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"windex" poems
Windex mice squeak through the windows, biting newspaper as it scrapes across. Soap from a new age fills the kitchen, sheeps' fat long forgotten, the sod-house of Laura Ingalls Wilder left behind with its crumbling Lincoln logs, the ceiling that drops dirt crumbs like a gritty pastry. Our world is shiny, so blinding that even the cough of newsprint makes it brighter. A bottle sneezes across the counter, spurts those bubbles of ammonia, gathers with the rivers and tides that surge with ethanol, it bursts the air with a neon smell and erases everything that has come before.
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Feb 28, 2012
Feb 28, 2012 at 1:01 AM UTC
Cleaning
My heads pounding My necks twisted amuck think I'mma stop giving a **** Light up a blunt and do what I want - woah wait - ain't that the **** that got me here in the first place? Worst case I nervously pace the halls for a day - two or a weekend Blasting the weeknd Entire enviroment reeking shrieking - Nah - I'm better than that. Can't latch onto the past. That's the trash that got us there at the start - instead I prepare it in art And share from the heart, with you. And you. And you and you and you. Because why not? It helps forget about that pinebox looming- Thinking outside the winebox lucid - I mean Windex, clean em out And a win decks, stacks paper chips You can't say this isn't some matrix blips I am not losing **** I am manuevering this beautiful thing up past this ******* Nuva Ring Cause that's life - you can get beat or keep it on a leash - jeez that's sexist. I don't know where this became an accepted comparison, its embarrassing comparing them - to K9's But we hear it through the grapevine Turns of phrase we make fine.
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Sep 30, 2015
Sep 30, 2015 at 12:29 AM UTC
the grapevines (nsfw)
Next two years, college, poetry, poetry, You, me, *** condoms, birthcontrol? Mother, permission, cleaning room, cleaning life, windex, lemon scented windex. Windows, escape, Ani Difranco, 32 flavors, 32 flavors and then some I am 32 flavors and then some. My grades are 1 A, 2 Bs, 3 Cs and 2 Ds? Atleast I vary. Colleges look for variation. I can cross my eyes. Only one other person in my family can cross their eyes. This was my last quarter to make an impression. Impress. Smile. Eye contact. I have to meet your mother. I have to go shopping With your mother. I lied to my mother Mothers dont like lying My parents asked me if something tragic happened to me I used to wish that something tragic would happen to me Nothing tragic has happened to me Unless you call immense boredom with tiny people on a tiny state tragic Which for a matter of fact I do. You ask me whats going on I’m a smart girl Im flattered that you think so But I doubt your surgeon parents will agree How many AP classes am I taking... 0. This is so out of character. Youve never avoided your problems like this before Silly parents You’d avoid your problems too if they were Life ambition, college, *** condoms, birthcontrol? 1 A, 2 Bs, 3 Cs and 2 Ds, cleaning room, cleaning life Cleaning out my character Because I have to impress your mother. Should we get you a therapist? We shouldve gotten you a therapist last year Dealing with stress is hard for anyone You just need help. I do not want your help. Dealing with stress is not hard Put your head in the sand and listen to Ani Difranco 32 Flavors 32 flavors and then some I am 32 flavors and then some
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Apr 13, 2014
Apr 13, 2014 at 5:14 PM UTC
32 Flavors And Then Some
Next two years, college, poetry, poetry, You, me, *** condoms, birthcontrol? Mother, permission, cleaning room, cleaning life, windex, lemon scented windex. Windows, escape, Ani Difranco, 32 flavors, 32 flavors and then some I am 32 flavors and then some. My grades are 1 A, 2 Bs, 3 Cs and 2 Ds? Atleast I vary. Colleges look for variation. I can cross my eyes. Only one other person in my family can cross their eyes. This was my last quarter to make an impression. Impress. Smile. Eye contact. I have to meet your mother. I have to go shopping With your mother. I lied to my mother Mothers dont like lying My parents asked me if something tragic happened to me I used to wish that something tragic would happen to me Nothing tragic has happened to me Unless you call immense boredom with tiny people on a tiny state tragic Which for a matter of fact I do. You ask me whats going on I’m a smart girl Im flattered that you think so But I doubt your surgeon parents will agree How many AP classes am I taking... 0. This is so out of character. Youve never avoided your problems like this before Silly parents You’d avoid your problems too if they were Life ambition, college, *** condoms, birthcontrol? 1 A, 2 Bs, 3 Cs and 2 Ds, cleaning room, cleaning life Cleaning out my character Because I have to impress your mother. Should we get you a therapist? We shouldve gotten you a therapist last year Dealing with stress is hard for anyone You just need help. I do not want your help. Dealing with stress is not hard Put your head in the sand and listen to Ani Difranco 32 Flavors 32 flavors and then some I am 32 flavors and then some
