I'm standing here on the stage
While you were shaming my name,
I was trash saying no one would remember
Who was to blame
Everything seems so blurry
But I remember your face in sadness,
That hat and the tone
When you said it had to be me,
You said you were sorry
Then everything went into space
"You like ******* people's man you ******* ***** I ******* told you--"
I wish that night populated a script,
Cloudy memory now everything is dismissed,
Seeing your car and the fight between you and him
He told me I was crazy,
It was all in my head,
Do you remember seeing me by myself,
When you needed someone to remove you from what you just did
Groups of 3 to 4 standing in the dark
In random spots in case I run,
All of this over what?
Someone you loved?
Now all of you drink your guilt,
Getting tipsy until your soul can't capture..
Of what you all have done,
You thought dementia would hit,
But all the trauma is rushing in
Can't even trust anyone even ones who work for the city, using anything to mess with my mental health
Once upon a time, I used to be free
The only thing that effected my life was depression and ADHD--
Schizophrenic depression is what they tried to make it seem but like I said, I used to dance and sing before you all had your way with me
This is just a piece of the story,
A chapter from the dark abyss,
This started in Harlingen in a little place
Called treasure hills
Oh hey you,
Remember me?
The guy you said that was delusional
To the things that you did
Do you remember me losing breath?
Or me losing sight to see?
My mind couldn't handle what was being done
As you can see.
Lucky you, I don't remember a thing.
The only thing I remember is trying to breath
As I started losing my heartbeat
You were so scared you had EMS on the line,
But glory to God I came back alive..
I told you I was fine, but how long was I out?
How long did you use me until you laid me down?
1,2,3 These are the stories of Evil
I told you the first, the second but
The third I have to burry deep.
I can't say much other than something in the water, you may think I'm referencing God
But this was the devil--swimming in the ****** water
Sep 17, 2023
Sep 17, 2023 at 2:53 AM UTC
Fluffy as beautiful snow
She gallops like a true Texan pearl,
🌻
Playful tender soul who loves
Cuddling when it's very cold
♍
Her whines and cries showing how she
Misses me so, my sweet Lady
You make me not want to let go,
🤸
But you had to go,
This is just temporary I hope you know
🌬️
When you see me dance to the music
And you have to jump on your two hine legs,
You give me a smile so cheery
I want to see your happy feet
💙
My little fur baby, daddy will come back around and I'll make sure you have everything and more
Lady 09/2022
VirgoPup
Jun 2, 2023
Jun 2, 2023 at 9:05 PM UTC
I'm standing on the water with energy solar flares, like the Northern lights, the creative movements that swirl.
If I stay the flares that fuel me, in all good ways, make me beautiful, like the way people travel to see the world's amazing ways.
Will I go or will I stay, a hand reaches out to tell me there's a better life over the ocean where evil never slays.
Roaring clouds, black as knight, like a thief in the night circulate me lik a dark force--if I stay or will I go when this soul trap is taking the flares of energy leaving me with no more power that I have no choice to let go.
Like an atomic bomb my solar flares of beauty want to blow 🌬️ so that I may defeat this storm--if I stay or will I go only holding on strong for ones I dearly love so...
They may have to let me go so that I may protect them without being inflicted so they stay a little longer to keep the light in this world.
If I stay or will I go, at least my loved ones can teach the world that's there a beautiful light in every human--being which can change the direction of course to show you love is as strong as the northern lights keep a glow.
My dear nephew, if I stay or will I go--Tito will always be in your big heart to always remind you of the impact you will have and like the Northern Lights, you will brighten this world.
If I stay or will I go, my loved ones tell the world my heart was true--if I choose to stay it'll only be to keep your heart a float.
If I choose to stay, it'll only be to keep you holding on--if I choose to go it'll only be because my energy has no more strength to help you stay afloat.
Don't be sad...the light of the North, I have made course to a journey where I can protect you 🙏❤️ and it won't hurt while shielding you so you wouldn't have this option--only stay to light this world.
-Dezi Reyna , Virgo of 1994
You step barefoot in the sand feeling one of the elements of the universe, you feel the air and the wind blowing, seeing the water and fire create a ying a yang ☯️ that makes true pure power..of beauty.
Jun 1, 2023
Jun 1, 2023 at 1:09 PM UTC
How do you recover?
Sound of waves crashing so loud,
the height of this pain so deep you can drown.
Moments of memories hidden so deep in the dark, the bad ones that poison on the life from the ground up.
