Minutes in a day, or meals on the table.
I'd give them all to you If I was able.
I don't "want" you, that feels too forced.
But when your skin rest on mine you've just endorsed the bubbling fact that I can't help but romanticize that sometimes,
your eyes tell me otherwise.
"If its not reciprocated what a waste of time."
A disgusting thought to have crossed my mind.
Simply because I do not get what is "mine"?
Viewing his lack of interest in me as a crime?
No wonder people these days think all love can do Is die.
Saying all this as If I myself have reached enlightenment.
And I wouldn't say that I have or haven't,
I will say that my selfish desire of "possessing" has gone into a sort of retirement.
So finally I can sit back and enjoy the talent,
that is J**n.
Mar 8
Mar 8, 2026 at 1:20 PM UTC
My chest hunched over yours.
I burned the placement of your freckles into my mind
taking in all your skin,
wondering where do these lips begin?
Slowly starting, and taking my time.
Because in this moment I’ll make sure you’re mine.
I can’t guarantee when I leave,
and I can’t guarantee next week.
But I’ll guarantee that right now all you’ll think of is of me.
For you to be consumed by my every kink
So much so that you won’t even be able to think.
Think of your true intentions,
as your mind melts to blank
I can’t help but smirk at his moans that thank
my body with the pleasure he’s receiving.
Naturally our bodies meld together like they already knew how.
Gripping my tender thighs as if I am supposed to be fleeing.
If I had to guess, he’s probably wanting to escalate this evening.
But my heart has reached her threshold tonight.
This is as far as my body will allow.
In hopes that this evening can be repeating.
Mar 8
Mar 8, 2026 at 1:19 PM UTC
Closer to wanting to help set it free.
to be its nest...
Throw it up, to see if it flies,
always being there to catch it.
Making sure it never dies.
On the day it takes flight, wipe the tears from your eyes
because you played your part, and doesn't that feel nice?
To see it fly off to live her best life,
While many others only shown her strife.
you chose love
Now go fly off my little dove,
do what you have always dreamed of.
Feb 7
Feb 7, 2026 at 1:54 PM UTC
Money given, transaction completed.
Deep down all I feel Is defeated.
For I had his attention for a mere second
But a "mere" second is not recommended.
For I desperately desire your entire mind,
Because my sad reality Is that you have mine.
Walking away frustrated...flustered, why bother flirting If all you were going to offer was mustard?
Sitting far enough to steal my glances. Sure to never blow the cover I have planted.
watching you smile while making my food, forcing you to do something for me...how shrewd.
Ah the first bite a toast,
A toast to the idea of love that never existed, expect inside the food that I had insisted.
All this yearning Is making my fries taste twisted.
Jan 7
Jan 7, 2026 at 3:32 PM UTC
Fingertips travel,
Across my tender landscape.
Flush lust takes it shape.
Mar 2, 2025
Mar 2, 2025 at 1:24 PM UTC
Families tethered, friends in panic,
How do I keep myself from going manic?
Ignorance is bliss, but secretly a crime.
Because now all of our lives are on the line.
“Go and vote!”, “ PLAY YOUR PART!”.
But I wish I could just stay at home and forge art.
Create a world with my own two hands,
One that lack ****** and his foul plans.
I just want to be happy, so badly to be free.
This country deepen its hold on me.
There’s solutions to this feeling, some more grotesque than others.
I wish I could just be held by my mother.
To pat my head, tell me everything’s alright, start thinking of dinner plans for tonight.
But that reality is so far from mine.
So I’ll just dissociate at home.
Where my worries will continue to roam.
Jan 24, 2025
Jan 24, 2025 at 3:53 PM UTC
Spontaneously on this night,
Your eyes had a spark.
The droplets of sweat rolled past your freckles, landed on my heart.
I wouldn’t call this a “crush”
or
“wanting to be yours”.
But selfishly my lips wonder about more.
More of your beauty beaming it’s rays on my skin,
Because somehow your rays make me feel
happier within.
Jan 20, 2025
Jan 20, 2025 at 2:32 PM UTC
You never saw it.
The anger that rest inside me.
Lucky for you, the kindness and compassion had shone through.
My anger moves aside from time to time, wishing you happiness down the line.
But should our happiness ever cross.
Just know that you’ll be at a devastating loss.
For the me you’ll see is so far from the woman who cried relentlessly from the choice you made.
How that caused me so much dismay.
So I’ll keep nurturing her, anger and all. Polishing off every flaw, wearing them proudly like a badge.
Because I have survived the hands of yet another
********
Jan 17, 2025
Jan 17, 2025 at 4:31 PM UTC
You know that thing you told me would happen eventually?
Give your brain time for it all to work out mentally.
It’s happening more and more often each day, turning almost seemlessly gay.
This being said,
You’ll never be gone.
I’ll always carry a piece of you, like a tiny pawn.
Forever sitting on the sidelines.
Watching me experience the most intimate pleasures of this lifeline, the way it was always meant to be…
Jan 17, 2025
Jan 17, 2025 at 4:20 PM UTC