people misunderstand my silent thought
as a personal offense
but never could they have thought
its true meaning self defense
for open to interpretation
means open to be twisted
open to be contorted
open to be in discomfort for entertainment
i think that public speakers
know how to roll the dice
with every polished word it is clearer
my certainty that i have to pay the price they don't
for faking a smile is an art
an art in being public
an art in masquerading
an art in knowing how to leave your true self at home
i admire it
but an imitation can never be the original
so i won't throw a fit
if they interpret me as predictable
Feb 10
Feb 10, 2026 at 1:38 PM UTC
im a stranger in all places
even those marked as home
a quickly passing thought in the minds of those I love
nothing but a fool who thinks the bartender cares
or that my parents want the best of me
worrying about my "phone usage" more than my obvious unease
i would like to be alone
with no one to percieve me
because the only thing I've seen
Is villianization of my speech
twisting my apparently foreign language
into mistranslation as they please
i am a fool that chases after the indifferent
out of envy for being born caring
but when the distraction's done everyone is the same
for the loved and the forsaken alike
life is a miserable game
Dec 25, 2025
Dec 25, 2025 at 3:06 PM UTC
When I open the black mirror
In the hopes of dark escape
It becomes ever clearer I'm throwing my time away
In pursuit of the drug I see the ghosts
Of those living dead raving mad
Snarling, drooling, biting the others
I fear I will become them
If I remain this empty glass
It's hard to stand by and not be absorbed by the mass
I try to sing but I am still in the search for my voice
But blundering and plucking I'll find my way
As long as the black mirror doesn't **** me in today
Dec 2, 2025
Dec 2, 2025 at 12:33 PM UTC
It was there in the loud room that my heart went quiet
The vibrant chattering was a sight I observed
But no one noticed how peturbed I was
Or that I had realized I would never fit in
Everyone saw through my facade of being the major puzzle piece
When like a slow car on the highway
Around my head the chit-chat dodged
As if it was agitated by my prescence
This is what I am running away from
In my desperate sprint to flee from this place
I do not like it here because this place seeks to evict me
To remove a stranger from its midst
Nov 8, 2025
Nov 8, 2025 at 10:58 PM UTC
the cool night air
tangles itself around my short hair
nostalgia of summers lost to the tick of time
it reminds me how temporary
the orange and pink passionate sunsets are
and how the blue hour fades
to the tone of a calm bass
but i'll miss l'bleu heure
more than I'll miss those unrequited loves
and by love I mean those sorrowful admirations
searching for validation
but with this new season i bid the past goodbye
as i bid goodbye to l'bleu heure
Sep 22, 2025
Sep 22, 2025 at 4:54 PM UTC
(intro)You wanted my eyes when I needed a metaphor
It's time to cut the splitting cord
I cannot afford to crave
In the way I hungered before
(Main poem) I crumbled when I saw you clearly
Not that I still care dearly
But the wasted time is a knife tearing slowly into me
I had an invention that soothed my wounds
Salt of my tears to a sorry night's croon
But the bitter spell is broken
And i'm afraid I was never sweet
I find it hard to trust
Because I worshipped dust
And I wonder why I looked at the ground when the stars were so beautiful
Sep 7, 2025
Sep 7, 2025 at 10:05 PM UTC
You've walked off the stage
Thinking you've left warmly
I'm still standing here
While you think the ending is a victory
But I'm alone and still performing
Rehearsing the lines you didn't say
You're out in the real world gloating
How this play was good, you'll start a new one in a soon-coming day
So I'll say it all here because you'll never find this
You never saw the truth in my eyes so why would you look for it now?
I miss the you I made up in my head
It would be easier if you hated me
Then at least I'd have jumped ship sooner
There'd be no new wounds to heal
Your kindness haunted me
Cauterized the old hurts into scars
But opened new wounds on my skin
And no other person can swing around and deal with it
But how can I?
How can I heal when there's no one around when I cry
No one to wipe my tears, to tell me it'll be fine
When you said it, it was a lie
But at least it was a lie I could keep in me heart as mine
I'll have to do it nonetheless
Now that the issue of you has been addressed
It's time for me to go, to abandon this old show
I hope someday you'll know
How you helped me
But this is goodbye,
Sorry I don't need to be around
Jun 22, 2025
Jun 22, 2025 at 9:51 PM UTC
I'm looking for my next era
Backstage, on deck
But as I grasp for my script I find there isn't one
Perhaps I'm not cut out for being the main character
I wish to be a knight but I can't find any dragons
Without knowledge of a sword, where's my adventure
All this creative energy
And nowhere to hide
It's all pooled up while I'm sitting here passively dead
What to do? What to do?
When you don't really feel like living a life
Jun 17, 2025
Jun 17, 2025 at 8:19 PM UTC
I woke up today a zombie
Walking around with dead eyes
Legs dragging through their course
Feeling like dead weight without useful force
I miss a girl
For her hugs and the fact she pitied me
She was warmth to my dead body
But she didn't actually want me
It's been a year and she doesn't know
I thought I had close acquaintances
But they just laugh at me
The familiar clown pacing unknowingly
The hanged man and the fool
Everywhere I go it's always the same
I get up each day hoping for change
But something's gotta snap me out of it
As my happiness is an illusion painting
I go up, and suddenly it's down
Never right, no one understands my frown
Or anything I ever do at all
But no one says anything as they tower over me so tall
The council has decided
Decided a slow sentence
A delusional death
Penitence for a past life's sins
Jun 1, 2025
Jun 1, 2025 at 7:29 PM UTC
I noticed.
How you said hello
A smile and a glance
To see if I watched you go
I noticed
When we talked the room went quiet
A room full of people
But only visible was you and I
I noticed
The wondering glance
So much the same as mine
But over things I seemingly cannot define
I don't know
What you think
What you want
If you care
I don't know
When I leave
Will it destroy you
That I'm no longer there?
May 25, 2025
May 25, 2025 at 11:45 AM UTC