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19Sixtythree Oct 2013

Thought

I could never wish for the pain to go away
Because the pain is where the beauty is built

19Sixtythree Oct 2013

I don't ask for much. just for the endless endearment of your perseption of me
I don't need much, just to know that you think of me forever and always, just that I Never leave your mind
I don't expect anything from you, it's simple, all I want is your unattainable perfection
to have you forever and always. But that's regular...right?

I want to love you more than madly I want to make love to your existence and your intellect, get lost in inescapable imagination, in that prison of thought
Feel the current of emotion pulling you into my arms. but first; how about dinner?

19Sixtythree Oct 2013

1963-2013

I wish for you
I wish for the memories to continue on
I wish that I didn't have to miss you everyday, every hour, every time my heart beats..
I wish that I never met you
I wish I never got to know the man you were, the strong wonderfully imperfect man you were.
I wish that time would've stopped, and I could hold onto each smile you gave me.
I wish I didn't have to think about you all the time, think about you, and remember everything about you.
I wish I never met you, I wish I never needed you, I wish you were never there to hold me, I wish you were here...I wish I could've saved you...and I wish you could save me.

This is a really special poem close to my heart, I wrote it soon after I lost my father. I cry everytime I look at it, but I love it.

19Sixtythree Oct 2013

I once knew you

I once knew you. The smile carved into your face with such care and focus, the care shown so not to reflect the depth of the despair beneath the warm, safe chest where I once laid.

the thoughts. The joyful emotions and subtle yet sensual intentions of your actions. I knew the creases, the sanded edges of your lips and hands.

an undefined, understated beauty, this rarity of inner sensuality shaped and molded together with the subtle outer sexuality that lured my eyes and took captive of my thoughts, caged them and made them weak.

I once knew you..you were my fantasy; My dream. The mirage I will forever chase...I once knew you. And I will never; forget you.

19Sixtythree Oct 2013

Untitled

you lather your feelings across the paper
Hoping to let the heartbreak seep out
you share your broken pieces with the strangers that are willing to indulge in the lonely aspects of your creative memories
you ache..so you write
you are the reason I write
you long for your head to stop reminding you of all the ******* lovely pain he put your heart through
You are a perfect picture with no reflection, you are cursed with by your own beauty because you'll never be able to witness it
*I wish you could see all the beauty I love

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