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"sternum" poems
There is something violent about how I see the skin on your body Its so rich and smooth, almost decadent and unlike you This observation turns into a premeditation when you touch my cheek Its almost like i can feel the heat melting off your bones As I laid you down and slipped a knife underneath your sternum You whispered something hidden in painful tones like a sharp breath piercing the guttural moans But I dont need to hear words to know the searing desire steaming from your guts as I replaced them with hot stones The blood on your finger tips remind me of fresh water on leaves after a storm and your severed head looks like its been through famine, disease, and a damaged city plagued and war torn Yet there is still beauty in the decayed decadence that is your mutilated corpse The moonlight drowns in the canal of blood begging for remorse while the insects march and sing a song of things that can only get worse ©anthonyasylum
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Jul 15, 2018
Jul 15, 2018 at 5:06 AM UTC
Horrific Beauty
this is a series of brief letters to the pieces of my body dear body, we don't always work together very well, but i swear i am trying. dear hands, the callouses and crescent moons in your palms will not be for nothing. dear knuckles, aren't you tired of painting yourselves black & blue every time words fall short of the fire burning behind my sternum? dear feet, you know better than to follow roads that lead to dead ends. there are better places for us to go. dear eyes, you have sunken so far into my skull it shocks me you see anything at all anymore. you're fixated on shades of gray but i promise the world will regain its color soon. dear knees, stop crawling. this broken glass is from his bottles. get up. no more blood. dear shoulders, it was never your burden to carry. let it fall, and try your hardest not to feel guilty. dear neck, his hands will never make a home here, and you are worth more than one night of empty bruises. dear spine, stop waiting to be warmed by fingers that would reach for another body if they could. dear tears, do not waste yourselves. dear ears, you have been filled with ghost songs for too long. stop listening for things no one is saying - it will make life much simpler. dear mouth, i know these secrets have been threatening to break my teeth but please do not open your gates. i am not ready. dear skin, we have never been close friends. i am sorry for the scars. i am trying to learn how to be comfortable in you. dear mind, if i could wish you into an etch-a-sketch and shake you clean of these bad memories i would. dear heart, i hope you can forgive me for being so careless. i feel how tired you are. rest is on its way.   dear body, you will one day see a grave, but it must not be by your own hands. - m.f.
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Jan 22, 2014
Jan 22, 2014 at 6:28 PM UTC
my body
this is a series of brief letters to the pieces of my body dear body, we don't always work together very well, but i swear i am trying. dear hands, the callouses and crescent moons in your palms will not be for nothing. dear knuckles, aren't you tired of painting yourselves black & blue every time words fall short of the fire burning behind my sternum? dear feet, you know better than to follow roads that lead to dead ends. there are better places for us to go. dear eyes, you have sunken so far into my skull it shocks me you see anything at all anymore. you're fixated on shades of gray but i promise the world will regain its color soon. dear knees, stop crawling. this broken glass is from his bottles. get up. no more blood. dear shoulders, it was never your burden to carry. let it fall, and try your hardest not to feel guilty. dear neck, his hands will never make a home here, and you are worth more than one night of empty bruises. dear spine, stop waiting to be warmed by fingers that would reach for another body if they could. dear tears, do not waste yourselves. dear ears, you have been filled with ghost songs for too long. stop listening for things no one is saying - it will make life much simpler. dear mouth, i know these secrets have been threatening to break my teeth but please do not open your gates. i am not ready. dear skin, we have never been close friends. i am sorry for the scars. i am trying to learn how to be comfortable in you. dear mind, if i could wish you into an etch-a-sketch and shake you clean of these bad memories i would. dear heart, i hope you can forgive me for being so careless. i feel how tired you are. rest is on its way.   dear body, you will one day see a grave, but it must not be by your own hands. - m.f.