A venom so deadly, triggering nerves singing pain in a medley removing all the positive energy.
Years and years of crying wanting someone to be devoted...to you...but all you've received are people who wish bad against you.
There's the venom again, attacking my self confidence. how do I recover and tell myself, "I'm beautiful?" and live without sadness?
May 19, 2023
May 19, 2023 at 8:15 AM UTC
Trying hard to grasp what's left of my life, finding my true self fulfilling thy destiny. Constant questions of the basics, constant regrets of poor choices. Progression of a dream at a slow pace with a late start, middle to poor class is my pocket book with only one dollar not enough to build momentum. Constant battle of self worth, sharing empathic energies just to be drained mentally into a transition of physicality.
Getting tired of the constant burden weight, thinking that if I don't live up to the expectations of others results in abandonment. Support is at a minimum with a built in reminder to not be so hopeful in a big world full of dope.
A penny on the street is the only dime to my name,
Depending on close family and friends, what a shame.
Holding the favors against me to cater the most,
"Not intentionally", yet a mental implement in my head shows that your actions of attitude show best…
They're getting worse. .so they say.."You look pathetic trying to be like me.." with a face so evil in discreet. "Do us all a favor and off yourself please", says he who was made weak in their drunken ways like a heavy weight from shoulders to feet.
You are pathetic and no one will ever love you, he says to me–you wanted this so now take this as defeat.
May 19, 2023
May 19, 2023 at 7:51 AM UTC
A curse consisting of unknown origins like a plague never going away. Tormented, by the things I value or want, reversing my feelings of genuine hate.
One with the bad intentions get the guy while my broken heart crushes over something that will never be mine.
I just want to feel the love I deserve, building the foundation to a happy home. Flaws and all I accept the challenges but I'm being beat by the one who doesn't value it most.
Where are you, I am at the end of this beat. Follow the music notes that your heart sings, my melody is lost without your harmony. Whoever you are, I already love you, waiting with open arms like a lotus blooming after being watered.
Come to me, darling.
May 19, 2023
May 19, 2023 at 7:46 AM UTC
Riding through the roads of Texas,
Every obstacle in life riding on a Trojan Horse.
Meeting different people, unconditional love being given, but I'm reaching out with arms high, I've been drowning my heart with lies.
I have this theory that passes my mind and when I try to make it come alive, no one is there to pick up the pieces when I cry.
Wrong turns, dead ends, uncontrollable emotions like hurricane winds across the ocean, crashing every thing I want to build.
Winds are strong, but I have to make it through. Being down this long road, I can see the sun rising and a better life coming.
May 6, 2023
May 6, 2023 at 3:53 PM UTC
I caressed his legs, kissing every parts of his body. We rode with music deep into our souls, walking through the trees of life opening up the universe as our connection unfolds.
He carries this light that makes the green bloom, he is tender like a cherry blossom with florescent colors that brighten a dark soul while the skies are blue.
Music so devine when he shows me the beats, he even smiles with faces that stay upbeat. He is a song of hopes and dreams, what every person wants when hearing a fairytale story complete.
"Hug me tight like if I'll die tomorrow", intertwining his soul with mine, his hands connect with mine. He gives me chills down my spine, I hope he never lets go or I may just fly.
You are perfect in so many ways, the time we have spent together feel like I've known you for decades. Seal your lips with mine as we gather more memories, even the little fights instruct me to do things right.
You keep me breathing, like if it's my last. I wish I could just tell you how I feel but my strong emotions get the better of me before I can even get them in motion.
Nov 18, 2022
Nov 18, 2022 at 4:48 AM UTC
Giving me her all
Always joy in our hearts
Brightening each other’s days
Raking out all the bad pains
I don’t even have any words to say
Even though I know we see each other’s pain
Loyalty has lost its way, but
Actions soon will bring us together again and safe.
My best friend Gabriela.
Jun 16, 2021
Jun 16, 2021 at 12:41 AM UTC
Love is always a dream point, one that is sometimes hard to make. You don’t know if the distance is worth the pain even though it makes you happy on some days.
Short or long, it counts off the happy days, but sometimes I need a hug and distance is so far away. Why can’t I just have this one thing that every one is scared to take.
Your words, your thoughts all are in sync with me & if I see your face I know that this will be fate.
A long journey, times are at change and I hope I can love you as much as our distance keeps us away..from each other..
Jun 16, 2021
Jun 16, 2021 at 12:36 AM UTC