My heart died once it was bout a month or two ago
It was when u left with a “I’ll be back one day”
I just found out recently you won’t be back one day
But its ok cause I don’t feel for u in the same way I used to
Of course I look at u and say thts my ex baby babe hubby
My first LOVE
Tht I had a life planed with
Tried to have kids with
The guy I gave my virginity to the person tht I thought was worthy of it
The person tht made my life wonderful
Amazing CLOUD NINE
But thts all over wit now
I’ve moved on
Let u go
U want to be friends but thts not possible
Maybe later down the road but not now
My heart is slowly being reborn
I don’t c relationships like I used to
But when I do find a guy thts amazing
Thts my cloud nine
I’ll give him my new heart
And hope and pray to god tht he don’t break it
(Like u did)
I don’t tell ppl I love them unless I actually do
But like Keri hilson says “we were just a beautiful mistake”
Cause we were we had everything in our hand we stood by each other closer than any one
But I’ll find tht in someone else tht isn’t just gonna up and leave
He won’t be a mistake
But let’s see how life plays out…

Popularity 

This is something tht I didn't have to have
I guess u can say I'm a victim of my swag
And whts tht u ask well thts my personality
The qualities and characteristics tht makes me 

Anywhere I go I leave w/ at least one friend
Humor w/ a little sarcasm who can contend  
The key to this is to stay ahead of the next man
See things happen before they happen w/o pretend
Which means u have to keep it real 
Be ready for wht ever but still remain chill 

Add all these factors up and thts not even a quarter of me
Even tho I'm giving u the blueprint equaling me is something u will never be  

You see people wait to see wht I'm going to wear 
Which makes it hard not to notice when people stare
But I don't care cause I give people inspiration 
The females sweating me w/o the perspiration 

And it's  amazing how some women hang on ur every word 
No matter how rude, obnoxious or absurd U will still be heard
I mean in all actuality a **** is wht they want 
Y'all embrace them inconsiderate ******* types ladies don't front

But on the inside to project this persona brings about alot of pressure
With ur preconceived notion of who I am w/me left to measure

So u can actually say tht I'm being me for you 
Even though u believe all my qualities to be unique and true
Because to be honest u put me before you

In an attempt to negate your own low self esteem 
Whether it be an acquaintance or a small association You make it bigger than it seems 
Placing me in undeserved high regards
Feeling tht I possess the best hand when you hold the trump card

You see this is just a brief look at the other side of the fence 
And even though it may be hard for me to convince
It because of ur interest tht my popularity exist

             By: @mr_p3rs0nality

Infatuation

I've notice u b4 walking my way 
With Plenty attempts 4 me to say hey 
But my reluctance always seems to let u get away
Who r u really -it's a mystery to me 
Ur Beauty and gracefulness is all I c 

I often look in the mirror to practice my conversation
U know a brief introduction a bit of charm and a little persuasion 
 Wht Eva the occasion ur always dress the part
I know a women like u have broken many hearts
Where do I start when I do get ur attention 
Should I voie my good qualities or share my intentions
And that is only to insure u be treated like the goddess u r 
Do I have to possess a significant income jewelry or a fancy car
Well thts just something u would have to c for urself
Come b a part of this voyage me & u no one else
****** Cupid ur a muthafucka got me all tangled in my emotions sounding like a sucka 
But *** it I can't keep this feeling inside 
Got to lay it all out on the table -I got nothing hide 

Wht qualities make u boo -is my question to u 
I mean who r u really and wht r u into
It's like a riddle w/no answers a mystery w/no clue
And at the end of the day I'm gonna be me and ur gonna be you 

But all this information I just keep inside
And it is because of tht reason why I write this scribe 
To gain ur attention I have had many occasions
But when ur near it's like my mind go on vacation 
So with tht being said u keep me in amazement 
And until I build up my courage just consider this an INFATUATION 

                By: @mr_p3rs0nality

My women: 

As I lay here and stare at the ceiling 
I can't help but to get this feelin
To display some sort of affection 
To the mirror image of perfection 
That lay beside me tht I call my queen

Queen u might ask ? 
Well that cuz she deserve it! 
I mean she endured it better yet ignored it
Frivolous mind games and *******   
I tried to pull off 
And to wht cost when all tht was lost was the trust she had built up from a foundation 
When there was no wrong answer to the (U + ME = "US") equation 

Then there was the separation 
where we both flirted w/different temptations
Moving aimlessly w/o a particular path
Actions not adding up even when using the simplest math
U see cuz we added selfishness and stubbornness 
Then subtracted the forgiveness 
Multiplied by the bitterness 
Which left us divided due to the pettiness 

Well when all thts factored out wht will be the solution 
Could this relationship be restored  or is  tht just an illusion
With all the problems we have already endured 
Can this disease called "Being Apart" be cured 
U know b/c I don't know if u may have heard but I have really matured and I will not be ignored

I Stood my ground I let out an sigh of relief 
Not knowing her reaction I began to tremble like a leaf
She came close and looked me square in my eye 
As she began to speak her voice quivered as if she was going to cry

"Y can't I get rid of u" -"It's b/c of U the reason why I act the way I do"

"But my love for u can fill an ocean 
The affection we share fuels my devotion" 

"I'm under a spell and u are the potion 
But don't write this off as going through the motions 
When I am bubbling over w/emotions"

"So don't use are fondest memories as a tool to continue being cruel with the end result of me standing there being your fool or even worst the subject of ridicule" 