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My mother warned me about the monsters underneath my bed And the ones hiding in my closest She told me about the monsters in the world too The ones that would take advantage of me And possibly **** me She never warned me about the monsters With a perfect waterfall of hair And shimmering magenta lips She never warned me about the monsters with a perfect smile And eyes that shine as brilliantly as the moon Or the monsters with freckles that drape like constellations on their cheek bones And the monsters that look at you with a piercing gaze it hurts to breathe She forgot to warn me about monsters with soft skin and devious minds The monsters who walk so elegantly and taunt me with the swaying of their hips The monsters that creep under my skin and speak gentle words into my ear Mommy why didn't you warn me about the monsters that don't look like monsters at all? The monsters that lure me in with their beauty and eat me alive Until they've managed to rip open my sternum and take my heart
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Jun 22, 2014
Jun 22, 2014 at 3:04 AM UTC
Monsters
I find myself diving inside of you where the weird dream shamans draw sketches of naked humans. And you’re a human, and we're both naked. You’re purple, you’re just the perfect shade. I place my flag inside, to abscond us away inside of a womb where our world will open to portals to all of our favorite places. A floating haven, of cashmere. Gestating where the climate is warm and damp, and coloring me dark with wine—sweet wine of lovers, penal forgotten, and fermented anew in maternal rite, because… This swarming melodic nectar that swims through my nostrils and rolls in my eyes cannot be drank casually. It’s the elixir of love. I love you, And in you, I find that I love myself. What’s more, the shamanists exclaim, “She wants to give you all of herself.” Yes, they’re right. Even what I do not love so much, I want you to have, if you’ll take it, because I have to live with it, and if you live with me, you’ll have to live with it too. And then, when you crack open your sternum to let the things in, the scribes of my life’s doing, of ancient passion proclaim! They burn their papyrus scrolls soaked in the blood that I drew from my veins to pass unto yours— and you swallow them whole like divine burritos. And then we are ready for the world to fall suddenly, if it felt so inclined. Now that our chests are pressed together, and our tongues are fused tight. We are the daughters of the prima mother. We are the goddesses of our dreams.
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Apr 6, 2014
Apr 6, 2014 at 2:39 PM UTC
Floating Castle
I don't know man. It just has been different lately, you know? No not really. What do you mean? Like, explain it. Okay so you know how you do it and you feel everything dissolve? You know? And that warm fuzzy light fills you up and the back of your head sags all the way to the floor? You know how you can't stop smiling? How nothing matters because everything is going to be chill in the end? You know? Yeah? So what's the issue? Well recently, and I mean very recently, I just got this feeling. This ******* feeling for two hours and all I want is for it all to be over. The thing is - I know that everything is fine. That it's all chill and that I'm just geeking out, but still, the way it makes me feel. I can't do that anymore. How the hell does it make you feel dude? Jesus can we get to the point sometime soon? Right, my bad. It's my heart first. I feel my heart going at a thousand ******* miles a minute but when I check my pulse or heart beat - everything is normal. But still I feel it in my chest yapping like a dog at the front door and I can't convince myself that this is chill. Then it's my chest. You know how Jesus died of suffocation on the cross? I thought they stabbed him before they suffocated? Whatever, you know what I mean, how people on crosses couldn't breathe because of their arms and lungs and chest or whatever? Well I get this feeling that my chest is thinner than a sheet of printer paper. That every single time that I inhale it's never enough. Then I get this electricity in the back of my head. It creeps up from my sternum, through my throat and then to my brain stem. Like an itch you can't ******* scratch no matter how many layers of skin you go through? Jesus dude. Then I convince myself that I can't move my right hand. Convince myself I'm partially paralyzed. Only I'm watching my right hand move. But I feel like it has to be an illusion, because how the hell am I moving a paralyzed hand? It's all gotten so ******* twisted that I don't know which sense I can trust. Well are you sure that that's the reason? Why don't you take a small geeb or something? For the sake of the scientific method? Listen to me you fool. There is no method to this. Just madness. But I suppose, in the name of fairness, I should do some more research. Maybe just this one last time. Just to be sure. Exactly... So you wanna smoke some **** Yes. I want to smoke some **** Just for science and all that. I kinda have to. It'd be unamerican to not smoke, right? Right.
