My fingers traced circles up her back
I was moving blindly
I said "Honey, don't be so Republican"
She didn't take that kindly
I was being kind of an ******* but
I've put that behind me
In the moments before catastrophe
All the mistakes seem so tiny
It's a good thing, Darling
That I've got you to remind me
It's a good thing hahahaha
My fingers tickled my numbed soles
Sensations prove I exist
I glanced nervously at the wheel
She was driving reckless
I kept each thought there to myself
Off my mental checklist
She either knows or doesn't want to
No reason to press it
It's a good thing, Baby
I'm not a man who uses my leverage
It's a good thing hahahaha
Feb 2, 2022
Feb 2, 2022 at 10:36 AM UTC
Another sweltering day to get lost in
Wander around a parking lot, talking
In the park we got stopped by police
My runaway pig was disturbing the peace
Eilonwy's in the Summer Lands
I wrote her that I joined a band
She writes too much about another man
I'm suspicious, she doesn't understand
List our future plans, it doesn't help
Looked in a mirror, I just saw myself
Reflection in the pool is murky and raw
We barbequed but Gurgi ate it all
Why do huntsmen gather at the border
How come Doordash cancelled my order
My spot under the tree's taken by a hobo
This stuff never happens to Frodo
Jul 12, 2021
Jul 12, 2021 at 10:43 AM UTC
Well
Craig Finn's voice sounds like pink lemonade
But
Shiny things are eventually all meant to fade
Like
A clear voice on the radio into static
But
Your phone sounds clear even when I'm asthmatic
When I say "Goodnight, Elisabeth" I try to sound strong
For you in the twilight of a year that went wrong
It just reminds me of a blue Counting Crows song
Of a lifetime that collapses slowly then just goes on
Of a simple meaning I buried in indigo prose
You find it when you're motivated not to let me go
and for that I'm inclined to keep bending back
All the times you fall asleep or don't text me back
It's a lot to feel
For something so obscure
Keep paying more into
Dreams that get deferred
I was wearing
red Adidas
On the night you took
that picture of our sneakers
Adjacent to each other
shifting with the land
You drew a heart inbetween
our names in the sand
It was alright
It was a nice night
I laid next to you listening to white noise
You let me take liberties in my night voice
Whispering so that morning can't listen in
and wake us with creeping daylight's dissonance
Real life ain't got nothing to do with us
In this teal night, Jacksonville imbued in us
The will to live ***** if it means we can live
There's no time to wait for the ocean to forgive
us
My beautiful dust to dust
My angel all mysterious
Angry at the breaking dusk
It's been a nice life
I see it in your eyes like polar ice
Your skin pretty and flushed in the night light
Coded emotions in the motion of a zeitgeist
I just want to keep touching your right thigh
For all the the cursed things I didn't get right
In this black midnight of a life
Feb 10, 2021
Feb 10, 2021 at 3:47 PM UTC
This parking lot is usually a mess
Now it's empty from me to the sunset
Think about my family, hold my breath
Wash my hands, play chicken with death
Quarantined, watching Community
A whole decade flashing in front of me
"Somebody said - Be what you'll be"
We could be folding socks for eternity
Uncertain times, inverted, serpentine
Crowds on the beach form in perfect lines
I know they like a good time - My Oh My
But could ya please stay the **** inside
We get half a tantrum, half a choice
Refresh my account looking for an invoice
Laid on my couch, anchored to your voice
Saving throw vs. my life being destroyed
May 4, 2020
May 4, 2020 at 7:54 PM UTC
Well I was rushing down a river
I said to myself "This is a dream"
Because of the absent context
Because no river is this clean
Holding tight to a memory
The ghost fractured light weaves
She said "Don't you dare believe
That I was ev-er
the image you conceive"
Stranded on a mattress
Trapped inside a sadness
Screengrab of a last kiss
Just out of sight
I've been living in a tunnel
I've been tricked by this maze
I thought I was out three times
I kinda lost track of the days
I've been painting an Autumn
With dimensions all out of place
A looped highlight, a raised skylight
A blurry spot on my eyesight
Tell me is it a shadow
Tell me is it a boom mic
