anita

anita Nov 2023

i stand there
watching you walk by
i can’t speak
you’ve got me tongue tied
what will it take
to erase you
you haunt my
withering mind

you came back. they said you would

#heartbreak #love #sad #nostalgia #relationships #closure

anita Apr 2023

d.w.t

you
are my weapon of choice
and i have
a death wish
who knew you could **** me
so easily?
every word you speak
feels like a razor to my skin
why don’t i stop
the bleeding?

self punishment/when you realize you’re not as important to someone as you thought you were

#heartbroken #sad #depression #love #lust #life

anita Feb 2023

alone in my thoughts

sometimes my hardest nights are my best ones.
the nights where i am lonely, but not alone
the nights where i stare up at the sky
and see all those stars
and i realize that the world is so infinite
the nights that remind me that we are all just trying our best
and we all feel like strangers in our own bodies sometimes
and that despite how much we try to convince ourselves otherwise,
things
will
be
okay

i can't get out of my head

#alone #infinite #thoughts #bittersweet #recovery #depression #cptsd #anxiety #survivor

anita May 2022

i am rising

my eyes are a bit brighter
the weight of my mind is lighter
i finally feel alive.
i am holding on for my life
it had been such a ****** up time
but for once
i am rising.

i have been clean for 2 years <3 i finally have some hope again

#happy #recovery #depression #anxiety #affirmations #life #love

anita Jul 2020

not a poem, a rant.

i am tired.
tired of life, i guess.
every day seems to drag on, page by page.
i am slowly withering away.
i don't even pretend anymore, because pretending is exhausting
and i don't have the energy.
i think i want to die but really, i just want to live again.
i am worried about myself.
i am worried about where i am going.
i just need help.
i just need someone..

i am tired.
and i wish it would just go away.

#bipolar #depression #help #sad #rant

anita May 2020

slip away

i will wait here
patiently
tell me we're wrong
but i will still hold on
i would wait
forever
just to feel your touch
don't slip away from me yet
my love

i finally found you and i don't want to let go

#love #chase #forever #forbidden

anita Dec 2019

just a thought

i think
if someone told me
"i hope you never find love" or
"i hope you never find happiness"
rather than "i hope you die"
is probably the only thing that could really break
me
because a life without happiness
and love
and fulfillment is
a pitiful life

besides, we're all going to die anyway.

if anyone actually reads this, this actually happened to me. people can be bold lol

#death #suicide #depression #thoughts #sad