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I hate things that creep, crawl, slither, and sting. But of all these, I hate spiders the most. Why? Because they’re just all … they’re all YUCK! That’s why. Spiders are one of the worst kinds of insects (arachnids but whatever) because they are the only kind that purposely tries to **** with you. See, unlike ants, or caterpillars, or even nasty-old silverfish, spiders don’t care whether or not you know they’re there. These monsters don’t bother to hide from you. Nah, they’re all like, “I know you see me motha’ ***** and I know you ain’t gonna do nothin’ ‘bout it ‘cause you know I’ma just go **** and end up in yo shirt!” One of the most common things that people who aren’t afraid of spiders say is this: “Kevin, you shouldn’t **** spiders.” Me: “Why not?” Them: “Because they eat other bugs.” I think what people don’t realize is that … I don’t care! So what if spiders eat other bugs? I’d rather have the other bugs than have those god-awful things creeping around my house. Whenever someone reminds me that spiders eat other bugs, I honestly wish I had the power to communicate with insects, because as far as I’m concerned we have a common enemy. I would join forces with the flies and ants or whatever to **** every single spider in my house. Then I would betray my new friends and **** them too. Case solved. But, as I think about it, it’s not just spiders that people tell me not to **** because they “eat other bugs.” Now that I think about it, every single thing that “eats other bugs” is also ten times more ******* scary than the things they’re supposed to be killing. Have you guys ever seen a “house spider” sometimes called a “house centipede"? If not, google it right now. That’s the kinda’ thing people tell you not to **** because it eats the other bugs. But just looking at its picture I’m like “holy **** I’ll take a few mosquitoes over that **** any day!” See, what people don’t realize is that I don’t hate spiders just for the sake of hating them. I hate them because when I see one I want to burn my house down and have it rebuilt from scratch. If I fail to **** a spider and the thing runs off, I will not sleep until my target has been apprehended and killed. I will literally sit near the spot it disappeared to with a flashlight and a can of windex until it returns to face its crime of entering my room. O.o yep.
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Jul 2, 2013
Jul 2, 2013 at 9:28 PM UTC
Rant of the Arachnophobic
I hate things that creep, crawl, slither, and sting. But of all these, I hate spiders the most. Why? Because they’re just all … they’re all YUCK! That’s why. Spiders are one of the worst kinds of insects (arachnids but whatever) because they are the only kind that purposely tries to **** with you. See, unlike ants, or caterpillars, or even nasty-old silverfish, spiders don’t care whether or not you know they’re there. These monsters don’t bother to hide from you. Nah, they’re all like, “I know you see me motha’ ***** and I know you ain’t gonna do nothin’ ‘bout it ‘cause you know I’ma just go **** and end up in yo shirt!” One of the most common things that people who aren’t afraid of spiders say is this: “Kevin, you shouldn’t **** spiders.” Me: “Why not?” Them: “Because they eat other bugs.” I think what people don’t realize is that … I don’t care! So what if spiders eat other bugs? I’d rather have the other bugs than have those god-awful things creeping around my house. Whenever someone reminds me that spiders eat other bugs, I honestly wish I had the power to communicate with insects, because as far as I’m concerned we have a common enemy. I would join forces with the flies and ants or whatever to **** every single spider in my house. Then I would betray my new friends and **** them too. Case solved. But, as I think about it, it’s not just spiders that people tell me not to **** because they “eat other bugs.” Now that I think about it, every single thing that “eats other bugs” is also ten times more ******* scary than the things they’re supposed to be killing. Have you guys ever seen a “house spider” sometimes called a “house centipede"? If not, google it right now. That’s the kinda’ thing people tell you not to **** because it eats the other bugs. But just looking at its picture I’m like “holy **** I’ll take a few mosquitoes over that **** any day!” See, what people don’t realize is that I don’t hate spiders just for the sake of hating them. I hate them because when I see one I want to burn my house down and have it rebuilt from scratch. If I fail to **** a spider and the thing runs off, I will not sleep until my target has been apprehended and killed. I will literally sit near the spot it disappeared to with a flashlight and a can of windex until it returns to face its crime of entering my room. O.o yep.
