They say "I'm here for you "
Are they ****
Where are you? when I'm slicing my legs to pieces with a blade carving adjectives into my skin. Pathetic. Ugly. Fat
Where are you? When I'm crying alone picking out everyone of my flaws; like stars in the darkest of nights.
Where are you? When I need you most. When I felt like the whole world was against me, that's right you weren't there.
Where were you?when I felt alone like I had no one. No one cares , that's right you didn't either.
There for me is where you weren't. When I needed you; you weren't there. And I won't be here when I eventually pass away from the pain I inflict on my self. I don't feel anything anymore I'm already dead inside so I may aswell be on the out.
May 12, 2015
May 12, 2015 at 5:54 PM UTC
Once upon a time
There was a girl
Who made mistakes
She was imperfect
She was judged
She was weak
She's the type of girl with a lot of secrets
The kind she wished she could tell
Like the night so long ago
She was only 15
Just wanted to have fun
She's called a *****
For losing her virginity to a 24 year old
She just wanted to have fun
But what people don't know
What secret she buries deep inside
Is she didn't want to
But in her mind
Being remembered as a *****
Is better then being remembered as the girl who got rapped
Once upon a time
There was a girl
Who made mistakes
She was imperfect
She was judged
She was weak
Feb 5, 2015
Feb 5, 2015 at 2:28 PM UTC
Eva came first, a tiny cloth bag
A tiny brown noose on the table will drag
A little red heart sown over her chest
We are one, together depressed.
After comes Lucas, a lover of Eva
He adds to the mix a slightly different flavor
He takes the scars with which I'm obsessed
We are one, together depressed.
Now there's Sally, a full-bodied doll
She can fit in the palm of my hand, she's so small
You can try to figure out who they are, be my guest
We are one, together depressed.
When most people see them, they call me a creep
You must be a voodoo artist, they all say like sheep
Not such a shocker that no one has ever addressed
That we are one, together depressed.
Think what you say, because sometimes it's needed
To keep me from death they have so far succeeded
Not often have I really expressed
That we are one, together depressed.
Feb 5, 2015
Feb 5, 2015 at 11:29 AM UTC
I don't understand
the human desire
for endless life.
For me,
Immortality
would be
a curse.
Eternity trapped
my thoughts?
No thank you.
Feb 5, 2015
Feb 5, 2015 at 11:28 AM UTC
When I grow up I want to be a builder
I can create happiness and love
But only for a while, it's so unstable.
When I grow up I want to demolish my buildings
I'm great a destroying relationships
And breaking my own heart.
When I grow up I want to be an artist
And draw strokes and lines of red
On my paper skin
When I grow up I want to be a writer
I can write stories of drama and pain
And of my own misery
When I grow up I want to travel
I want to go from life into death
And see the white light.
Feb 5, 2015
Feb 5, 2015 at 11:26 AM UTC
They say;
monsters live under our bed.
They say;
demons live outside our house,
alluring in the darkness of night.
They taught us;
if we don't go into sleep,
monsters are going to hunt us down,
in our childhood.
They also taught;
demons will knock at our windows,
will capture us,
if we don't eat.
What we were not taught was,
Monsters live inside our head,
not under our bed.
What we never saw,
Until we faced them,
that;
demons are woven in our souls.
They control our mind,
They control our thoughts.
They control US.
Feb 5, 2015
Feb 5, 2015 at 11:23 AM UTC
A canvas
So lifeless and Empty
No feeling nor emotion
You Take your paintbrush
forceful drag it over the pale white
Weep and wipe as the red flows down - down
The canvas is your skin
The paintbrush is the deamon that lies deep within
Feb 4, 2015
Feb 4, 2015 at 4:24 PM UTC
Days painted gray
Suffocating with forever darkness
Standing before a mirror
Bleeding cracks upon my wrist
Nails digging deep in my neck
Torn skin in search of happiness
Aching head banged against walls
Causing too much pain to myself
I am unfixable
Tears forever escape my eyes
Nose bleeds red tears
Too many Xanax's for me to bare
Not enough alcohol
Too numb the aching in my body
I am shaking
I am alone
I am ****** up
I am hurting
I am broken
I am angry
I am dissatisfied
I am insane
I am unfixable
Feb 4, 2015
Feb 4, 2015 at 2:22 PM UTC
I can feel darkness
carving its name into my skin
Reaching for my heart
To take away my love
No protective barrier
So easily penetrated
So close now
I can feel despair
Please save me
I'm almost gone
Don't stand there
Save me...
I am now lost
To far gone
You stood there
Watched me suffer
Now feel the pain
That I once felt
I will stand here
As you scream my name
Never moving
I will watch your pain
For internity we will be together
Isn't that what we always wanted
Forever you will feel this pain
Forever you will scream my name
Forever we will share this pain
Forever we will scream each others name
Feb 4, 2015
Feb 4, 2015 at 2:21 PM UTC
There's two of us
There's two
Ones Evil
Ones Good
Who we truly are
Depends on the side we choose
Feb 4, 2015
Feb 4, 2015 at 2:19 PM UTC