12:27 PM UTC
The wind is brisk against my face
The leaves crunch beneath my feet
The colors are a dancing swirl around me
Haven't I been here before?
I walk these empty streets
With nothing but my thoughts
Fighting a war inside my head
Just like they have all those times before
It's funny how fast a year goes by
All those prologoned decisions we've postponed
Are suddenly at our doorstep waiting
I'm still lost, waiting to be found
But I've grown fond of the nostalgia
And the summer's indecision
Because when life has no real consequence
It's hard not to enjoy the ride
But everything has an ending
And how naive I was to think
That all of these delayed choices
Wouldn't catch up to me
And that's the thing about hearts
They're fragile just like glass
You can pretend the crack isn't there
But over time it shatters all there was
I said I'd have it all figured out
I said I needed just a little more time
But maybe the truth of it all
Is that I've known all along
That the ones who ignite our soul the most
Are not who we spend our lives with
Sep 23, 2015
Sep 23, 2015 at 12:14 PM UTC
Have you ever felt alone in a crowd of people?
Well I'm here and I can't quite make out the sounds
Faces rush around me, I can't catch a glimpse
Everything's moving so fast, and here I am so still
I blink my eyes, and everything changes
Oh where did this feeling of longing grow from?
It's like I'm moving in slow motion
I try to move one foot in front of the other
I look from side to side
Is anyone there? Can anyone hear me?
Trying to catch a glimpse of the one who might save me
But all I see is blank glances, dead eyes
There's no one there, there never was
Just me and my shallow, empty heart
Sep 15, 2015
Sep 15, 2015 at 2:00 PM UTC
From the ashes I have risen
Like a Phoenix I have flown
I rise past the oceans and mountains
Up beyond the clouds and the stars
Follow the second light to the right
And straight to my memories I go
Back to the sun shining bright
The creek humming sweetly
With shadows dancing across your face
You almost hid our impending doom
Even now I can't help but find you beautiful
I watch as you grab her small hands
And just like a strange sort of deja vu
You pick up the pieces of us
And toss them at her feet
Your words are still cruel
I shudder at the thought
With a slight pang in my chest
That's the thing about scars
They never truly fade
But something is different
Almost out of place
I just don't seem to recognize
The girl with her hands to her face
Erupting from inside of her
Is words I can hardly make out
With shoulders heaving with heavy sobs
Please stay
Now I feel stoic
No longer do hot tears adorn my cheeks
And as you turn your back to me
My shoulders do not quiver
And my hands lay calmly at my side
For it is such an odd thing
To look upon the person you used to be
As I let escape
One last little sigh
I spread my wings high
And with my gaze forward
I never looked back
Sep 11, 2015
Sep 11, 2015 at 1:07 AM UTC
“On the edge again.”
Why would you hurt something so grand?
RipRip
Dynasties were never meant to last
“How did you love her?”
How do I love him?
“No, her.”
The sky is her hands
"Why?"
Scrreeechh
Halted down to taste
“Taste what?”
A bit of my soul
...
Savor the colour
"It has colour?"
Mine does.
"How?"
With time.
"Time?"
Silver ebbing off the corner
“Souls have corners?”
Well they’re not ‘round
**I didn’t plan to stay
Electric**
Happy happy happy
“What do you see?”
Glass.
“Glass?”
**No, water.
Shining to the sun
It’s a bit** shiver.
“How?”
Because he said so.
Chilly
“What do you feel?”
How did I fall?
“No, what do you feel?”
With the stars.
“Hm?”
I feel with the stars
“What?”
**Past the burning lake
And into lust.**
“Lust?”
**No,
Reckless**
“What do you hear?”
No
“How-”
Dull
“What?”
Numb.
All I hear is empty.
“Why’s that?”
Don’t you hear your heart echo too?
“End of session”
Sep 11, 2015
Sep 11, 2015 at 12:47 AM UTC