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Jan 3, 2014
Jan 3, 2014 at 10:41 PM UTC
Stoner Logic
I don't know man. It just has been different lately, you know? No not really. What do you mean? Like, explain it. Okay so you know how you do it and you feel everything dissolve? You know? And that warm fuzzy light fills you up and the back of your head sags all the way to the floor? You know how you can't stop smiling? How nothing matters because everything is going to be chill in the end? You know? Yeah? So what's the issue? Well recently, and I mean very recently, I just got this feeling. This ******* feeling for two hours and all I want is for it all to be over. The thing is - I know that everything is fine. That it's all chill and that I'm just geeking out, but still, the way it makes me feel. I can't do that anymore. How the hell does it make you feel dude? Jesus can we get to the point sometime soon? Right, my bad. It's my heart first. I feel my heart going at a thousand ******* miles a minute but when I check my pulse or heart beat - everything is normal. But still I feel it in my chest yapping like a dog at the front door and I can't convince myself that this is chill. Then it's my chest. You know how Jesus died of suffocation on the cross? I thought they stabbed him before they suffocated? Whatever, you know what I mean, how people on crosses couldn't breathe because of their arms and lungs and chest or whatever? Well I get this feeling that my chest is thinner than a sheet of printer paper. That every single time that I inhale it's never enough. Then I get this electricity in the back of my head. It creeps up from my sternum, through my throat and then to my brain stem. Like an itch you can't ******* scratch no matter how many layers of skin you go through? Jesus dude. Then I convince myself that I can't move my right hand. Convince myself I'm partially paralyzed. Only I'm watching my right hand move. But I feel like it has to be an illusion, because how the hell am I moving a paralyzed hand? It's all gotten so ******* twisted that I don't know which sense I can trust. Well are you sure that that's the reason? Why don't you take a small geeb or something? For the sake of the scientific method? Listen to me you fool. There is no method to this. Just madness. But I suppose, in the name of fairness, I should do some more research. Maybe just this one last time. Just to be sure. Exactly... So you wanna smoke some **** Yes. I want to smoke some **** Just for science and all that. I kinda have to. It'd be unamerican to not smoke, right? Right.
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You're getting to know the back of my hand While I'm getting to know the shape of my heart As it violently presses against my sternum in a uniform timing. It is dark, but I know your eyes are glancing down at my pale hand, Flushed pink with the cold, icy wind that angrily rushes through the window to our right. No one has ever shown this much interest in my hand before, And I know that sounds strange, But it is comforting to know that someone other than me can appreciate such things. I am an artist, and my hands are my gateway to the world, They are the messenger, The communicator, And without them I'd be lost. Hands tell stories, They create, They destroy, But they can make beautiful things. So let's make something beautiful and destroy it.
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Nov 29, 2014
Nov 29, 2014 at 11:21 AM UTC
hands
They reached behind my sternum, wrapped their hands around my heart, and attempted to strangle it. I pried their aching hands away, and I tore my bleeding heart in half. One half shaped itself into bread, and the other half fermented into wine. My eyelids slowly came together as I let the holy water wash over me. My words consecrate the communion, and I bless it for people to consume so we remember that we're not alone.
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Apr 9, 2022
Apr 9, 2022 at 9:32 PM UTC
communion.
Your body All angles and edges in place of curves Your neck Cinnamon, turmeric and salt Your skin Wheat-dark like pages of a well-worn book Your atlas back Arched like a cello’s waist Your elegant fingers Graze the ivory shell of my ear Your hollow collarbone Perched like a sycamore branch Crawling its way up My pelvis My sternum My throat Until finally hanahaki springs forth From my welcoming lips.
