with flowers in her eyes
she looks so pretty when she cries
teardrops run down her cheeks
like water flows down solemn creeks
heart broken in two
by someone she thought she knew
Nov 12, 2018
Nov 12, 2018 at 10:43 AM UTC
you stole my light
when i told you to stop
and you ignored my red light
and kept going
like my body was undiscovered land
and you were a colonizer.
perhaps my asking you to stop
turned you on
made you hungry.
you looked at me with your hungry eyes
like i was fresh meat
for you to take and have for yourself
ignoring my stop signs
cries
screams
because i am nothing more
than an object to you
made for your manipulation and pleasures.
Oct 8, 2018
Oct 8, 2018 at 10:07 AM UTC
You see my brown skin
And assume I'm a ****
You see my hijab
And assume I'm a terrorist.
You see the smile on my face
And assume I'm happy.
You hear my words
And assume I'm okay.
But I am not.
Instead I am broken.
Yet I am also strong.
I am dark and rule-following.
I am peaceful and Muslim.
You assume based on
Society's POV.
If you smile
You must be happy.
Fox, CNN, any media
Tells you I am a terrorist.
So the names I get called
And the extra security checks
Are extremely upsetting.
The murders of black folk
Is either considered appropriate
Or it's "black on black crime"
So it's not taken seriously.
Who are you gonna believe
Me or those who don't know me?
Oct 8, 2018
Oct 8, 2018 at 10:07 AM UTC
Sometimes I think of killing myself
How the end would be so nice
How the darkness would swallow me up
And how the numbness would suffice
My need
For all the voices of the feelings
That constantly keep me reeling
To softly slow to a hush
As my brain starts tur-tur-turning into mush
How wonderful it would be
To have that powerful silence
Not even grasshoppers would bother
To wake me
My cells would stop dividing
My brain would stop the lying
Myself would stop denying
What I truly want
But but but
This is just a reckless fantasy
A way to elude one’s own reality
Because as I sit here on the floor
Tears drip drip dropping
I realize there’s those who care for me more
Cherish me more
Love me more
Than I love my own self
The crickets chirp
I put the pills down
Oct 8, 2018
Oct 8, 2018 at 10:06 AM UTC
A painful tear leaks from my eye,
It screams a terrible sound,
A sound so loud but unheard from all around,
It flows down my cheek and seeps into the ground,
“Help him”, it cries “he wants to die”
Oct 8, 2018
Oct 8, 2018 at 10:01 AM UTC
I have finally come to the conclusion,
that I do not love myself.
that I don't love the way i smile,
or talk,
or laugh.
I hate that I am quite,
that I'm introverted and
would rather prefer to spend my days alone,
rather than surrounded by people.
I'm trying to improve how I view myself,
however, how do you change your perspective
when you have been living it for years?
Oct 3, 2018
Oct 3, 2018 at 7:34 AM UTC
You see the slump in my shoulders
the way I carry myself
the burdens of boulders
that threaten my health.
When you ask what's wrong
I pull up my guard
don't want your pity or sad song
won't tell you why life's hard.
So if you want to know
I'll bottle it inside
wrap up all remains in a black bow
and tell you I'm fine.
Oct 1, 2018
Oct 1, 2018 at 8:40 AM UTC
#
If you are a demon
then send me to Hell
If you are a witch
then take me with your spell
If you are a drug
Then in my vein inject
If you’re a psychosis
Let my life be wrecked
If choosing to stay
Then a price must be paid
Sign a contract in blood
I'm forever your slave
You're heartless and cold
The Devil, you might be
Yours to torture forever
Just don't ever leave
#
Oct 1, 2018
Oct 1, 2018 at 8:38 AM UTC
I feel ****** to the
Eternal inferno of flame
The smoke burns my
Lungs
As I listen to the
Crackle of burning skin
The brimstone hearth
Holds the flames of
Those lost
The fire burns through
My flesh
As my eyes turn to flames
Sep 28, 2018
Sep 28, 2018 at 9:38 AM UTC