Silence!
The word blurts out
These voices wont stop...
As my body sleeps
My mind can't rest
Because its plagued by these voices these terrible pests...
Prehapse they're my past regrets ?
Things I never said ?
Things I never did ?
Prehaps they're emotions of a confused kid ?
Sadness ,anger ,fear,hate,joy,lust,passion,nothingness, pain.
All of those fighting for control
Please
Please
Please
Plea...
Ple...
Silence!
I shout again
Stop your driving me insane..
I know I am broken that I can not change
The world turned me into this
And like this I will stay
I can not change so the voices to will stay
Emotions regret
So to I pray tonight
Lord above give me peace
So that I may rest
Or
Lord above take my soul so that I may forver rest
Freed from these voices
these terrible pests.
Oct 5, 2018
Oct 5, 2018 at 5:29 AM UTC
Man how I have chaged
From a insecure little kid in search of fortune and fame
In search of intimacy and love
And I never found it it evaded me like a wild dove flying away each time I get close
So I changed and became a cold heartless boy living fast and mean
Doing bad things hurting people that wouldn't cross me
I broke hearts made the sweetest girls fall apart
I used them over and over again swearing that I changed
I just caused destruction and pain
And I hate myself for it
I was tired of the drugs and of the ***
I was tired of this meaningless ****
So I quit and I changed again into something other than this tragedy
To a man hoping to feel intimacy
To feel anything actually
But my past keeps following me
Haunting me
past ghost never leaving me
Alone ....
Its probably karma that ***** is getting me back for being so cold
So maybe I will change again ...
That's just what I do
I am the human chameleon
Nice to meet you.
Dec 26, 2017
Dec 26, 2017 at 5:19 AM UTC
What is this ....
This feeling I cant explain
This feeling I get
Every time I feel something worth while for anything and it gets taken away
Why ?
I don't know ..
I don't ******* know
Its seems I am Destin to mess everything up
Everything worth something
And I thought you might be different
That you might be the one thing I was capable of feeling something for without ******* it up
.....
Maybe I was wrong
Maybe you are not different or maybe I am just the same
The same guy that ruins every thing one way or another
What is this ?
This feeling I get every time I **** something up ?
Hahahaha
Haha
If I had to describe it .
I would say nothing
But a nothing that causes pain in everything that I do
Because no matter what I do
My mind always runs back to you
And then this nothingness returns
Cause I ****** up .....
Dec 24, 2017
Dec 24, 2017 at 12:56 PM UTC
Angelique....
The first time I saw you covered in white at the wedding
With your blue ..... blue eyes
You took my breath away and you crumbled my nerves
You looked like an angel with the beauty of a godess.
Angelique...
The first time I talked to you
I saw how you could silence my demons with a simple hello
I found a joy in your laugh that I haven't felt in a long time
I found comfort in your late night whispers that brought peace to my restless soul
Angelique...
The first time I kissed you
I felt a rush no drug could compare too
I realised that there are things worth dying for
Angelique...
since we met
I have found someone who around I can be vulnerable again and not get hurt
I realised that no matter how bad **** gets you will be there for me
But most importantly you Angelique made me believe in true love again (something I had given up on )
Angelique....
You are truly my better half
And that is why I love you.
Dec 11, 2017
Dec 11, 2017 at 12:47 AM UTC
I don't wanna know your outside
Your mortal flesh
I want a intimacy greater than that
I want a love so strong it can withstand time it self
I want not to know your outside
But
I want to know your mind
I want to get a glimps into your soul
Into the rawness of your very being
I want to know who hurt you
I want to know who you love
I want to know you on a deeper level
Deeper than you know your self
That's the type of intimacy I want
Thats the love I desire .
Nov 17, 2017
Nov 17, 2017 at 8:23 AM UTC
We rush through life taking it to seriously
And most of the time we end up living miserably
We all just wanna fight to get to the top
Yet there is no one who takes a minute to stop
And no one to realizes it's only a matter of time till we drop
So take it slow along life's bends
And watch the movie life
Spoiler alert we all die in the end.
Nov 13, 2017
Nov 13, 2017 at 12:49 PM UTC
It's true you know,
It's true when they say everything wil change.
It's true that people change ,even we our self's change.
Isn't it a scary thought ,that you can't be certain about people.
Not
Even our selfs.
That you can know someone your whole life and they can change infront of your eys.
But we can't judge them for that
We cant judge their change.
Because It's true ,
It's true that people change.
But it's pain that causes them to change....
Nov 13, 2017
Nov 13, 2017 at 12:30 PM UTC
Rain sweet blissful rain
Come and cleanse the land
Wash away it's pain
Seep through the earth and the dessert sand
And Make wet the ground upon which we stand
Open the flood gates up above
And let the water fall down
Peaceful and gentle like a mothers love
Pit pat o what a gorgeous sound
Pit pat give life to the ground
Nov 12, 2017
Nov 12, 2017 at 11:45 AM UTC
Feed your head
That was the first thing the stoner said
Followed by
Give it some time
Take a ****
Inhale the smoke
And blow your ******* mind
And behold this trippy plain
And it's all thanks to Mary Jane
Nov 11, 2017
Nov 11, 2017 at 8:26 AM UTC
It's been a month since you left, but it still feels like yesterday to me.
I still remember the exact time it was,
The feeling I got in my chest as I lay there reading your text,
The flood of tears that followed afterwards,
The amount of "you'll be fine"s I whispered to myself that night.
I remember it all.
It's been a month since you left, but it still feels like yesterday to me.
Nov 11, 2017
Nov 11, 2017 at 4:35 AM UTC