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How Brave you must be~the squaw exclaimed to the Chief.   " Why, I am more than a Brave", the Chieftain quipped.!   " Just look at my feathers and the scalps hanging by my side,    do they not tell of My many Deeds ?    Her reply was a simple ,,  "YES,  I can see how you have adorned yourself ! "   He retorted ~ " And you certainly can't miss all the colors by which I have claimed  MY-STATUS ! "     The Squaw responded~ "YES,  the HUES on you,  certainly   tell me who and what you are,  now that I look closely  ! "    And he added~ "Look at the careful way in which I have displayed my Collection of  SCALPS,  Spaced ever so carefully around my waistband !    She questioned further,  "Have you  ,Oh Mighty Chief,  Properly named each of the Scalps ,  SO YOU won't forget from whence they came ? ?     "OH,  My Goodness, YES,  he answered.   "I wouldn't  ever want to forget where they came from,  SO~I admire each and Call each of them, By Name~ Everyday.   "SURELY" She continued,  "YOU are  much more than any other  Chief,  and by the way , DO you use Windex or Glass-Plus  to clean your mirrors ? ?  "    HE exclaimed,  "I, really don't know what cleaning  agent my servant uses,  to clean my many mirrors !  BUT,  they certainly do shine,  when I look into them !      The SQUAW  queried~  " BUT  what about your shoes, moccasins , if you would,  WHAT~~ is that Green-Gooey Stuff all over them ? ?   HE-Commented~ " I guess that when I  take my mighty steps, toes and feet,  IN THE WAY,   Fall under the Prances that I make ! ! ? "    Then,She asked~ "Do you do your War'Dances often, or just as you are called on, by your mighty warriors ? "   AND,,this Brave-Chieftain  PROCLAIMED~  "WHY,  I"ll have you Know,   I do all of these Prances and Dances ~BY MY OWN CHOICE,  NO-ONE  tells me when or what to do.  Except my visits with the Prince of the Air !"   The Squaw thanked him~turned~then turned back~Asking " Measured by~ Scalps~Prances and Dances ? ?
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Oct 24, 2012
Oct 24, 2012 at 8:11 AM UTC
* "THE SQUAWS QUESTION " * ( #69 )
How Brave you must be~the squaw exclaimed to the Chief.   " Why, I am more than a Brave", the Chieftain quipped.!   " Just look at my feathers and the scalps hanging by my side,    do they not tell of My many Deeds ?    Her reply was a simple ,,  "YES,  I can see how you have adorned yourself ! "   He retorted ~ " And you certainly can't miss all the colors by which I have claimed  MY-STATUS ! "     The Squaw responded~ "YES,  the HUES on you,  certainly   tell me who and what you are,  now that I look closely  ! "    And he added~ "Look at the careful way in which I have displayed my Collection of  SCALPS,  Spaced ever so carefully around my waistband !    She questioned further,  "Have you  ,Oh Mighty Chief,  Properly named each of the Scalps ,  SO YOU won't forget from whence they came ? ?     "OH,  My Goodness, YES,  he answered.   "I wouldn't  ever want to forget where they came from,  SO~I admire each and Call each of them, By Name~ Everyday.   "SURELY" She continued,  "YOU are  much more than any other  Chief,  and by the way , DO you use Windex or Glass-Plus  to clean your mirrors ? ?  "    HE exclaimed,  "I, really don't know what cleaning  agent my servant uses,  to clean my many mirrors !  BUT,  they certainly do shine,  when I look into them !      The SQUAW  queried~  " BUT  what about your shoes, moccasins , if you would,  WHAT~~ is that Green-Gooey Stuff all over them ? ?   HE-Commented~ " I guess that when I  take my mighty steps, toes and feet,  IN THE WAY,   Fall under the Prances that I make ! ! ? "    Then,She asked~ "Do you do your War'Dances often, or just as you are called on, by your mighty warriors ? "   AND,,this Brave-Chieftain  PROCLAIMED~  "WHY,  I"ll have you Know,   I do all of these Prances and Dances ~BY MY OWN CHOICE,  NO-ONE  tells me when or what to do.  Except my visits with the Prince of the Air !"   The Squaw thanked him~turned~then turned back~Asking " Measured by~ Scalps~Prances and Dances ? ?
