you're in frontof me telling me that its gonna get better but suddently you disapear, slowly, lonely,but surely, and now i am here alone waiting for you, for your voice, for your touch, for your arms around me, but you're not here. old scars that i tough healed ,are bleeding to death and suddenly i'm taken back to the "before you" and i see how much your presence, your smile, your soul or just the tough of you changed me. like a bandage that covered it all, but all this pain, the bandage couldnt keep it all in and exploded and let it all out again, the nightmares are back ,the cuts are deep, the pain is strong and i am weak and tired, tired to wake up just to not see you , whats the meaning of this world ,of life if you're not here.my light in the dark ,my wildflower in a rose haze ,my hope.
why all this is happening to me this way ,i'm tossed away next to the grave of our relationship with pity and loneliness going in my veins and the memory of your face
May 6
May 6, 2026 at 1:04 AM UTC
i woke up wishing for a better day
bad luck? no just another sway
i mean what was i expecting
i am normal,cliche and boring
the sun screaming at me
to just let it be
i stand up
my shadow staring at me
i start seeing things
like something that looks like wings
growing from my back
sometimes i wish they were real
so i can fly and maybe just ****
the pressure that lays on me
day after day it keeps me lonely
i suddenly wake up
thats where it ends and that i have to stand up
to face the harsh reality
but i don't want that formality
maybe i can stay here all day
just me and my thoughs
May 6
May 6, 2026 at 1:00 AM UTC
october feels nostalgic without you
all the memories comeback they really do
i kept admiring you from afare.
but now that your gone, i am asking myself,why all this is happening to me?
so just to let you know that i still miss you.i miss the way you moved ,the way you talked
the way you never looked at me knowing well what i am thinking about.
oh god now that shes gone , i am asking myself,what did i do to deserve this
why do i feel this empty,why do i want you that much without even knowing why.
i just dont want to say goodby.
Mar 26
Mar 26, 2026 at 2:27 PM UTC
yesterday i dreamed about you.i dreamed that nothing changed.that you never went without telling me.
that you were the same person as when we met,that i still called you on friday nights.
your picture started to fade away,i tried to hold it,to remember your face.i promise i really tried.but now that your gone ,everything changed,your not the same and there is no "we" anymore.
there is just me ,alone ,waiting for you knowing well that you will never come out of that door again.so i cry every friday night ,trying to remember what your touch feels like.
and i sit alone writing you this letter.
eberybody is looking at me ,they just dont know what it feels like to die day after day,to lose the reason you woke up every morning and slept happily at night.
why i am still here if your not next to me?
Mar 26
Mar 26, 2026 at 2:25 PM UTC
please stay with me, dont leave me here all alone
your face tattooed in my heart ,it was always you
i am listening to that song that makes me think of you
and walking past your house ,knowing well that its empty
i can feel you near me like i did before
and hearing your sweet voice saying that its okay over and over again
i feel empty now that your gone.i feel lonely now that our friday nights aren't long calls anymore.who am i?
where am i?i dont know i am just guessing that i am in a world without you.a sick , angry,and sad world. a world where we are not together.meeting you after school bacame a broken dream,i see you in a little corner of my mind ,crying and regretting
its all my fault ,i deserve this.so once again i am here writing a poem about you,you'll never read.
Mar 26
Mar 26, 2026 at 2:25 PM UTC
i feel like nothing,they all expect you to be the perfect friend that tells them everythingand accept whatever crap they say about you,to always smile,to always think about them to the point that you forget yourself.
i tried to be that smiling statue for them,but all the pain,the secrets,the poison ,took too much place in my life . am i me? who even am i?
i wasnt me anymore, i was their doll for them to play with when they fell like it, to punch when they felt angry.
and just when i tough i found my light ,they had to ruin it.
of course they would,and they will enjoy it.
why cant it all go back as it was before, far from all this lies,from these smiling masks.
thes scars becam too deep and i am too tired to shout back,so i'll stay here,in a little corner of my mind where the word seems brighter
Mar 26
Mar 26, 2026 at 2:23 PM UTC