She looked good
so, I slid in her DMs
Despite the hour being late
I shot my shot from beyond half court hoping she was awake
*** was I thinking?
Then out the blue I see not one
not two
but three fluttering ellipses
My eyes light up like fireflies, but how
“Im actually awake right now”
I’m geeked
for a split second I couldn’t speak
Thank God we were messaging
Easy I told myself
Be cool, breathe
So I did
Then we traded words like kids
Each message landing
Every emoji taking us further
For a moment it felt like déjà vu
Like we already shared this proverbial dance
Like we previously walked a kindred road together
Then nothing
She stopped responding
**** did I say something wrong?
I wondered if I stumbled and some careless word fell from my mouth
Let me not overthink it
I have been carrying the conversation maybe she’s just shy
Maybe the rooms inside her soul open slowly
So I replied playfully, "You shy, huh?"
She responded sharply "Who shy?"
We laughed and the convo moved on
And somewhere beyond the start and the end
We felt comfortable enough to make plans to talk to each other again
1d ago
Jun 2, 2026 at 6:38 PM UTC
The thought of you draws me closer,
Like a current I don’t wanna fight
I wanna feel the familiarity of your soothing energy
Like a breeze on a summer night
It’s not that I need closure,
I’m already whole
But my appetite has a planet sized hunger...
"You’re the only one who can satisfy my soul"
Unequivocally you’re the one for me,
I sense it in my marrow deep,
I feel you all around me
Your spirit moves about me, even in my sleep
I’d be remiss darling, oh, I’d be remiss
If I didn’t tell you how much about you that I truly do miss
From the weight of every passionate kiss,
I miss the way the world would disappear whenever you were around
I lose sleep to be inside you,
My place is right beside you
Whatever it takes no matter the stakes
I only wanna ride with you
Whatever circumstances surround you,
I wanna orbit your vicinity,
With you is living
Without you, I’m drifting
My heart aches being without you
I’m so tired of being alone
Before I lay my head down and the years run their end
Would it be okay if I saw you in that red satin two piece one more time
Tell me you don't wanna feel that kinda fire again
While I definitely wanna see you in that lingerie
I pray you can see me with a new view
And give yourself a chance to see past that fool who went out of his way to fumble you
The old me long died
Can't you see I’m trying,
Building a future with you is all that gives me peace of mind
So I’ll wait
If that what it takes
I’ll love you from here
Hoping you feel in the spirit exactly what I feel
Because the thought of falling in love with you again still draws me near
May 23
May 23, 2026 at 6:58 PM UTC
Love isn’t the lock that secures a door shut
It’s the master key that you place under the rug
In its greatest form love carries with it no expectation
Just a silent taxation for mutual respect
For without it there can be no basis to connect
Love is the antithesis of resistance
It doesn’t dress up trauma and call it tradition
Love is active because its too busy living
Not remembering what others wrote about 'their’ lived experience
Love let’s go of sorrow
It eases down the ‘hard knock’ road seeking no one else to follow
Instead of prioritizing what you dealt with in the past
Why not focus on the hope you have for tomorrow?
Love doesn’t merely give of its presence
It lives in the present
Because it knows the difference between a debt paid
and eternal inheritance
May 22
May 22, 2026 at 10:27 AM UTC
Assertions of spirituality under conditions unfamiliar,
to the logic of religious minds is seen as criminal
To some, **** near illegal
They teach us to fear our own intuition like runaway slaves
And like a slave catcher once religion catches up to you
Jesus ‘takes the wheel’ and he whips it out
What does freedom really look like to those taught to forgo their own insight into how their own relationship with God is supposed to play out
A scene from Get Out comes to mind
So many of us fall victim to the sunken place because we don’t stand guard to our own mind
Some will say you’re on demon time in the spirit the minute you stop asking Jesus for permission
Which is interesting because he is just a middleman right?
If the inner man has no agenda then why do we seek the kingdom of god from men who have never been
If indeed what they preach is the bread of life, then why can’t we take it out the plastic
Everybody got a scripture to quote but nobody can hear God unless he arrives in pre-approved packaging
You can call it whatever you want
Me, Im a just call it branding
May 16
May 16, 2026 at 11:58 AM UTC
Peace felt strange on her skin
Like a sweater too soft
for somebody raised in the winter
She was a hot girl
Yet this man treated her so gently
He was nice genuinely
He was always on time, called when he said he would,
Gave step daddy energy to her three kids,
Opened her door
And completed tasks without being asked
He was safe and mundane
Predictable, to her everyday felt the same with him
After a while she genuinely thought something was actually wrong with him
Every compliment he gave made her suspicious.