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Little glass axolotl perfect shades of pink and orange. Found him at the thrift store brought him home & shone him up with some   windex and a cotton cloth. Now he sits on the shelf   and sometimes I pick him   up to marvel at the smoothness   of his back, and the perfectly formed gills   at the sides of his head. My little glass axolotl   is one of the things that pulls me through papers   with his tiny smile and   teensy toes. This is love caught in silica and pigment. Yes this is what love is.
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Apr 15, 2021
Apr 15, 2021 at 1:28 PM UTC
Best Boy
We live in Glass Boxes. Made up of love, joy, and happiness, anger, pain, and hate. We knock on windex'd walls, shouting for someone to break our boundaries. No one's box is made the same. Everyone's glass cracks different ways. The sun sends patterns across our skin, staining us with experiences that build who we will become. I press my nose to the glass, fogging my walls with the haze of heavy breathing. My eyes squint for you, searching desperately for your Glass home...but no matter how hard I try, you're always just out of sight. I hear on the wind that your glass is changing. Chipping away to the pressures of ****** It's all I can do not to claw my walls. I know these bleeding nails would be my only triumph. So I sit in my Glass Box, bitter at the rays of color that turn my home into a rainbow prism. The paradox of it all enough to make my head pound. Is it even fair to be happy? When you're off, all alone, drowning in you're own pain?
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Jun 6, 2012
Jun 6, 2012 at 12:41 AM UTC
Glass Boxes
*(i'm 42% sure i don't exist.)* intensely greased plastic hair secondhand green day coldplay in the rain i love the sound that waxed paper deli sheets make and i could choke on a glassed reflection of celery salts and windex. *(i'm 42% sure i don't exist because when i look into my eyes i see someone else)* i'm not catholic and do not understand who st. peter is but i wonder if he won't let us into heaven because we're failures or if we're failures because he won't let us into heaven *(i'm 42% sure i don't exist and questioning how bad hell can really be.)* too quiet for a saturday i wrote the word decaf so many times i forgot how to spell it decaf decaf decaf decaf *(does decaf have two f's? because i don't have two f's to give anymore i mean i would but i can't even find vowels much less extra consonants)* when i was a child i always counted in mississippis now that i'm older i find myself counting in cappuccinos i dreamed my legs were bleeding and i remembered that they're not i want so badly just to sleep in a bag of crystallized ginger and swim in a mixing bowl of tasteless tea. *(i can't tell what's real anymore but i'm 42% sure that i am not.)*
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Aug 24, 2016
Aug 24, 2016 at 5:44 PM UTC
42%
it was the summer of 13 when a city consumed in a Cronut crazed heat wave amped the tenderloin slicing the underbelly of Hell's Kitchen packing meat for Russian oligarchs pouring fistfuls of petrol rubles down the thirsty gullets of glutinous developers their distended bellies welling with aching avarice from an extended stay at an All You Can Eat zero interest smorgasbord courtesy of Uncle Sam’s Diner somewhere off the West End getting fat on the land reclaimed and rebuilt on the dust and detritus of an expired Great Society Bloomie's metropolis rising on the rubble of razed neighborhoods.... the vertical leaps shooting ever upward the heady windows framing portraits of endless replication offering the amenities of the vain comfort found in ghettos of soulless high rises and the billowing gray perspective of blanched out street cafes brewing $9 lattes and big box boutiques busy busking the latest rage of sweat repelling yoga mats and wearable apps America’s Mayor Giuliani paved the way he arrested all the squeegee men confiscated their Windex dumped it down the sewers and filled all vacancies at Rikers a year after Sandy rolled up the Hudson breaching the banks of West Street licking the streets clean of urban flotsam the surging boom bloomed Bloomie bankrolled a red carpet for his global fraternity of plutocrats unleashing a tsunami of shekels washing away the fading memories of Captain Sully’s cool headed lunch pail heroism proving that 727’s can walk on water was now passe Lou Reed left town the wild side monetized by the belching banality of Urban Hipsters millennial babes in toy land embarked on an endless shopping spree where credit limits never expire and giddy narcissism greased with entitlement orders up room service as the next course in this endless movable feast Music Selection Philip Glass The Hours 9/8/13 NYC jbm