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Apr 7, 2021
Apr 7, 2021 at 9:20 AM UTC
Hanahaki Disease
the warmth from loneliness never felt so cold and cleansing the warmth from two hearts colliding never felt so caressing smiles stretch wider than the sky and i can’t help but swallow up the ones i hold dear past, present and future all in my windshield and at the tips of my hair caressing the air i breathe it’s always been preconceived the pain the consciousness and the way we bleed i’m a nomad in the desert feeling like an ostrich feather freedom just isn’t as potent as it once was and my dreams are a little more out of reach but i’m still the wanderer whose ideas are clean all the eyes that radiated love, i never forgot because you showed me some kindness in places i forgot the adventures that shook the time and the tunnels that gave us vision i handled the concise misunderstanding that led to my downfall it led me to a waterfall up north where the weather isn’t warm saturation was gone but i still felt like i was home i’m going home i haven’t been there in a while and i’m sorry please don’t worry about the nights i’ll never show i’m co-existing with the night he’s showing me the beauty that comes with walking alone i made a home inside my bones the address is tucked into the underlying of my sternum i don’t apologize for the pictures i’ve burned and the bridges that ignited along with them i live my best life when i’m desperate for a solution we’re all just warriors of the unknown traveling in a stream of nothingness trying to find out the art of everything that’s unknown there is no home for the outgrown
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Aug 20, 2018
Aug 20, 2018 at 2:54 PM UTC
home
the warmth from loneliness never felt so cold and cleansing the warmth from two hearts colliding never felt so caressing smiles stretch wider than the sky and i can’t help but swallow up the ones i hold dear past, present and future all in my windshield and at the tips of my hair caressing the air i breathe it’s always been preconceived the pain the consciousness and the way we bleed i’m a nomad in the desert feeling like an ostrich feather freedom just isn’t as potent as it once was and my dreams are a little more out of reach but i’m still the wanderer whose ideas are clean all the eyes that radiated love, i never forgot because you showed me some kindness in places i forgot the adventures that shook the time and the tunnels that gave us vision i handled the concise misunderstanding that led to my downfall it led me to a waterfall up north where the weather isn’t warm saturation was gone but i still felt like i was home i’m going home i haven’t been there in a while and i’m sorry please don’t worry about the nights i’ll never show i’m co-existing with the night he’s showing me the beauty that comes with walking alone i made a home inside my bones the address is tucked into the underlying of my sternum i don’t apologize for the pictures i’ve burned and the bridges that ignited along with them i live my best life when i’m desperate for a solution we’re all just warriors of the unknown traveling in a stream of nothingness trying to find out the art of everything that’s unknown there is no home for the outgrown
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Your light is beautiful, and mine is glum. In your eyes, I find sensations my estranged blood has never felt— to touch, to love… a soul unselfishly, for no other reason than to love. I want to place my frostbit hands upon your beating chest and ****** you away, or might I chain your hands and take you with me. I could pull you into my gale, a hostage of my lonely curiosity, but I’m afraid—so afraid that your light will fill the empty, gaping blackness, and your gentle breaths will calm my feral winds. You alone will effortlessly transpose the thunder of my bones, and I will assent that only your nearness can bring the calm to the eye of my storm. But what follows when you tire of breaking my weathers? When your chains rust into reddish ash and I can no longer keep you, my love? I can’t imagine this place will ever be as fair as it was with you, and I can only foresee that which will become of me. For when the day does break, and I find myself alone, when the silence of your absent lungs deafens my troubled mind, my storm will surge again. And as the black clouds surround, I will bring my withered hands before me and remove the foolish eyes that once lost themselves in you. So there are two sunken holes inside my skull. I will cut through my sternum and rip my dour heart from my chest. I will undress from my flesh and pull the nerves you once caressed. And my naked soul will dig a grave and settle into the dark.
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May 12, 2014
May 12, 2014 at 7:11 PM UTC
Dour Heart
Dostoyevsky said, “your worst sin is that you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for nothing.” I've felt rage seething in my chest for as long as I can remember. I've felt as his talons ripped open my sternum, digging for a place to call home. this rage has nestled deep into my ribcage, devouring my will to survive while carelessly residing within my nightmares. I've surrendered to this forsaken depression fury has vacated deep in the confines of my irises - despite witnessing myself across grey-tinted glasses; a smoldering storm rippling miasma throughout my body, manipulating my hands into a devout pyromaniac; suffocating every chance to heal. I've known nothing but bitterness congesting my heart. My dreams were burdened dreadfully with the stench of wrath. it mutilated my arms; burrowing into capillaries, and asphyxiating my habit to vanish. This incessant sin I've endured has brought me to my knees, existing only to ***** out my ability to be a mortal in an unforgiving universe. I am not a cosmic metaphor, the iron residing underneath my skin has become impenetrable. I am adorned with stillness while this betrayal has bloomed into a supernova. the things in which I lack have ignited into an endlessly violent explosion - Atomizing my bones, swirling stardust into a forlorn emptiness. A world that was held by the unfaltering resistance I persevered against, it has ravaged my memories, my moribund existence trembled; shivering from the growl of the recoil - the remnants of creation kissed abysmal lips within the faraway distance of a boundless abyss, raining tears for the last time as the destruction leaves a life void of meaning. The last words ever heard in this universe spoke softly as if to lull the existential bereft into a long hiatus - "This was all for nothing, just as destitute as this vacant nothingness, human life is ill-fated to be star-crossed and powerless."
