Isn't eazy
and it isnt fair.
to those very few who i hold dear,
please
forgive me of my disrspects and forgive me of my lies
forgive my hella wrongs
and the stupid alibi's
oh.... and last but not least
to those of y'all who fell victim to
my scandalous deeds.
please don't hate me
i didnt ask to play in this game
so hate the game and not I     
you see Im just a product of the eieghties
at the time a poisoned baby
growing up to be the maybe
who can save me from the shady?
when everyone fits the description
the opposition grow weary cause
I get mine I ain't got time
to think long marinating on
thoughts so  wrong
I find a way through this melee
cause this loco can't affort to lose a single step
cause if i trip then I'm got
i wont quit and i will never stop
its a cold *** world  
but its all part of learnin  
Life is Life
and it isnt meant to be eazy
you live from what youve learned
play with the flame the fire is gonna burn
take in every word and remember what was right
that way  when wrong comes to visit youll have something to win the fight.   









































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It started with a whisper I heard when the wind blew.
The words I heard were like nothing I had heard, It was like hearing something new.
So I cherish the four words that I heard; and they were
I love you blue.
Now that was koo,
I thought it through coming up with the notion that nothing in this

I flick the Bic,
take a hit,
inhale,
hold that ****.
exhale!
Now I'm lit.
Gone with the smoke and I love this ****.
im just shearin my feel
the real.
im the perpetrator/victim so i guess this is the ****.

Its ****** that he wrote.
And I quote,
"******'s what I wrote".
take note;
cause
it's becoming real hard for me to cope.
How am I supposed to be optimistic when
I've lost all hope.
Im rippin sippin and
Thinkin wrong.
In this world im alone and its starting to sound like the same sad song.

The downside of it all is ive become so skeptical of everything i even  hate to ******  sleep cause of what i may see when i dream
But **** it three tears in a bucket.
The world that im familiar with hates and its made me do the same.
Aint no remorse and or empathy
Just the wrong and bad oh and i cant forget the shame.

Now im lookin over my sholder
waiting
im hatin debatin
And talkin out loud but no one hears what im sayin
Cause I'm the type of dude who speaks my mind
Im beyond mad but keepin kool calm and collected
**** wasn't always simple circumstances lead to here and there
And every situation i reacked it
Now im in a hectic type way
I can't say who it is or when their make the move
but my last breath they will steal.
I done some wrong's;
to he\she and even to me myself and I.
But that wasn't the deal
***** deeds done like nothing I didn't even have to try and hide.
I'd Ride against the other side.
Found what I wanted, lost what I needed.
How long can I go on if my wounded heart bled all the love that it had
inside and no longer has life to bleed.
forsaken by my seed's, family, and
Soul so full of envy hate and greed
I agreed
Went on to sign the deed

I hope this all made sense to yall who were here to hear my story
And so with that here i
Toast to my ghost.

stays in the present time?
what if today should choose to draw the line?
I've played out every scenario as righteous as it maybe and still I can't stop thinking of a careless crime.
I lace up and stroll to the flow goin on in my polluted mind.
I see nothing but the come-up; but I know that I can't **** up,
The sky is the limit.

I am who?
who am i to y'all? Those that are in my life either by choice
Or unfortunately.
Is it really not me u talk too? Am I not the one u look at? who is it that u see?
Is it good or does it make u cautious. Such a bad feeling that you get nauseous?
Does it feel dark like no light sun or spark can bring light to who I am now?
I am who.
I am not a boy but
wonder is what gives me joy, Other peoples brain is well to me the most perfect toy.
I can show the me u want to see.
But then it will cost a lil fee.
I am who
Look if u are confused pay attention listen to my feel my minds release.
Do not look at the beast behind the smile crooked.
No book can define my mind.
U can look the world over and still won't find.
What I'm bout to shear.
U can listen but never hear. but
Hear me listen comprehend
And most of all understand.
I am who
You can call me what you like but the name is Blue  I am
I am who
I am demon.

Our love was Crimson and glover over and over you had this loco Rollin over like rover
I told you that I loved ya and ill do anything for ya we were on hit like a swisher full of doeja. I was your soldier, you always had a shoulder to lay your head on just in case u lost composure.
I loved you to the moon my star, we were together for a minute but we didn't get far cause of changing times you wanted something different you feeling different vibes.
All that jive our love was something beautiful I held it up with pride.
I ain't gonna lie my Cora did cry but now it's best that we both say goodbye alarto c'ya

You really did this loco ***** you said that you would wait but ended this love in such a hurry.
You killed my heart when you said goodbye
You buried me when you meet that other guy.
Why lie? Why lie?
Cause I really didn't need to hear all that but hey it's a new time different day no strings attached so everything is Fair play.
I'm ok now knowing that you had to get away
You should of just told me that you had something to say.
But anyway
we had some good times and we had some bad.
We had some happy laughs and we dropped some tears that would make even angles feel sad. Cause
Our love was the ****, like that go fast everyone wants a hit.
We were the spark but couldn't keep the flame lit.
You found me I lost you. To
The game and those things you like to do.
I was the fool.
U played with.
Now your the fool who came with strings and silly things like your smile full of lie and the deceiving looks from eyes that don't cry.
Alarto c'ya.

I'm on a lonely road, where I'm going only god and Satan know
So like a pawn i play the role
I'm not alright and I'm not OK
Im in a game called life and I didn't ask or want to play.
Hate is in my heart on my mind and polluting all my brain
I got nothing and I'll be leavin with only my shame
Other then that the same as I came.
Most people are out for the fame fortune and on the pursuit of happiness
I had every opportunity but the chance I missed
the fire I know like I remember every kiss
Lost looking for love but only getting dissed
Crying for why another broke joke another unanswered wish
Take your stars and my wishes may they haunt your days
I ain't perfect and I got some weird ways
Strange clouds is what I blow ice is what I blaze
I've been repeating every action like this so its more then just a phase
This world that I've created kind of reminds me of a maze
I'm on a road to nowhere.