"you look happier lately"
i smile
i'm not
"are you doing okay?
yes, better
i'm dying inside
"i think the world of you"
you shouldn't
you don't
"and i worry"
there's no need anymore
please help me
"keep smiling"
thanks, i will
you'll never know
Jan 3, 2015
Jan 3, 2015 at 10:53 AM UTC
Why would I only name four?
There's so many reasons
Like the way your eyes have little crinkles when you smile
Or when your laugh gets high pitched when you laugh hard
Or when you wear your new glasses, because you look so **** cute
The way you act like you're a child
Or how you love those movies
I love how you seem like you don't care
But you actually do
I love when you play with my fingers
Or scratch my back a little
When you surprise hug me
Or when you're trying to be cute in public
I especially like how you stayed with me
Through those god awful times
You're what got me through
So I really honestly can't thank you enough
I like that you don't mind me
I like that you care
I like that you stay awake for hours with me
I like that you like me
I love that you're you
I love that you just do what you want
I love that you love me
I love you
Jan 3, 2015
Jan 3, 2015 at 12:04 AM UTC
some people just do not get it
do they?
they think they can see you clearly
when in reality, you are not a window
you're more of a piece of one-way glass
people think they can see through you
but from the other side
its completely opaque
they say
"Your smile makes others smile!"
when really you're thinking
"My smile is so forced."
its hard
seeing everyone all happy
when you're all sad
they just dont get it
so you laugh it out
you laugh when they do
you smile with them
you put on the best **** act you can
they dont know that youre breaking
they cant see it
its the one-way glass
they dont understand
you might open up to people
but they mainly just leave
some will stay
but its likely theyll leave
so you go to school
or work
or out in public
and you force it
you force your happiness
and your smiles
and everything
and you just laugh it out
laughing makes it seem like
youre perfectly fine
youre okay
but you arent
they just cant see through
the piece of one-way glass
they dont know
they wont know
as long as you laugh it out
Dec 19, 2014
Dec 19, 2014 at 9:27 PM UTC
the most simple thing to do
is breathe
but some people
find breathing difficult
their heart beats are fine
but theyre suffocating
theyre suffocating inside themselves
calling out for someone to help
nobody comes to help
they dont listen at all
their breathing slows
same as their heart beat
heart beats are simple
just a signal that says
"**Hey! You ARE alive!
Don't fret! Don't worry.**"
but some people find it hard
to make their heart beat
to make their heart beat
to breathe
its difficult for some people
anyone can have this issue
but, its simple
right?
take a look at people sometimes
acknowledge them
befriend them
care for them
help them breathe
help their heart beat
those people will love you
whether you know it or not.
Nov 22, 2014
Nov 22, 2014 at 7:06 PM UTC
i cant do it
i cant speak
i cant do it
i cant talk
i can only talk
to certain people
and only a few
understand my words
i try
to make people understand
but they refuse to hear it
they dont understand
i give them hints
i speak
i give them clues
i talk
they dont understand
they dont get it
i cant speak
i cant talk
i dont talk to people
who dont understand
i speak
i talk
the people who get it
they acknowledge me
they pay attention to my words
they probably feel bad
i can speak
i can talk
i cant make them understand
i cant make them get it
i might just give up
but the people who
understand
would actually care
the people who
dont understand
wouldnt even notice
that i couldnt speak or talk
and i cant speak
or scream
or talk
or hurt anymore
Nov 17, 2014
Nov 17, 2014 at 7:53 PM UTC
I'm in awe every moment
I admire her every word and movement
It's impossible for me to ignore her
I think about her every minute
I have to suppress the thought of her just to get things done
She is my fire in the sky when I can't see the sun
I'm just so hateful
I want to hate her
but I can't find a single reason
What will become of thoughts like this
I just want to grab her wrist and show her hands are meant to be held
How can a person be like a season?
Like the leaves in fall
I can make her face turn red
Autumn is only person that makes my anger and hate decimate
Nov 17, 2014
Nov 17, 2014 at 7:47 PM UTC
When I was younger I've been on the receiving end
Always getting what others got for themselves
Now that I'm older I see myself giving in
I question why some people are kind to me
How could they when all I am is negative energy
I dreamed a world where I could wish on a shooting star
When I looked at the sky I wondered where the stars were
My demons held me down until I felt a pain that's sharp
I gasped for air woke up in the dark
I would rather live than be alive forever
Living for myself is my only desire
If Autumn ever comes around to change my mind
I know then I can happy and leave my past behind
Move like water around the rocks resting in a stream
Is how I live never overcoming anything
To move like birds in a forest that's so green
Is how I want to dwell before I am deceased
I dreamed I surpassed everyone's expectations by far
To imagine such a reality seemed too bizarre
Every time I want to move forward, all I can feel is the walls in the dark
Nov 16, 2014
Nov 16, 2014 at 9:29 PM UTC
Stop
Was a word she was afraid to say
Every "how are you?" ends with "I'm ok"
Why doesn't she just run away
When he says he loves her he doesn't mean it
She walks with her shades on
For her eyes are of a burglar who has had their dignity stolen
People walk by oblivious to what's it like for her at "home"
She longs to be truly alone
She walks with her shades on
I wonder "do you hate making eye contact with people, do you?"
The weather is beautiful as her yet she always wears a sweater
She doesn't let anyone know her arms are violet
Why doesn't she run away?
Why can't he just die today
An angel's wings should never be led astray
If she could know the world outside of that cowards grasp
Maybe the world could still enjoy her laugh
Nov 16, 2014
Nov 16, 2014 at 9:27 PM UTC
mother, why?
i know you carried me for 9 months
well a little less...
i was born early
but, why?
why do you act this way?
why do you treat me like this?
why?
i understand
i can definitely be aggravating
and annoying
and frustrating
but, why?
why do you do this?
why do you say that?
why dont you see it?
you act as if i was the worst thing
youve ever encountered
i look at you sometimes,
and i dont see my mother
but, why?
why dont i see my mother?
why dont you like me?
why dont you care?
i know that i dont do everything you ask
i know its hard nowadays
i know that you can get very mad
i know this
but, why?
why dont you hear me?
why dont you want to know about me?
why dont you just listen?
i know why
you have a lot on your plate
you have more important things to do
you have other people in your life
you choose to ignore me
unless you need something
you dont hear my cries for you
but, why?
Nov 16, 2014
Nov 16, 2014 at 9:20 PM UTC
my house would be a lot better if
the kinks were all worked out
if the water wouldnt get so hot
i think i might get burned
if the water wouldnt get so cold
i think i might get frostbite
if i had my own room
instead of sharing with my sister
if my brother wouldnt pester me
about how he needs help
with everything
if my mom wouldnt yell at me
because my dads being mean
if my dad wouldnt annoy everyone
because he thinks hes being funny
if my cat wouldnt jump on my bed
and knock everything off
if my dog wouldnt bark so loud
at the slightest sound
if my hamster wouldnt always
get stuck in the stupid wheel
if i could actually sleep at night
instead of crying for hours
my house would be a lot better if
there werent so many reasons
for it to not feel like a home.
Nov 15, 2014
Nov 15, 2014 at 11:01 PM UTC