I see a memory pop up on my feed:
"January 16, 2016- 1 year ago"
It's a quote. It reads:
"Lonely. I'm lonely in the frienship way and boyfriend way. I pray every day for something, anything to make this dreaded disease go away."
One year later. Which is today. I am alone in my room on a Saturday night. I remember telling myself that things will get better. But I'm just as sad. Just as lonely.
Feb 23, 2017
Feb 23, 2017 at 12:14 AM UTC
Can we just discuss how unattractive I am?
Insecurities **** my good qualities.
I have a lot of love in me.
But that doesn't matter if I get scared.
And I am scared.
Constantly.
That everyone will leave.
And I'm so so sorry.
Everyone, I'm just sorry...
Jan 26, 2016
Jan 26, 2016 at 11:45 PM UTC
I'm lonely.
In both the friendship way and a boyfriend way.
I no longer feel wanted by my friends and too **** quiet to even have a guy talk to me.
It pierces my heart, and also my brain with a gush of longing for love, and comfort.
Yet, everyone I know has a group of best friends or a boyfriend. Yet here I am, alone on Friday and Saturday night just wanting to feel loved.
I'm so deprived of having fun with other people, that I'm crying.
I want someone to just be there for me, because I will always be there for you.
I want someone that will make me laugh, because I will always make you laugh.
So god, all I want is the feeling of loneliness, and sadness to dismiss.
I no longer want to feel lonely.
All I want, is a friend.
Jan 17, 2016
Jan 17, 2016 at 1:16 AM UTC
You don't know
How much I cry.
Because when the words stop,
My tears fly.
I wish I could control it,
But I can't deny.
Because for every tear I shed,
I wish I was by your side.
Sep 2, 2015
Sep 2, 2015 at 8:48 PM UTC
Tonight I am restless
reminded of all the
times I've looked at
empty spaces beside me
wishing it were you...
Instead of this
loneliness I've come to
know.
(C.C)
Aug 16, 2015
Aug 16, 2015 at 11:32 PM UTC
I say goodbye,
And I know you already forgotten about me.
Because you know prettier girls,
Than I could ever be.
And I keep going back to you,
Like the fruit on a poisonous tree.
Aug 16, 2015
Aug 16, 2015 at 11:08 PM UTC
Do you know that feeling,
When hot water,
Feels cold?
That is like your love.
You give the illusion,
Of being good,
When deep down,
I know you're bad.
Jul 13, 2015
Jul 13, 2015 at 12:45 PM UTC
No one knows,
This hobby of mine,
Where I write down thoughts,
And try to rhyme.
I may be very uncomfortable,
When sharing a poem with you,
Because I feel my thoughts,
Should always stay true.
So if I ever shared,
A poem with you,
I shared it because,
I felt comfortable with you.
Jul 7, 2015
Jul 7, 2015 at 8:03 AM UTC
All I see,
Is my smile,
And can be viewed as,
"Out of style".
All I see,
Are my eyes,
That I wish,
I could disguise.
All I see,
Is my hair,
Nothing like the others,
so why do I compare.
All you see,
Is my smile,
that could go on,
for many miles.
All you see,
Are my eyes,
That sparkle,
Like the night skies.
All you see,
Is my hair,
That flows,
Out of nowhere.
All I see,
Is nothing like,
What you see.
We are so critical of ourselves,
until we take a step back,
And look around.
Jun 23, 2015
Jun 23, 2015 at 8:11 PM UTC
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Thanks and have a great day!
Jun 20, 2015
Jun 20, 2015 at 10:26 AM UTC