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Sep 25, 2024
Sep 25, 2024 at 6:51 PM UTC
Cosmic Metaphor
Dostoyevsky said, “your worst sin is that you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for nothing.” I've felt rage seething in my chest for as long as I can remember. I've felt as his talons ripped open my sternum, digging for a place to call home. this rage has nestled deep into my ribcage, devouring my will to survive while carelessly residing within my nightmares. I've surrendered to this forsaken depression fury has vacated deep in the confines of my irises - despite witnessing myself across grey-tinted glasses; a smoldering storm rippling miasma throughout my body, manipulating my hands into a devout pyromaniac; suffocating every chance to heal. I've known nothing but bitterness congesting my heart. My dreams were burdened dreadfully with the stench of wrath. it mutilated my arms; burrowing into capillaries, and asphyxiating my habit to vanish. This incessant sin I've endured has brought me to my knees, existing only to ***** out my ability to be a mortal in an unforgiving universe. I am not a cosmic metaphor, the iron residing underneath my skin has become impenetrable. I am adorned with stillness while this betrayal has bloomed into a supernova. the things in which I lack have ignited into an endlessly violent explosion - Atomizing my bones, swirling stardust into a forlorn emptiness. A world that was held by the unfaltering resistance I persevered against, it has ravaged my memories, my moribund existence trembled; shivering from the growl of the recoil - the remnants of creation kissed abysmal lips within the faraway distance of a boundless abyss, raining tears for the last time as the destruction leaves a life void of meaning. The last words ever heard in this universe spoke softly as if to lull the existential bereft into a long hiatus - "This was all for nothing, just as destitute as this vacant nothingness, human life is ill-fated to be star-crossed and powerless."
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when the ocean resides in the cavity of my chest / and the world freezes over / icicles bare their teeth as their menacing shadows creep closer to my sternum / and I choke on frigid air. he carefully wraps my heart in a blanket / then collects sun rays between his lips / bestowing them onto my heart with warm kisses. the icicles melt away / and I bask in the sun.
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Apr 22, 2022
Apr 22, 2022 at 9:59 PM UTC
guiding me to the sun.
I'm just getting in the bath, Someone else wrote the letter, I don't want to make a. Mess. Draw me the water I point at the tap Burden no family Hold my head under icecaps. Merkel Cells, diluted sensation, The end of fingertips cant feel your Flesh. Shriveling in the cold, Shivering to stop freezing, But I cant. What am I doing? Can I want this now, errectores pilorum erected. Have I set motion to, Cogs in a watch I cant adjust. my lungs mark absolute zero this is me sitting in chemistry class english 10th grade asking sam to suffocate with me every alvioli is pinned by ****** as thick as knitting needles my chest is permafrost my sternum, antarctica the ribs hollow out capillary beds lose all the haem out of their erythrocytes I'm losing St. Elmo's Fire. The baths still panting out, Water roars, gushing spout. Proud the current sweeps me through, The porcelain lining this white hell bathroom. It's bone cannot hide from my blood, As if I'm isotope 226 of Radium. Heat seeking marrow. My serum is Hodgkins Lymphoma, Tearing through sheeting tile, Like a young cancer child, Afflicted, Leukemia, No chance, No good blood left, To let. Soon, it will all be gone, and the rivers that freeze in my arms, and the ribs that are icicles form, and the atrial canal is not like Venice, it is the Rhine in winter, the Volga during the solstice. Spring will never come again. Spring slipped its head into the bath water, like my own.
