it picks away at my head trying to get through my thick skull and attempting to leave me in a puddle of my own disgusting goo
but i can only fight so hard i don’t know what to do
i feel sick to my stomach over how badly i want you
this stupid ****** brain and repulsive ******* heart keep trying to **** me but instead i remain repeating the same actions that have been leading me to the same place where every time i wake up here i don’t recognize my own face and it gets harder and harder not to blow out my brains when it’s like my entire existence is a joke just a mean-spirited prank like maybe this could have been funny but it’s gone too far and i don’t know why i ever pretended to laugh it would be much funnier to take my toaster in the bath