The day our parents met
We knew something was gonna change
But I didnt know there would be a boy involved
I knew we would end up best friends
I knew he cared about me
11 years ago I left
I didn't plan on coming back
I didn't plan on coming back to this town
To this state
But I did
I started seeing you around school didn't know what to think
Am I elusinating....
I would ask my self " is that really him"
He finally msged me one day
He said hey how r you?
I answer great
I missed you
His reply I missed you too
I took one glance at his blonde hair
Blue eyes
It's all so clear to me now
But wait there's more
He isn't the same person he was when I first knew him
He has changed
He's more than what I thought he was
But now im not quite sure if he's actually changed
Im not sure that he really ever cared about me
Only about himself
Im going in circles trying to think oh what did I do
Is it me? I can change I promise
Pls don't leave
Pls don't shut me out
I need you
It replays over and over again in my head
Im intimidated by him
His eyes....
His hair...
His voice...
Everything about him is
So fresh but I've only got a glance of reality

I see figures
But they're not really there
It feels like im talking to someone or something
But everyone just thinks it's in my head
Im falling apart from the inside out
But there's a part of me that is saying someone is there
Helping me
He watches me as I lay in bed and turn and toss at night
Then I feel a warm touch on my skin
Nothing is there
I close my eyes and think of what he would look like
He could be my super hero or maybe my villon

I thought it was love
U thought I was a drug
You thought you could use me
You thought you could just **** me
And get it over with
But you didn't
You just ignored me
Like I was a toy
Like a worthless piece of garbage
Your like a drug onl