As she explained her point of view I couldn't help but to think 
How I could just let something go as quick as an eye can blink
But her love for me out weighed all the bad 
And it was sad cuz whenever I did things to make her mad all I could do in response was say my bad. 
Why am I so lucky to have her in possession and do I really deserve this angel of mine? - is the real question 
But I learned my lesson
Matter of fact I have a confession
I feel like you in my life is a blessing 
How this relationship has endured the ups and downs was really something 
And sooner than you think matrimony is comin but for now it's pleasure having u as My Women

                By: @mr_p3rsonality

Im on to the next one thts worth my time
Im no longer here for u
I have better things to do
Im livin high on life wit out u
Dancing to my favorite songs not with u
Im surprised u haven’t got sick of your new rollercoaster
Im on a different one every day
Found the old me last nite
She was all like u truble maka me wht u used to b
This is gonna b a wonderful friendship
Say bye to the the girl who cared
And shy shes gone
We moved on to the next one
**** haters
We don’t give a ****
….

Hey boo Ive always liked u cared for u loved u
Ur a special person close to mi heart
One of the few

We got this chemistry thts crazy but amazing
Member back then
Long telephone calls and im’s
We finally back to that again :)
And u make me so la-la-la-la-la
and no matter where I go, no matter who I'm with
I always think of you
ur always on my mind
tht ex of mine dosent know wht he left
my love is so good and u can get it all
but u mean so much to me and we never even met

I’m on some new **** since last week ha-ha (fade)
**** love
I don’t care the way u think rite now
Cause I don’t wanna be loved rite now
I’m goin though a faze were boys are boys
And wht u say but hittin in quitin
Ha-ha we speakin the same lango
And I just don’t care
Ready for tht roller coasta ha-ha
So give be some of tht yum yum yum
Tht good stuff
Cause u fine as **** id tap tht is an instant
Thts wht I told u (ha-ha)
I don’t have a heart for the time being
Let’s play each other
Player (ha-ha)
And then wake up ( ha-ha tht was fun)
Imma score for a winner in the end
a fine *** mother *****

why me?
you know...
i was there.
from beginning to end.
through heaven and hell.
i done stupid.
but i cared.
seen sides of me..
i never thought you’ll see.
i reached out
many times
with no replies.
im juss so blind..
but lookin into your eyes.
you got me.
broke me.
told me you’ll leave me.
but you stayed.
and said..
im waiting for your feelings to fade..
why me?
maybe you were afraid
but you knew!
i loved you..
but thts not goin to make you stay
one day im ok.
next day im in tears
yellin in my pillow..
waiting for my heart to heal.
i prayed..
and asked god
why me?

U hve your way with men
U hve men
U will remember me
Amongst men

So in me n ur ****
Thts between us
They could neva know
Dnt share my ****
Remember me...
**Amongst men

I grow with tht garden tree..
Only innocent  smile  that sets me free..
No more thank yous, no more sorries..
Had no any lies, no any worries..!!

That's  the pure soul wid no mixture..
Mind tht more clear than the  water..
No blacks &, no whites
Ur my frnd that does  only the matter..!!

But..
Now wake with alarm n run with clocks
No matters 'Why' the Race is ..
Just feared to be crushed by 'Mad' Mobs..
Grow  with towers that touching  the sky
Everything thr.. still i hv something lack...
Greed, lust, anger.. Ohh thts only Trap..
I beg my lord .. That my childhood.. Bring it

The energy of the flower attracts the bee
It’s pedals it’s scent it being itself create this need
The need to be in its presence
Pure definition of 7
What is it with this kinetic attraction
Of polar opposites that attract
While this wild flower has its garden mate
The bee still pollenates
For with out this bee the flower full bloom will never achieve
Theres a small death inside if the bee should leave
The bee see this dogwood as a creation that marvels the 9 wonders of the world
It’s beauty is the prototype of all things defined in lust
The mind is hesitant to trust but only when it’s rushed
The smile opens the heavens so summer rays reaches the earth
Smiles, convos, time is exclusive
To experience this creation almost seems abusive
For this dogwood belongs to a rose
The bee loves this dogwood but an insect is
Only a friendly companion and Thts as far as it go’s
The dogwood root is intertwined with the rose
The bee has live the dogwood knows
The dogwood likes the bee but loves the rose
The bee is aware and choose this road
To the bee this dogwood is the Bible to the Catholics
The Quran to the Muslims
The hopes the dreams and that love them
.
.
.
.
.
Seasons change petals whither
Feelings change never quicker
The mind n the heart battle n bicker
You love her you can’t you never be either her she loves yet another but cares for you still
Her soul sends chills
The power of the trumpets of the four horseman is real
She breath
She’s growth
She’s life
She’s pain And a puzzle to figure out but hides pieces from sight
This bee must take flight
This bee must take flight
Still n always concerned of your life
But there’s a dogwood a rose
But no existence of a flower bee in sight

Whats there to loose
when ive lost it all?
Its not the same anymore.
everything is about to fall.
No one hears me cry
im hurting deep inside
The only thing thts helping me cope is this wonderful dope
The feeling of being numb just calms me dwn actin dumb
No one cant replace her ima love her forever
Im just sick of being mistreated
Im constantly hurting
Its not good but i got a couple of grudges im still holding
Is this how im suppose to
live my life
I fall asleep with tears in my eyes
I hate having withdrawals its a constant reminder im still alive