I did not know love
Until it was so obvious in front of me
I did not know I was supposed to feel special all the time
Until you made it known how important I was to you
I did not know love was what you called
An everlasting happiness
A reason to smile without having a reason
I thought I had it before, but it was not that
It was young and sloppy
It was about my comfort and not the meaning.
I know it well now,
But it wasn't until after
It was pushed in my face.
And now it's all I see.
Apr 12, 2020
Apr 12, 2020 at 11:11 PM UTC
I focus
so much on
that tiny piece of
paper that comes in
every little cookie
And when I don't
Get that little piece of paper
My day is ruined and
nothing seems to matter anymore
Why do I rely on such a tiny piece of paper?
Generalized for the masses
To give me something to look forward to.
This means nothing
But it meant something in a moment,
and it could have meant something so
much more
If it were in the cookie.
Apr 12, 2020
Apr 12, 2020 at 11:01 PM UTC
I didn't know.
How could I have?
I kept a strong distance
Between
The both of us.
Not because I didn't want to help
Because I didn't know, and now that I do
I wish
That I didn't know.
Because it hurts more to know now,
Because I still don't have enough capacity
To help
I feel trapped by my guilt.
But you feel more trapped in your head
That's far worse than the places I've been
Because
I don't need to hurt to feel.
May 7, 2019
May 7, 2019 at 12:48 AM UTC
This is the first time
In almost 4 years
I did not say goodnight
It feels so unnatural
And so surreal,
That for the first time
In almost 4 years
You aren't going to say it back.
I can say it
And you will say it back
But I don't want you
And I see now,
For the first time
In almost 4 years
I don't need you.
You're not the only thing in my life.
Mar 14, 2019
Mar 14, 2019 at 11:49 PM UTC
blue drops fell
onto the rug,
the hair covered
in what we thought
could cure the sadness
is only soaked
in our emptiness.
Feb 21, 2019
Feb 21, 2019 at 8:19 PM UTC
I dumped my laundry
On the ground
Hoping it would allow me
To feel motivated
Motivated to move
To clean to work
But all it did
Was sit on my floor
I sat with it too
Staring at the pile.
Looking for the answers
Written in my shirts
Jan 26, 2019
Jan 26, 2019 at 10:35 AM UTC
Now that we're apart
My food still has taste
But a flavor of salt is always added
Because water falls into my bowl
Every time
Now that we're separate
My friends are still with me
But I always wish to sit next to you
Because being held is all I desire
For tonight
Now that we're going away
My life will still continue
But it will be odd for a while
Because you won't be there for me
Anymore.
Jan 10, 2019
Jan 10, 2019 at 7:43 PM UTC
Please no more fighting
We're friends with cruel intentions
But friends always first
We love each other
Eventually we leave
Knowing another
Men must prove worthy
To defeat evils within
Training means nothing
Do not leave yourself
Accept the body and mind
As one entity
Dec 29, 2018
Dec 29, 2018 at 11:54 PM UTC
My kisses travel faster than light
My hugs have seen some incredible sights
Detached as they are from me,
They still have plenty to see
As my affections and words pile up high
There is no way they could be a lie.
You receive these and hold them dear to your heart,
And it feels as if we were never apart.
Aug 4, 2018
Aug 4, 2018 at 11:47 PM UTC
I'm always excited to see a cake
When I walk into a room.
But the thing about this pastry
Is that I don't think it's very good.
I grab the plate with this sugary delight
And begin to dig in until
I realize
Once again
That cake is almost always not what I wanted;
There's too much frosting,
The flavor is nonexistent,
Too crumbly and dry.
I've began to realize that
It's not the cake I'm excited for,
It's whatever is going on that I am happy about.
If there is cake, then that means there's an event.
And I'm happy about the event.
The cake is a mere distraction.
Jun 14, 2018
Jun 14, 2018 at 4:51 AM UTC