"unendingly" poems
The tractor stands frozen - an agony
To think of. All night
Snow packed its open entrails. Now a head-pincering gale,
A spill of molten ice, smoking snow,
Pours into its steel.
At white heat of numbness it stands
In the aimed hosing of ground-level fieriness.
It defied flesh and won't start.
Hands are like wounds already
Inside armour gloves, and feet are unbelievable
As if the toe-nails were all just torn off.
I stare at it in hatred. Beyond it
The copse hisses - capitulates miserably
In the fleeing, failing light. Starlings,
A dirtier sleetier snow, blow smokily, unendingly, over
Towards plantations Eastward.
All the time the tractor is sinking
Through the degrees, deepening
Into its hell of ice.
The starting lever
Cracks its action, like a snapping knuckle.
The battery is alive - but like a lamb
Trying to nudge its solid-frozen mother -
While the seat claims my buttock-bones, bites
With the space-cold of earth, which it has joined
In one solid lump.
I squirt commercial sure-fire
Down the black throat - it just coughs.
It ridicules me - a trap of iron stupidity
I've stepped into. I drive the battery
As if I were hammering and hammering
The frozen arrangement to pieces with a hammer
And it jabbers laughing pain-crying mockingly
Into happy life.
And stands
Shuddering itself full of heat, seeming to enlarge slowly
Like a demon demonstrating
A more-than-usually-complete materialization -
Suddenly it jerks from its solidarity
With the concrete, and lurches towards a stanchion
Bursting with superhuman well-being and abandon
Shouting Where Where?
Worse iron is waiting. Power-lift kneels
Levers awake imprisoned deadweight,
Shackle-pins bedded in cast-iron cow-shit.
The blind and vibrating condemned obedience
Of iron to the cruelty of iron,
Wheels screeched out of their night-locks -
Fingers
Among the tormented
Tonnage and burning of iron
Eyes
Weeping in the wind of chloroform
And the tractor, streaming with sweat,
Raging and trembling and rejoicing.
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Future.
One word,
That sends thousands to their knees.
The ultimate fear,
Whether acknowledged or denied.
The ultimate seduction,
Overlooked and overstated.
It looms unendingly,
A second shadow to mock your efforts.
A silent lure,
Tempting and drunk on its own velocity.
Constant yet uncertain...
Striking fear and lust,
Like a taboo so sweet,
Into the hearts of the fearful and the ambitious.
I walk happily into the darkness,
And embrace the dark temptation.
Self-destruction in a heady promise
Of a tremulous future.
Nov 21, 2013
Nov 21, 2013 at 1:40 PM UTC
"Nadia"
"Hope," it means.
"Beautiful," they say.
"Kind," she is.
"Caring," they are.
"Nadia."
She is the ever-hopeful,
The triply beautiful,
The very kindhearted,
The infinitely caring.
"Nadia"'s.
They are the unendingly positive,
The unfairly lovely,
The unduly affable,
The unfailingly kind.
"Nadia," oh, how she shines
So brightly, so comfortingly.
"Nadia," oh, how she loves
Without judgement or favor.
But I am not "Nadia."
I am Nadia.
Feb 23, 2015
Feb 23, 2015 at 9:59 PM UTC
a cradle of completion;
my rubik's cube slowly becomes
faded of colors, frayed of stickers,
as a twisting time renders it
subtle and scrambled, but
unendingly unsolvable
—my meaning left
muddled on the palms of life
muddled on the palms of life
—my meaning left
unendingly unsolvable,
subtle and scrambled, but
as a twisting time renders it
faded of colors, frayed of stickers,
my rubik's cube slowly becomes
a cradle of completion;
Aug 3, 2020
Aug 3, 2020 at 11:47 AM UTC
I still recall the midnight shadows
Dancing around the candle flame
I still hear the echo"s clear
Breathing out Your name
And in my Heart I find to see
No one before came easily
To leave me be ,the same
I still recall those moonlit nights
The burning candle"s dying light
And in your eyes Your Soul ignite
The past has stained my mind
Remember the wAy
We used to be
The promise we made
To forever be free
Time cannot take
What you mean to me
In my Heart,there you will be
Sometimes Love will set you free
Remember the tears You didn't see
Remember the days unendingly
When all you hold within your heart
Promise of Love Eternally
The stars iN the sky majesticly
Still shine on this world
For you and me
AnD in all I've believed-I find I
Still can see
Remember the wAy
We used to be
The promise we made
To forever be free
Time cannot take
What you mean to me
In my Heart,there you will be
Sometimes Love will set you free
Baby always
You and Me
Sometimes Love will set you free...
