I'm sorry,
a word trapped in my mouth,
wanting to escape,
but what is its meaning,
with no change?
Empty words
(I'm sorry)
All I want to say is.
(I'm sorry)
But it holds no weight without action,
yet here I stand,
(I'm sorry)
I can’t promise it won’t happen again.
That’s me not trusting myself,
I fear breaking promises,
So, I stayed silent instead.
(I'm sorry)
I long to be there,
but yet I’m still only silent,
as if my lips were sewn shut from birth by my makers.
I feel a shift on the inside,
Yet nothing comes out.
So, have I truly changed?
You stay my only constant,
Yet I'm ruining that too.
(I'm sorry)
Lying here,
Like my mother,
a fate I do not wish for,
but each day it gets closer,
hurting the one I cherish most,
the one I wish to protect.
I lack the courage.
I so desperately seek.
Failing to shield
The very one who guards me.
My one true peace,
a delicate thing I shatter,
After all he’s given.
(I'm sorry)
Maybe things would be different.
if I weren’t like this,
if I weren’t weak,
if I was more careful,
if our paths hadn’t crossed,
if I weren’t here,
if I had chosen differently that night.
All these “ifs”
running wild in my mind,
no clear answer in sight,
An answer I’ve chased,
just as tirelessly,
As my heart whispers,
“I’m sorry.”