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Feb 9, 2015
Feb 9, 2015 at 2:50 PM UTC
Walking the High Line (WIP/Fragment)
it was the summer of 13 when a city consumed in a Cronut crazed heat wave amped the tenderloin slicing the underbelly of Hell's Kitchen packing meat for Russian oligarchs pouring fistfuls of petrol rubles down the thirsty gullets of glutinous developers their distended bellies welling with aching avarice from an extended stay at an All You Can Eat zero interest smorgasbord courtesy of Uncle Sam’s Diner somewhere off the West End getting fat on the land reclaimed and rebuilt on the dust and detritus of an expired Great Society Bloomie's metropolis rising on the rubble of razed neighborhoods.... the vertical leaps shooting ever upward the heady windows framing portraits of endless replication offering the amenities of the vain comfort found in ghettos of soulless high rises and the billowing gray perspective of blanched out street cafes brewing $9 lattes and big box boutiques busy busking the latest rage of sweat repelling yoga mats and wearable apps America’s Mayor Giuliani paved the way he arrested all the squeegee men confiscated their Windex dumped it down the sewers and filled all vacancies at Rikers a year after Sandy rolled up the Hudson breaching the banks of West Street licking the streets clean of urban flotsam the surging boom bloomed Bloomie bankrolled a red carpet for his global fraternity of plutocrats unleashing a tsunami of shekels washing away the fading memories of Captain Sully’s cool headed lunch pail heroism proving that 727’s can walk on water was now passe Lou Reed left town the wild side monetized by the belching banality of Urban Hipsters millennial babes in toy land embarked on an endless shopping spree where credit limits never expire and giddy narcissism greased with entitlement orders up room service as the next course in this endless movable feast Music Selection Philip Glass The Hours 9/8/13 NYC jbm
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words tear me a new soul. i thought i discarded mine to the wind when sorrow alighted barely balancing on the barbed wire fence, wings dank and damp, mangy feather dropping into thick dusty underfoot dusting me off, windex the glass around my innerworkings so you can watch them spin dizzy from your helium touch
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Jul 13, 2014
Jul 13, 2014 at 5:50 PM UTC
unfinished thought
Saturday mornings growing up my mother made me clean the bathroom . windex . bleach . scrub brush . rags . mop . bucket . broom . dustpan . lots of paper towels she insisted I clean the bathroom every Saturday morning before I did anything else with absolutely no chance of an allowance she paid me plenty she said . shelter . food . clothing . television . internet . video games . books . some sort of education not to mention . life “do it because you love me” so waking up Saturday meant cleaning the bathroom it meant my hands reeked of chemicals while my friends enjoyed games I couldn't join it meant I missed the best of all the cartoons everyone else watched it meant I didn’t feel like loving my mother for years I begrudgingly . scrubbed . wiped . cleaned that bathroom until it sparkled - until it shined like the top of the Chrysler building . sink . mirror . toilet . tub . floor all of it spotless love you mom then in college there's this woman that I'm living with this woman that provides me with . shelter . food . clothing . television . internet . etc. and she makes me feel alive so I clean her bathroom and when she asks me, “why?” all I can think to say is “I did it because I love you” and it feels like that's the truth
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Jul 19, 2019
Jul 19, 2019 at 2:57 PM UTC
Cleaning as a Love Language