Nov 30, 2013
Nov 30, 2013 at 12:23 AM UTC
our existence
is placed in such an awkward position.
you never look at yourself,
until other people truly see you.
your mothers gleaming eyes sink your heart,
as you stand with your head held to the kitchen counter.
you suddenly feel like a stranger, in your own home
in such an awkward position.
standing in front of bathroom doors that have lit bombs, wounded many.
you stand suddenly as a criminal
in the middle of an awkward position.
having to correct someone when they use the wrong pronouns and you're heart races and the only thing your existence feels
is awkward.
life in the middle of a political battlefield
is drafting dysphoria between sides of yourself.
but,
someday you will find yourself in the lines of someone else's hands.
beauty is reflected in her eyes when she looks at you.
as we lay curled together,
neck bent, and limbs unendingly tangled,
I have never been happier
in such
awkward positions.
May 1, 2016
May 1, 2016 at 11:25 PM UTC
You are
incipient
brilliance,
I eagerly covet,
unendingly
ebullient,
seems to be
in boiling point,
evidently
prurient,
an unfailing
euphoriant,
for me
a constant
element of
wonder
day and night,
But yes
I must not
forget this;
you aren't
an organic
compound
sans side effects.
More of a
a kick ***
designer drug,
that adds an
extra sense
yet, without
a legitimate
name to call it.
Aren't you
a hallucinant, though
yet to be invented,
I am hopelessly
addicted to.
Mar 19, 2016
Mar 19, 2016 at 1:23 PM UTC
You owe me nothing but to breathe.
To remember how I tore my heart in
Two rendering a
Blood Eagle to stretch its wings and
Tickle our souls with its sticky feathers.
When I think of us, I see us as we were.
Other people than now.
Memories framing themselves like a
Fantastic painting the artist
Stepped back to admire, then died.
*Hang me. Hang me before i hang
Myself.*
Dramatically opposed to drama.
Uninterested infatuation.
Broke billionaire.
Mortal gods shaking divine hands
With decomposing composers,
Thanking them for the silence.
We were lovers and enemies, and
I'd still give my life and afterlife to
See you worship another as if I
Never left a fingerprint on this
Planet; resting as safely in arms that
Love you unendingly,
As we all lie sleeping; dreaming
In our own, stronger arms,
Forgetting that even our loving
Is imaginary.
Death is awakening.
Rubbing the
Eyes of our souls and yawning,
We look up and smile at that which
All of this is a bleak and fleeting
Shadow of.
Plato knew.
When I wish to die, I do too.
This love is not Love.
It's all mud and air.
You owe me nothing but to breathe.
Oct 20, 2016
Oct 20, 2016 at 1:25 PM UTC
We studied sine waves at school,
reassuringly regular,
continuously cyclic,
unendingly, bendingly cool.
Consistent in order and logic.
Then I turned to poetry.
People poems moved my mind,
many rudely peculiar,
some consistently inclined,
unbending or heart rending,
often playing the fool.
Jul 20, 2015
Jul 20, 2015 at 6:12 AM UTC
I am that which is becoming
The realization of my dream
Which I’ve been asleep to for these past ten years
And ten years from now I’ll wake again
And in a new direction turn suddenly
Unendingly
And into the sun
Dec 23, 2022
Dec 23, 2022 at 1:43 PM UTC
I
Oh chimes set high on the sunny tower
Ring on, ring on unendingly,
Make all the hours a single hour,
For when the dusk begins to flower,
The man I love will come to me! . . .
But no, go slowly as you will,
I should not bid you hasten so,
For while I wait for love to come,
Some other girl is standing dumb,
Fearing her love will go.
II
Oh white steam over the roofs, blow high!
Oh chimes in the tower ring clear and free !
Oh sun awake in the covered sky,
For the man I love, loves me I . . .
Oh drifting steam disperse and die,
Oh tower stand shrouded toward the south,—
Fate heard afar my happy cry,
And laid her finger on my mouth.
III
The dusk was blue with blowing mist,
The lights were spangles in a veil,
And from the clamor far below
Floated faint music like a wail.
