In the cold dark night,
I stare up at the moon,
And I think of you.
I wonder where you are.
Whose name you whisper now,
Whose hand you reach for
When the world gets heavy.
I took a drive
Down Route 80.
Wide awake,
With the needle kissing empty.
Kept my head on straight,
Headed toward redemption.
Held my pride together,
Never called your name.
The air felt like September
A summer already gone.
A cold breeze through the window,
Carrying you along.
And the wall came tumbling down.
I stared up at the full moon
On a Friday night,
Drinking to forget,
But feeling everything.
The moon hung low above me,
Like it knew what I’d lost.
Like it had watched us burn bright
And counted every cost.
You’re not a distant memory anymore.
You’re sitting beside me again,
In every song on the radio,
In every mile that never ends.
I see your face in the full moon.
It follows me wherever I go.
A ghost made of silver light,
Teaching old wounds how to glow.
And the wall came tumbling down.
You texted me first.
My hands shook in the dark.
I reached out like a worshiper
Waiting for a sign from God.
And I stared up at the full moon
On a Friday night,
Drinking to forget,
But feeling everything.
The moon said nothing.
The road went on.
But for a moment,
You felt close enough to hold
4d ago
May 30, 2026 at 2:25 AM UTC
I wish I wasn’t stuck in purgatory,
Waiting for your next text or call.
I’m haunted by your every word,
Because I don’t know when the next might come.
And I thought I dug myself out of this grave before.
But I find myself right back here again.
It’s like home, and I never left.
You keep me a mile from where you last stepped.
And the sting lingers for a while.
You’re a ghost that’s there but not really.
And I’m scared of something I don’t believe in.
Haunting me like a bad dream.
You’re right there but so far away.
You’re a ghost of someone that doesn’t want to know me.
And you say you’ll try harder,
But it only gets harder
To believe anything you say.
At the end of the day you are you,
And I am me.
And you’ll haunt me like a ghost forever,
I’m not the reason, I’m just living here.
And I don’t know why I’m scared,
But your presence gives me a reason.
You’re a ghost that’s there but not really.
And I’m scared of something I don’t believe in.
Haunting me like a bad dream.
You’re right there but so far away.
You’re a ghost of someone that doesn’t want to know me.
May 24
May 24, 2026 at 4:54 AM UTC
Your mother called you a fraud,
Said you trick woman.
And even though they really are,
You play the victim.
They think you’re something you’re not.
Your a curse,
They are the victim.
You’ve been alive long enough now to know,
That this only gets harder,
Everyday. more and more.
And so you just let it go,
Bury it deep.
Until you develop a victim complex
And I know it must be hard to sleep at night.
With these faces in your dreams.
Of girls who loved you,
And you just threw away.
Who is this victim,
Them or you?
All they want from you is everything. its not that bad of trade.
But you don’t pull the trigger,
And you lose another.
The list get bigger.
May 10
May 10, 2026 at 3:39 AM UTC
AND IF I NEVER SEE YOU AGAIN
And if I never see you again,
I’d want you to know
how much of an effect
you left on me.
Buried deep beneath my skin,
every memory has roots
that stretch throughout my soul.
And when thunder rolls,
like drums beating in the distance,
I’m reminded of those nights we spent upstate
by a fire,
our hearts racing,
both of us afraid
of giving someone everything.
You were wild at heart,
and you let me come along
on your reckless adventures.
They changed me for good.
And I’ll carry those memories
like gold in my pocket
until I’m tired and old.
I remember it like yesterday
when you stopped answering my calls.
Every ring was a knife
driven a little deeper.
Every voicemail I left
was another piece of myself
I couldn’t get back.
Until one day,
there was nothing left to give
only photographs
and a bitter taste in my mouth.
And if I never see you again,
I want you to know
that I carry you
through every thought and memory.
You’ve rented out a space
inside my soul.
And when I think of you,
I think of home.
Wherever you are
in this great big world,
I hope you’re doing okay.
I’d hate to think of you
living any way
other than your own.
May 10
May 10, 2026 at 1:49 AM UTC
The train was loud,
But the silence was louder.
Don’t be shy,
You’re staring up at the sky.
I know you,
Have made your choice.
Just say what you mean,
Use your voice.
The thunder cracked the sky,
And you shook your head.
A million thoughts ran deep,
And true.
I thought that I knew you,
But you were a stranger.
There’s trouble ahead,
I can feel it brewing in my head.
Started driving south,
I don’t know if I’m ever coming back.
This winter was harsh,
Hope this summer heat thaws my heart.