Tell me is it some meaning
Just out of sight
Feb 25, 2020
Feb 25, 2020 at 11:14 AM UTC
I knew you'd wait
till after midnight
To call me, you and I
have always been scared of the light
I knew you'd wanna see me
But you'd need an excuse
It's too hard to be seen clearly
I was thinkin of one, too
But I was afraid that I
wouldn't last long enough to help
Either you'd break me down
Or I'd just do it to myself
I waited by the phone
I could hardly breathe
By the time I finally heard your voice
I'd forgotten what I need
I was in deep
You were in disbelief
You had me so wide awake
Now I just want to sleep
I don't know if we're in love
Or just scared of real life
Feb 25, 2020
Feb 25, 2020 at 11:12 AM UTC
Pens, lighters, paperclips
Stacks of important documents
Hold on to your valuables
This life can't be held responsible
Under the
Under the
Under the
Under the desk where the lost items hide
A culture of tribes & divides
Over the
Over the
Over the
Over the moon where the angels nap
Tired of routine and trying to relax
Jan 3, 2020
Jan 3, 2020 at 8:08 PM UTC
Can't ya see how weak you look on camera
They said the same thing about Joe Montana
I knew a lot of people who didn't see me
The world's ****** up but my life is easy
This could be
Our very strangest dream
This could be
What makes everyone scream
Demolition Men in a pell-mell Gotham
They dyed their hair like Dennis Rodman
We knew some guys who didn't use caution
I know some girls who don't use condoms
This could be
Another failed scheme
This could be
Our greatest love scene
Everyone's tryin' not to flinch at your tight scowl
Everyone's either a Rorschach or a Nite Owl
If authenticity's a misogynist concept
Then nothing's left but the death of context
This could be
The end of the world
This could be
Another poem for a girl
Jan 1, 2020
Jan 1, 2020 at 2:30 PM UTC
You told me that secretly
You had always hated me
But honey I think everyone could see
It was as clear as the deep blue sea
There were flames and gritted teeth
An impatience you barely leashed
My futility in keeping the peace
A deep, dreadful silent defeat
The real secret that you kept
The one you held unto your breast
That won't escape upon your breath
From now until your fated death
Is that you loved me just as well
With a little smile like a sea shell
That echoed inside me like a bell
But I promise I'll never tell
Jul 6, 2019
Jul 6, 2019 at 5:16 PM UTC
I got dizzy sick rolling down hills in the mist
In the heart of a city desperate to exist
I understood that longing gaze of the abyss
An endless summer, well, when will it quit?
A stitch in time between two uneven seams
A finger in the socket of Tesla's dead dream
Come dance in the current of electric memes
Talk me out of my money with sweet polysemes
Dawn's hair was a sunbeam, she dyed it fire
It wouldn't fall straight, time is a spire
Out of sync with fate and strung like a lyre
She was an apex of innocence and desire
She left with a preacher all doom and gloom
I came with a stripper in a darkened black room
She said I'm a good kisser, I assume it's true
You can laugh at me if you want to
This dancer's a waterfall, turning all slowly
Trying to show me how intimacy's lonely
Piercings on her back like the ones Anna showed me
Lost time swirling in whirlpools below me
I tried to be gentle but I just turned out weak
Cursed by my angels, Hope and Release
My mediocre mind, my consistent hobgoblin
She said "Don't fall in love," that won't be a problem
Haylee got angry at the skip in each heartbeat
Anxiety burning in every breath of our sleep
She held every moment of the life I never had
Then released them like butterflies in our confab
My tongue tied, un-nimble, into infinity symbols
Swirling in the kiss of strangers so simple
Peeking thru needle's eyes into heaven's riddle
Wound up with Thumbelina living in a thimble
Tumbling down a faucet stream, twisting with ripples
Her hair caught in my mouth, it tickles a little
Her eyes scream with thoughts of playing my fiddle
But I feel the life released from my middle
My heartbeat's compulsive, my shivers convulsive
Her tatoo at an angle, her complexion olive
I called it a nice moment but I hope it lasts
A thousand memories trapped in my gasp
A thousand nows
just
out
of
my
grasp
May 22, 2019
May 22, 2019 at 7:22 AM UTC