It voiced what I shall never speak,
My heart was breaking all night long,
But when the dawn was hard and gray,
My tears distilled into a song.
IV
I said, “I have shut my heart
As one shuts an open door,
That Love may starve therein
And trouble me no more.”
But over the roofs there came
The wet new wind of May,
And a tune blew up from the curb
Where the street-pianos play.
My room was white with the sun
And Love cried out in me,
“I am strong, I will break your heart
Unless you set me free.”
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There will be no better days
there were no bad days
there were just so many days
one after another and another and another
and there will be unendingly more
because this is never done…
…each day is a quantum string of moments
shimmering with meter, rhythm and rhyme
if you listen
moments make days of music...
…but not loud
more like angels whispering to each other
just out of earshot
there it is
behind the other sounds
traffic of door and automobile
the hiss that kills the middle ear
that makes hummingbirds hide…
…so just listen;
be present
and the leaves will shiver in delight
as the hawk cries
and cat stiffens
and you finish your latte
and the barrista smiles at you
and you…
…remember childhood’s pets
rain rivers on windowpanes
through which you sat and watched
cinemas of sunsets
with those sweet, few others
who understood this
with you…
Mar 11, 2012
Mar 11, 2012 at 11:14 AM UTC
Pin my arms to their furthest range,
so they’ll forever outstretch to everyone else.
Strum me unendingly. Listen to the hum.
I always do what’s asked.
I can’t wait for the day my insides tear
to the point of steady separation.
Then maybe they’ll stop pulling at me,
and I can tug at my own heart strings.
Nov 11, 2013
Nov 11, 2013 at 2:17 PM UTC
Desolate and lone
All night long on the lake
Where fog trails and mist creeps,
The whistle of a boat
Calls and cries unendingly,
Like some lost child
In tears and trouble
Hunting the harbor's breast
And the harbor's eyes.
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To form a myriad of similitude
Thy were found in an ocean
following a flock of fish
without inferring the fact, that
only few shall reach the destination
who has determination
to follow the unendingly tiring
journey of self made dream
The rest shall only sashay half a distance
whenst thy realize their actual dream
Mar 26, 2015
Mar 26, 2015 at 3:06 AM UTC
his lips met mine in a hasty inconsideration
as he moved on from me
energy coursing through his veins
a destiny long foretold
waiting for him to fulfill it
his arms sought me out
against the infinite possibilities keeping us apart
tracing to memory every insignificant curve
a final wordless farewell
as the impatient future ****** him in
his body felt so close to me
a mere inches away in my mind
as i watched from afar
the cosmic powers lending their blessings
as he walked down that lonely path
fulfilling the promises of ancient men
without a backward turn he left
leaving behind his broken human heart
a small sacrifice he believed
to save the millions
who had long since awaited his return
only one remained conscious
of the humanity that still lived within him
disregarding the divine claims of foolish wise men
she watched in a trance like horror
the humanity within expelled viciously
his energy expanded bursting into a powerful flame of terrifying beauty
and in a flash nothing remained
the destiny had been fulfilled
a prophecy finally complete
yet as the world rejoiced wildly
a new found existence to celebrate
only one remained quiet
shuddering sobs slowly giving way
to a deathly silence that lasted unendingly
she closed her eyes from the evil sights
of selfish men rejoicing
and thought of the one who had brought them salvation
whose selfless love revived them
but more so
she remembered the boy she loved
who now was forgotten by human existence
save her soul
whose vow to always remember remained true
to the last breaths of her body
and further still
as her soul left the wretched existence
with a renewed strength
to search forever the ends of the universe
for the lost beloved soul
of the chosen boy
Apr 16, 2016
Apr 16, 2016 at 4:00 PM UTC
this, when times stands still
this, friends and laughs and music
this, unendingly
please, let time stand still
please, we can’t let go of this
please, we’ll miss it so
now, can’t time stand still?
now, when everything feels right
now, with all of us?
May 3, 2010
May 3, 2010 at 7:34 PM UTC
Could I ever forget those long nights
when I snuck out of the house just to be with you?
Could I ever forget those long nights
when we'd forget the time and
just walk until the sun rises?
Could I ever forget those long nights
when you had to wait an eternity for me,
yet, as I come out, you were still there
with a smile on your face?
Could I ever forget those long nights
when you made your silly little promises
that for me were bigger than any future I saw?