I believe her to be insane because she's listing her requirements and I've managed to meet most of them, but I'm still her Windex-ed glass window I believe her to be insane because she claimed she was jocking me though she'd only met my voice and lived near my Cali family I believe her to be insane because she liked me when she annoyed me and was quick to end the years after I said she was skinny I believe her to be insane because she could be straight up with everyone, but whenever it came around to us her mouth remained completely shut I believe her to be insane because I was more natural than her ex Then suddenly she became work-obsessed, but found time to marry the ex I believe her to be insane because she ******* up her life to get my attention She was always beautiful, but deader inside Another stereotypical trailer park girl I believe her to be insane because she searched the mall parking lot to leave a bocay of daises on the windshield of my car I believe her to be insane because she sang "Before You Walk Out of My Life" more beautifully than Monica herself exclusively to me late at night I believe her to be insane because she walked miles to see me at work with bruised, sore, raw feet to be somewhere safe away from him I believe her to be insane because she let me go in a heartbeat, then she pleaded for my forgiveness, then she let me go in another heartbeat I believe her to be insane because our poetry complimented perfectly, but I wasn't the one she pictured because of not being the desired ethnicity I believe her to be insane because she cherished me so much, poetically revealed me to be the catch, but she's the one that lost touch
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Apr 30, 2014
Apr 30, 2014 at 5:20 PM UTC
"B****es Be Crazy"
I believe her to be insane because she's listing her requirements and I've managed to meet most of them, but I'm still her Windex-ed glass window I believe her to be insane because she claimed she was jocking me though she'd only met my voice and lived near my Cali family I believe her to be insane because she liked me when she annoyed me and was quick to end the years after I said she was skinny I believe her to be insane because she could be straight up with everyone, but whenever it came around to us her mouth remained completely shut I believe her to be insane because I was more natural than her ex Then suddenly she became work-obsessed, but found time to marry the ex I believe her to be insane because she ******* up her life to get my attention She was always beautiful, but deader inside Another stereotypical trailer park girl I believe her to be insane because she searched the mall parking lot to leave a bocay of daises on the windshield of my car I believe her to be insane because she sang "Before You Walk Out of My Life" more beautifully than Monica herself exclusively to me late at night I believe her to be insane because she walked miles to see me at work with bruised, sore, raw feet to be somewhere safe away from him I believe her to be insane because she let me go in a heartbeat, then she pleaded for my forgiveness, then she let me go in another heartbeat I believe her to be insane because our poetry complimented perfectly, but I wasn't the one she pictured because of not being the desired ethnicity I believe her to be insane because she cherished me so much, poetically revealed me to be the catch, but she's the one that lost touch
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Inspired by “The Swing” by Laurie Lipton Alone allows. I have permission to find out the plight of my Windex bottle, cramped into a cabinet, cross-legged and scrunched into a smaller package than I was ever intended to be. And I can peek out if I want, spit my tongue at the cat or let slivers of light slice my face.  I can dangle my feet, pricking with gravitational pull: forward and backward, high upon a rafter in my bedroom—at least where I used to keep my bed, now pushed out into the hall to make room for my ropes and pillows and flight. A doorbell brings shoes with laces that tangle and slap me around my ankles; knitting needles that would surely find an eye socket, and a tea set with a cracked spout and cold leaves stuck to the bottom of cups and saucers, round as my words or the doilies and handkerchief corners—worn to shreds by the wringing of arthritis and go away. Please, go away. Alone allows.