Every safe night he provided made her feel the opposite
"He's a really nice guy"
Which is why she was having such a hard time
Figuring out why the two of them didn’t align
Then like a wieght being lifted from her mind she realized
Though gentle this man didn't give her an emotional high
On the surface she thought she was ready
But the consequence of having a nice man got to be too heavy
Caught up ruminating in her own head
She did what any insecure woman would've did
She ran from that nice man
Back into the arms of a man she was comfortable with
A man she could relate in brokenness with
A man she had one of her three kids with
Despite the things that nice man did
Peace felt less familiar than suffering did
And being with this nice man shed light on parts of herself she always hid
May 11
May 11, 2026 at 7:00 PM UTC
I.
Looking at you back then, was like looking at a statue
All you had to do was stand there gorgeously
And I could feel the whole world leaning in toward me
Like a portal opening
I saw you well before I ever met you
II.
When you went down on me
I astral planed and became nothing but energy
I could feel the hum of your breathing
You moving through the dark, like waves in a tide
And me, I’m just along for the ride
My right hand to God, I testify
Being inside you was like being in heaven
The kind of love we use to make, was the only kind worth making
III.
Here we are, two islands
Hunkered down in separate waters,
Shouting into the ether hoping the reverb harms the other
From infatuation to disdain
Both of us perpetuating sorrow too detrimental to sustain
Our children once born out love now live out their lives quietly in pain
IV.
I don’t how much time has passed
But I know our children miss their dad
You and I may not be together anymore but we can still have the best loves we ever had
Like the sun pretends that it can hold the night.
I’m willing to keep up the façade if it’ll keep our family upright
I don’t care about being right despite this fact
Our children need us to lie a little while longer so their world remains intact
May 7
May 7, 2026 at 10:03 AM UTC
Every time you stay where you’re not respected you lower your price
While you think you’re proving how loyal you are
Staying just tells them that they can do it again and never have to think twice
You think you’re showing'em that you’re committed, I get it
But like the rest of us, you were conditioned to be meek forgive into perpetuity and turn the other cheek
But when you allow others to habitually step on your boundaries
Respectfully you’re not showing up resilient
You’re just showing up as weak
If someone breaks a contract with you and you keep doing the work for free
You’re not enforcing your own value, you’re participating in your own defeat
People will continue to disrespect you if they don’t have to pay
Your energy is the currency, all relationships move the same way
I’m not religious, but when Jesus did speak, he said if you go into a town and they don’t receive your peace
shake the dust off your feet
He didn't teach to beg for respect
If someone doesn't see your value, then take your value somewhere else
No negotiation
If they can’t find it within themselves to offer you respect
Respect your last name and stop giving them access
May 5
May 5, 2026 at 7:07 PM UTC
If I call you once that day
I’m not calling you again
At some point I gotta set boundaries around the kind of man that I say that I am
If I betray myself every time you cry a tear
Then what kind of man does that make me?
The type of man you revere?
If I keep giving into your every whim
At a certain point I relieve myself from the position
of being HIM
Women respect men they CANT tell what to do
men they CANT move
men who STANDS 10 toes on his business and DOES WHAT HE GOTTA DO
Yet here you are asking ME to make concessions, 'a clear message'
Asking me to make compromises that would in-effect,
deny me of any and all self-respect
And there’s no way you can respect me when I have none for myself,
Because I keep giving in
I keep…giving in
I…keep…giving…in
Though I don’t intend to
If this stream of consciousness hurts you, annoys you,
or straight up ****** you off,
Good
Because moving forward I’m holding the line
If you’re only going to be loyal to your feelings
Then what hope is there for mine?
May 1
May 1, 2026 at 12:41 AM UTC
The other day I came across some guy
Clearly high
Stumbling awkwardly
Lowkey like he was practicing a dance he couldn’t quite get right
No air pods in sight just him off kilter moving left and right
Like he was following music somewhere in his mind
Strangely triggering an episode of Power in mine…or was it Snowfall
I can’t recall why I was on MLK the other day
I don’t remember anything that happened the rest of the day
Other than that one guy that had that really unique sway
Apr 26
Apr 26, 2026 at 9:53 PM UTC
I have no idea how to fill the void left by you
I know its a fools errand
But I wish I could take back all the pain I put you through
Apr 21
Apr 21, 2026 at 4:19 PM UTC