Take me back to the start,
Id turn and run like hell.
If I knew then you were the devil,
I would have prayed to God.
You want to move in the dark,
Well I was born in it.
Don’t be shy,
Say what you mean.
You can curse and shout,
Yell and scream.
Just say what you mean,
Just say it loud and true.
I wouldn’t be hurt,
If you said, “I hated you.”
Saw your face in a dream,
I couldn’t sleep for weeks.
Started driving south,
I don’t know if I’m ever coming back.
This winter was harsh,
Hope this summer heat thaws my heart.
Take me back to the start,
Id turn and run like hell.
If I knew then you were the devil,
I would have prayed to God.
I am the shore line,
And you are the sea.
I’m always treading water,
I can barely breathe.
Don’t keep your secrets to yourself,
Whisper them to me.
I want to shout your name,
But I whisper it out of fear.
Started driving south,
I don’t know if I’m ever coming back.
This winter was harsh,
Hope this summer heat thaws my heart.
Take me back to the start,
Id turn and run like hell.
If I knew then you were the devil,
I would have prayed to God.
Apr 30
Apr 30, 2026 at 2:47 AM UTC
I used to write poetry to let go of feelings.
But then I stoped feeling.
And suddenly I was writing about nothing.
Cynical ideas based on selfish ideals.
Cold words blanketed by sad meanings.
If nothing at all, nothing meant anything and that in itself was the end of the beginning.
I write just to write not to write to have meaning.
I want to write again to write something worth feeling.
To write poetry that clings to the heart.
That makes minds ponder, each word and each thought.
I’ve had friends, family, and teachers tell me to write and not stop.
This poetry must mean something if so.
I owe it to them to write from the soul.
I’ll continue to write,
To express how I feel.
To write from my heart,
To make words make you feel.
Apr 26
Apr 26, 2026 at 4:52 AM UTC
Well you ain’t no hero,
We knew that to be true.
No matter how old this story gets,
At least that we knew.
You ain’t no Hulk Hogan,
You ain’t no Rambo.
You sure as hell, ain’t no Rocky,
We knew that too.
You don’t wear a cape,
And you don’t have a symbol.
You drink till you pass out,
You don’t have signal.
We call you and you come days later.
You’re more like a villain.
You're more like Darth Vader.
Evil lives within you.
We knew that to be true.
You are the devil in human form,
No good thought, since you were born.
Been on the fence of good,
But you always choose to do no good.
Sometimes you wish that you would,
You’d save everyone if you could.
But you don’t.
You’re no good.
Never were.
You know this to be true.
You’re not a hero.
Wouldn’t be if you could.
Apr 26
Apr 26, 2026 at 4:34 AM UTC
If you don’t drink all night and and smoke your lungs to tar,
Are you even doing it right.
Are you living your life,
All the to the bar.
Are you meeting the goal?
Are you leading the leader board?
Are you bored with your life?
Can you grasp what it takes to be happy,
To be alive and not living?
When your tired do you keeping going,
You do keep the dream alive?
To strive for greatness,
To be great.
What’s the difference from love and gate?
What’s the limit to living,
What the price for love?
To you want to keep going,
Or lay down n the dirt?
Do you surrender to hurt,
Or heal for satisfaction?
Feb 15
Feb 15, 2026 at 12:40 AM UTC
In the long dark
I feel afraid
Like every shadow
Is coming for me
When the sun breaks
I feel so safe
Like this light will carry me
Through the day
It’s tough to say
Just how I feel
I wanna love you
With every fiber of my soul
But it’s hard
To be myself
To share my whole heart
With someone else
To tell a story
And write someone in
To be a main character
Like they’ve always been there
It’s ends with me
It ends with this
It ends with love
What I have left to give
So say your last words
And kiss your love
Say goodbye
Like it is the last time
Just take it in
All this love
As long as there is sunlight
All is well
So if the sun is out
When you wake up
Just know that there is love
Where there is light.
Feb 14
Feb 14, 2026 at 11:53 PM UTC
I saw my youth die
Right before my eyes
Blown away in the wind
To young to ever win
To old to have been
What my parent's wanted me to be
And I can still see
A shadow of what that could be
Out in the distance of the city
I’ve seen beautiful sunrises
And tear to the eye sunsets
And I have shared them with
Many I loved or thought I did
And I can still remember
Falling in and out of love
And all the pain that came with it
And tumbling to the ground
Just like a little kid
When you got in trouble and
Went and hid
But there ain’t no hiding from this
Feb 2
Feb 2, 2026 at 11:45 PM UTC