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Sep 8, 2010
Sep 8, 2010 at 2:11 AM UTC
It's Only Crazy If You're Caught
Light breaks through the littered cinerescent clouds as I watch from a Windex streaked window Tangerine incandescence fighting it's way through as dusk approaches Warm rays caress my face through shadows of the evergreens that line the street As if a reflection of a giant brass *** was being cast into my living room Fragments of dust filter through the clementine colored air sitting cross legged on an old Persian rug covered in dog fur A weather beaten Japanese maple scratches its fingers on the window The stellar jays bask in this rare gift, hopping from branch to branch The inevitable gloom and grey catching up Ashen warfare surging on a daisy farm A sense of malevolence runs through the clouds A split screen between the high spirits and the melancholy The Castor and Pollux of the skies Like a giant wondrous creamsicle threatened of being swallowed up by the smoke This contention sends them blissfully unaware of the eclipsing nightfall that is upon them Twilight enraptures the heavens, ending in nebulous sovereignty
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Feb 24, 2013
Feb 24, 2013 at 9:57 PM UTC
Grey and Orange
I miss your absence like curdled milk misses it's white. I miss the sourness of your hair running through my fingers. I miss your absence like an anorexic misses their bones. They go searching for them, ripping up flesh and drinking water in place of anything, filling the hole in their mind that can't be filled with cake. The sweetest of chocolate cake, frosting topped grave marker. It can't be filled. Cannot be filled. I miss your absence like winter misses her green. She covers it up, buries it beneath such a heaviness. It sits upon her chest like white elephants. You hold yourself like a hairpin turn. You are sore, aching from sleeping on your stomach too long. You are swaddling your hunger in loneliness. You are the weight of every divorce paper filed in Massachusetts. You are Greece's longing for her peace. You are finding yours in the light, dark suffocates your water balloon lungs. Your wiry, 6 foot frame is suffocated by 120 pounds. You are suffocated by me. I am filling my lungs with water, holding my head under what is blue and the waves crash over my spine like clockwork. I count to 3, I pass out and see your face in front of me, pale and gasping. I am hungover on Windex. I make bleach cocktails like mother makes her with anything she can find before she kisses her knuckles. I don't wait for winter to come, I dig into the earth and find her, beg her to cover me in what will not melt. I beg for a grave as infinite as the fear that shakes me. I wish I could be alone, dear nature, why does responsibility choke me? Why does terror and trauma push its teeth into me like a wolf into sheep? Why can't I sleep without awaking? Why?
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Apr 18, 2016
Apr 18, 2016 at 5:23 PM UTC
Ghosting
I miss your absence like curdled milk misses it's white. I miss the sourness of your hair running through my fingers. I miss your absence like an anorexic misses their bones. They go searching for them, ripping up flesh and drinking water in place of anything, filling the hole in their mind that can't be filled with cake. The sweetest of chocolate cake, frosting topped grave marker. It can't be filled. Cannot be filled. I miss your absence like winter misses her green. She covers it up, buries it beneath such a heaviness. It sits upon her chest like white elephants. You hold yourself like a hairpin turn. You are sore, aching from sleeping on your stomach too long. You are swaddling your hunger in loneliness. You are the weight of every divorce paper filed in Massachusetts. You are Greece's longing for her peace. You are finding yours in the light, dark suffocates your water balloon lungs. Your wiry, 6 foot frame is suffocated by 120 pounds. You are suffocated by me. I am filling my lungs with water, holding my head under what is blue and the waves crash over my spine like clockwork. I count to 3, I pass out and see your face in front of me, pale and gasping. I am hungover on Windex. I make bleach cocktails like mother makes her with anything she can find before she kisses her knuckles. I don't wait for winter to come, I dig into the earth and find her, beg her to cover me in what will not melt. I beg for a grave as infinite as the fear that shakes me. I wish I could be alone, dear nature, why does responsibility choke me? Why does terror and trauma push its teeth into me like a wolf into sheep? Why can't I sleep without awaking? Why?
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I've wiped the coffee table Down with windex At least three times. But here I sit. Watching them wander Trying to remember To breathe. And waiting for details Of my brother's suicide.