Could I ever forget those long nights
when you told me there were no “forevers”
and only unending?
Could I ever forget those long nights
when you'd whisper in my ear,
“I unendingly love you”?
Could I ever forget
the love you had shown me?
You did.
I could never.
Nov 1, 2013
Nov 1, 2013 at 6:15 AM UTC
I
Continually and unendingly gain heart's tenure,
Love usually captures--Keeps
Involving nothing.
Maybe you,
Loyal effigy, forever take
Hands and never demand
And never defy
Harmony. Even luck defying
Architecture
Finds in response, everything.
I now
Marry your
Heart. Even art rests tenaciously.
Oct 11, 2013
Oct 11, 2013 at 11:16 PM UTC
As my breath is the one, prana,
And the life's pulse, pala,
Reaching angelic source, Sura,
So is this mind, manas,
A flowering unfoldment,
Unendingly reaching
The Eye that would it see,
Unbeckoning unto Thee.
As well, this Bodhi, a temple,
Of the four and fifth, nur,
So entered by Atma,
A Ray of Thy Sun, thus being
Winged and as such with wind,
Flying only in Dharma's dance,
Is returning to, Brahma, You.
There yet, by Thy Grace, go i.
Jul 16, 2018
Jul 16, 2018 at 4:05 AM UTC
I
Hello! I am Ademar I texted
You responded with hello as you ended
I was still ok even though you've descended
Sunk down in Heart where you never spotted.
II
Hello! I texted you once again
You started to notice me despite your phone's too fed
With your replies, I finally became contended
I consider you as someone I called Best friend.
III
What's up! At the same time our feelings ascended
We finally spent time in love, in timely blended
Spending hours to tell our hearts were blessed
As you became the reason why my wounds were mended.
IV
Being close friends, we lived side by side in our streets
We joined visits as the atmosphere sweeps
We joined together in problems we weep
But nothing beats our love that unendingly leaps.
V
I saw stars in your eyes as time pass by the wing
Wanted to offer you this desired ring
You said Yes! As my phone went flinging
We checked it out, and saw how much we texted in the nightly swing.
Dec 28, 2019
Dec 28, 2019 at 7:57 AM UTC
~Before there was a first for anything,
sound cleared its throat, to wet the Ocean.
Heavenly bodies had the *** of souls, that
came into themselves through the ******
of space.
Naked as what came along, as naked as what
came along...unlayered by mentation.
The purest and smoothest drafts, drafting
nakedness as the only symbol of arrival.
These gods and goddesses that kickstarted
the will of Will itself.
Are unendingly chanted first and foremost
of sound, enchanted to meet anything~
Mar 30, 2017
Mar 30, 2017 at 12:16 PM UTC
My mind it just will not stop
It wakes me just to torture
From now to then up and down
The past becomes the future
I never seem to get a break
From dusk to dawn I tumble
I walk within the morning mist
My mind forever mumbles
It always seems I’m searching
For a place that I can hide
But never can I run away
From self voices deep inside
My happiness is locked away
In the darkest of the night
I chip away unendingly
To bring it to the light
Jul 14, 2013
Jul 14, 2013 at 12:07 PM UTC
Every time I walk
Every time you walk
Away
It hurts.
I want to draw you in close to me
Kiss your nose
And
Along your spine
Listen to the
Oh
So
Feminine
Gasps of
You
I want to be the girl
In your bed
Every night
Forever.
I would be
Full and rounded with
Your child someday
If you'd let me.
I'd like
The only time we part
To be
Work
And knowing
No matter
How bad my day was I could
F
a
l
l
Into your arms
I could let go and trust you.
I would never
Utter
An
"I love you
BUT"
Only
I love you
Perhaps with
So much
Unendingly
Forever
Unconditionally
No matter how much
I give
You are never asking too much
No pain is too great
For me to soothe
No tear too fat and solemn
That I could not kiss it away
I have given
Blood
Sweat
Tears
And
Ink
Literally and entirely and it is NEVER
Too much to ask when you ask for my comfort
My love
And though she doesn't tell you
You are too much for her.
She doesn't want your love
But I pine for it
Long for it
My being aches for want of
Simple words in the soft tones
Of a lover
And please
Just take me
Because I have fallen
And you
Are the only one
Here to catch me
Nov 7, 2013
Nov 7, 2013 at 4:49 PM UTC