Something so hard
goes straight to the soul;
it seems impossible to get over
and my heart is left with a big hole.

I’m trying to be happy, wearing a smile;
but I’m dying inside.
The world seems to be fading,
and I just want to run and hide.

Everywhere I go I see your face,
and realize how much I miss you;
and on the day you died
a piece of me died too.

Woh dil nawaz ha lekin nazar shanas nahi,
Mera ilaaj meray charahgar kay paas nahi,

Tarap rahay hain zabaan per kai sawal magar,
Meray liay koi shayaan-e-iltamaas nahi,

tere ujalon main bhi dil kanp kanp uthta hai
mere mizaj ko aasudagi bhi ras nahi

kabhi kabhi jo tere qurb main guzre the
ab un dinon ka tasawwur bhi mere pas nahi

guzar rahe hain ajab marhalon se dida-o-dil
sahar ki as to hai zindagi ki aas nahi

mujhay ye dar hai k teri arzu na mit jaye
bahut dinon se tabiyat meri udaas nahi,

apno se jada gairon ki yaad aati hai,
jab jindagi kisi gair ki mohtaaj ** jaati hai,
dil ka haal samajhne vala koi nahi hota,
aur jindagi hai k bas ek chidiya ki tarah ud jati hai,
dll me yaad basi rah jaati hai,
mashaal jalti hui achanak bujh jati hai,
aankhon k saamne base andhera hi andhera dikhta hai,
har roshni bhi feeki pad jati hai,
jab jindagi kisi gair ki mohtaaj ** jati hai....
wajah bewajah hi dard uthta rhta hai,
aankhon ka mom har waqt pighalta rahta hai,
aansoo b rasta aona badal lete hai,
dil me tadap k shiva aur kuj nahi bachta hai,
har khwahish dafan ** jati hai,
chahat bas khud ko khatam karne ki rah jati hai,
jab jindagi kisi gair ki mohtaaj ** jati hai.....
shahar logon se bhara hokar bhi veeran lagta hai,
din nikalte hi dhalne lag jata hai,
bewajah koi insaan shaitan lagne lagta hai,
khud ki ek saan bhi bejaan lagne lagti hai,
bejaan aawaj,
rookhe shabd,
pathrayi aankhen,
aur aansuon ki sookhi dhara shrajal ** uthti hai,
jab jindagi kisi gair ki mohtaaj ** jati hai.....
yun to har waqt khyal dil me rhta hai k vo mera hai,
tabhi koi khta hai k vo nahi bas bhram tera hai,
aur kitna pyar me barbaad ** jaun,
khatam ** jaun ya tujhme hi mar jaun,
aasan nahi koi jirah rah jati hai,
har gali kooche se bas unk nikalne ki aas rahti hai,
vo mere nahi har taraf bas ek hi aawaj goonjti hai,
din khatam raat shuru,
roshni gayi andhera shuru,
sath khatam tanhayi shuru,
bas yahi tadpan har ghadi rah jati hai,
vo meri nahi kisi aur ki ** jati hai,
jindagi kisi gair ki mohtaaj ** jati hai....

Tum bhi na bhoologe,
Kabhi mai bhi na bhooloonga,
Kabhi tum yaad aaoge,
Kabhi mai tumko yaad aaunga,
Jindagi yun hi gujar jayegi,
Shayad intjaar ji karta rah jaunga,
Pyar mai umse karta hu,
Tum bhi to mujhpe marti **,
Kabhi tum lautkar aana,
Tumhe har pal mai chahunga,
Kabhi khamosh hota hu,
Kabhi tum chup rahti **,
Bina tere mera ye dil har pal rota hai,
Ab intjaar nahi hota,
Kabhi to paas aa jao,
Pyar kar lo tum mujhse,
Mai bhi khud ko bhula doonga,
Tumhe har pal mai chahunga,
Tumhe har pal mai chahunga,
Bina tere kabhi khud ko khush na rakh paunga,
Jab teri yaad aati hai,
Aanso bahne lagte hai,
Aankhen dukhne lagti hai,
Saanse rukne lagti hai,
Dil me toofan uthta hai,
Khud ko mai khine lagta hu,
Kabhi to paas aa jao,
Mera kya haal hai dekho,
Tumhare bina shayad ab aur na rah paunga,
Tumhe mai pyar karta hu,
Tumhe mai har pal chahunga....
I love u

K tere aagosh me aakar maine jindagani naam tere kar di,
Dil ki wafa aur apni khudayi tere naam kar di,
Na pata tha massom is dil ko mere k door chala jayega,
Mai karta rahunga untjaar tu kisi aur ka ** jayega,
Mai rounga aansoo bahaunga ,
Par chah kar bhi tera kabhi na ** paunga,
Ab kya kru ?
Ab bas yahi takdeer hai,
K aaj fir se khud ko bhoolkar apni kahani tere naam kar di....
bhool jao koi kahta hai jab mujhko apna samajhkar,
dil aur tej dhadakta hai,
ehsaas hota hai k ab to saanson ki raftaar bhi naam tere kar di,
yaad aati hai to dil kah uthta hai,
hak nahi tumhe khud par,
ab to yaad bhi unki hi hai,
yaadon ki rawani tere naam kar di..
K tere aagosh me aakar jindgani naam tere kar di.....

Uth te hi subh ye ankhe tumhe dhunda karti
Najane Jante hue sabh anjaan bna karti
Dil kehta hui hogi judayi shyd sapne me
Dimaag bol uthta dhoka bhi diya usii apne me
Naa chahte hue bhi teri chah aa karti
Subh subh dil me bhula dard firr le aati,
Kosti hu khudko har subh ikk koshish to ki hoti
Par pyar to usne bhi kiya tha..
Dard me shayad vo aankhe bhi namm hue hogi rotii...


DK..(My diary - Dil se)