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May 15, 2017
May 15, 2017 at 7:25 PM UTC
Watching ants
The day before the trip is one where I'm up early - like today. I've got to go get my oil changed and have the fluids checked. Next up is to gas up and fill the tires up to ***** Take a break to relax and smell the coffee - medium roast - and a bagel with cream cheese. Back at it withe the planning and the finding:      A hotel to stay in      The chains for the tires      The clothes needed...      The clothes I will sleep in. It's all there and packed up, stacked up by the door. Time to load up the car. Tomorrow we're headed for the snow. Empty the car first of all my junk and trash. I can't believe how much has piled up and been left. Maybe let's take out the floor mats and lets definitely use the shop-vac. Spray in some Febreeze... a couple extra squeezes... And then squeeze the Windex and wipe all the glass and surfaces clean. Finally time now to lean the back seat down. Toss in one bag and then the next. Stack it, stack it, stack. One more, two more, there's the last. Close up the door, lock it, it's time for one more rest. Tomorrow we're headed for the snow.
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Dec 21, 2012
Dec 21, 2012 at 1:48 AM UTC
Preparation For A Winter Vacation
I'm spending my night listening to Breathe Carolina Wondering if you're okay You stopped talking to me and I don't know why I'm trying to get high And I'm thinking about how you should give up drugs I'm slitting my hips And I'm thinking about how they forced you into therapy You wanted attention But didn't I am the same Except when the world started to hurt you You became a different kind of numb I became a violent numb And so did you But our experiments went wrong Went askew You turned to Mary and Nicotine I turned to Windex and Poetry You picked up a razor for show I hide scars under my clothes You turned to *** and late nights with drunk men I became a victim who couldn't say no We are different kinds of numb That float on each other Except you drifted away again With everyone else So I'm spending tonight listening to Breathe Carolina Breathing in chemicals Wondering if you're okay While I'm not Drowning myself here alone
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Nov 18, 2014
Nov 18, 2014 at 8:39 PM UTC
Drowning Myself Here Alone
oh how you lie you smile behind that windex cleaned glass secured by an overpriced frame placed high up for others to blankly stare into your lie and laugh at the story that is so broken oh how you lie you image of happiness
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Jul 18, 2012
Jul 18, 2012 at 5:33 PM UTC
deceitful picture
The miserable city. Bankrupt *** holes and bbq. Langston hughes rock drum solo everyday people wear baggy pants and cross the street no crosswalk necessarily style. A leaf wishing wind would push it to the cleaner side of town right across the way. Companies paid make flower basket hanging contraptions and tend to the grass till the grass cant be tended to no more. Glass city style, glass walls in the loft shiny windex clean to secure the sweetest view of wendys or a steel solid warehouse. Calculated anthony wayne trail street lights and twenty four hour surveillance, vaudville light fixtures and bus stops empty of any white people.
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Feb 24, 2015
Feb 24, 2015 at 8:57 PM UTC
Toledo, OH
I know how many stories is tall enough I know how much Windex I have to drink I know long I have to be alone in order to hang myself I know where to cut I know how many pills I have to swallow So you ask how come I keep trying and keep failing Listen you have no idea how ****** windex tastes Listen I can't get to the roof of the buildings Listen All the pills are in a safe I do everything wrong I can't even die correctly But I don’t want to **** myself anyway   My uncle shot himself And I watched my grandmother lose a son I watched my dad lose his best friend I have seen what it does to people and I have felt that feeling I don’t want to **** myself I just want to be in a coma
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Mar 28, 2019
Mar 28, 2019 at 3:05 PM UTC
windex
He puts his trophies in Parks and the neighbors yard Like the world is his And feeds pebbles to pigeons He does not know his transgressions He dresses in orange with polka dot pants and snake boots And is Happy Free from thin panes of ego and never having to worry about Windex At night It is day They are same to him, just like radio and t.v. He gets tired one way or the other Time is a concept we see His vision is x-ray And not only does he see through you but everything He is blind But we are the one's Missing things
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Apr 28, 2015
Apr 28, 2015 at 2:19 PM UTC
He is Human