The woman I am today
A brighter
More balanced
No wind can sway
Both feet on the ground
Roots taking shape
Delving my existence
Deep in the dark, earth bound
I’m thankful
Joyous and proud
That I had the sense to stand still
When winds of time promised ruin
I channeled what’s deep inside
My tree of life
Went deep into the bark
Seeking the light
Bright beautiful calming
Light, but dark I found not a spark
But a feeling that feels warm -
contented peace
Moving and guiding gently
Feb 9
Feb 9, 2026 at 7:56 AM UTC
Choppy seas
inside my soul
fierce
Knocking me around
Currents pulling
tension like Tight like tight rope
Waves like skyscrapers
Beating boulders
Like the beatings I got as a child
They don’t budge though
the fight is on
Swells lining up like an army against the rocks
One by one
Until
retreat!
Conceding
Calming itself down
Gently now
Easy now
Tiny ripples
Now Easily navigating the pathway
Beneath the towering boulders
Theres a passage way
In the shadows
Quiet peace like an easing stream
Away from noise of hollow tunnels
And the The seagulls gawking
All of a sudden
The ripples unite
In a race to the shore
All rise!
All power!
A dramatic performance!
As it touches and kisses the shore
There united and Intertwined
With the warmth of the sand
Steam evaporates like a spirit rising
And breathes a sigh
Im Home
Feb 9
Feb 9, 2026 at 7:55 AM UTC
It feels like a stone in my heart ♥️
I’m trying to roll it out the way
Heavy deep set
dead weight
gravity
I think my heart has hardened?
Panic
What am I chipping away at to reach it?
Dislodge it
It won’t move
I’m sweating
I’m dying trying
Screaming inside
Behind my ****** facade
A veil
Nobody sees the struggle inside
The laughs and giggles
Dancing and wiggles
A deterrent
There behind the stone I feel the warmth
Theres something shiny and bright!
I’ve struck gold!
There…some relief 😮💨
when It lifts a-bit
Elation, joy, fulfilment
Presence
I fit in
I’m only wedged in
But all too soon I succumb
I can’t hold on
Fear
Icey cold
I crumble
and let go again -
Again -
I fall into pain
Feb 9
Feb 9, 2026 at 7:54 AM UTC
Loss is suffocating
It swoops in like a vulture seeks it prey
It spreads like wildfire in an instant
Soot and stench filling your cavities
Disarming, feelings muted
Thoughts scrambled
Heart heavy like an anchor at the bottom of the ocean
Body immobile
Jumbled memories like a tv trying to connect in bad weather
And then radio silence
You’ve flatlined ____________
Feb 9
Feb 9, 2026 at 7:52 AM UTC
That realm between
Pain and Pleasure
The sweet spot
I’ve been pondering
not sitting the fence a-lot
pain brings out the best in me
it’s in those trying moments that I learn to know me
pleasure incredible as it is
highlights the things I don’t want to be
I’m comforted in the uncomfortable
And I see the flaws between the sparkles ✨
There’s no place to hide
The answer lies inside?
Feb 9
Feb 9, 2026 at 7:41 AM UTC