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Mar 27, 2013
Mar 27, 2013 at 11:34 AM UTC
30% erssss
a person barely within earshot may absorb the cheerful ring in my voice. they see me in glimmering gold embellished with refracting glass - always with crinkles adorning my eyes. someone else may be right across the table and see small smoke tendrils escaping my ears. laughter follows the smoke, and it fades away. they see dull gold topped with smashed glass. the crinkles sometimes disappear, only to return a few seconds later. A few can see my heart whenever they like. they hear unsteady tremors between words. they see billowing smoke emanating from my ears and mouth. they know the wrapping is gold foil with smashed hourglasses piercing my skin. the crinkles appear whenever they want. nevertheless, they see me rise, even as I ache. I, the permanent resident of this body, shed the itchy foil whenever I can. my cells are clouded by smoke, and the hourglass fractals swirl into a tornado behind my sternum. the crinkles have been starched. But, I remember I am walking on diamonds, and I slowly sculpt my armor. I exhale, and the smoke clears, bit by bit. I reach behind my sternum, grabbing the fractals to line my armor. I splash water onto my face, and the corners of my eyes crinkle again.
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Apr 10, 2022
Apr 10, 2022 at 11:40 PM UTC
on the outside, closing in.
Anxiety A ball of prickling fire tearing beneath my sternum. Fear A bolt of electric ripping through my veins. Depression A cloud so thick is suffocates my soul. Anorexia Starving the outside from within. Bulimia Inhaling the world and purging it back. Failure Being crushed by society for all of the above ..... And still wondering why oh why is it me??? Why?
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Nov 9, 2014
Nov 9, 2014 at 6:20 PM UTC
Why oh why?
Your words crawled through my auditory cortex like caterpillars, preventing me from hearing anything other than the inflection in your deep voice. As your body inched closer to mine, they took residence in my chest cavity, building chrysali that hung off of my ribs making it more and more difficult to inflate my heavy lungs. They cocooned themselves as I too wrapped myself up in you. Suddenly, your lips were on mine and your hands were counting the vertebrae down my back, scaring the insects from their resting place, resulting in chills up my spine. The newly emerged butterflies flew out of my sternum and up into my throat, longing to be closer to you. But then you pulled away and they instantly died, leaving me with a bitter taste in my mouth.
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Aug 6, 2014
Aug 6, 2014 at 10:26 PM UTC
Butterflies
how tired how tired the caged bird sings before its beautiful neck snaps between the claws of an angry fat cat drool drip drop dripping the ghoulish rubies that snake past its serpent tongue and sizzle when they touch its breast scream like a banshee a women in the throes of **** as the cats sternum breaks between the iron clap jaws of the three headed abomination cerberus guardian of the judicial powers champion of the executive law enforcer of legislative judgement slobbering grasping all encompassing maw envelopes my heart in its wretched gnashing teeth and **** my marrow from my bones with a sharpened gore covered protuberance called security i see the death of my passions in this hellish cycle - abomination birthed from the depths of an elitist mind control - a choke chain on the masses
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Sep 18, 2012
Sep 18, 2012 at 12:47 PM UTC
the circle of life?
On moon-damp sheets, you slowly open my violet fig, passing halves tongue to tongue, its seed-pearls, captive minutes embraced by our soft lips, each velvet pulse a swallowed clock tick, unthreading the night’s camisole—unstrung Our minutes take root inside our souls, night’s vines in green hour’s gentle grip, soft pods burst open, figs too ripe to cradle our desires, their wet seeds, exploring, ticking onward—dreaming of a solar eclipse Dawn’s pallid hand already tests the window, sprouting its cruel thorns and briars, we stack our stolen seconds like leaves against the latch, a barricade of lost cries, yet every green minute bleeds to gold, slipping through fingers, we tire— Seconds steep in our bellies like sour home-brewed wine highs, bubbles of yesterday escape—tiny pale moons clinging to folds and hips, drunk on recycled time, we speak only in overlapping echoes of whys? One corner of the mattress folds like a calendar page—blank, stripped, our shadows lengthen backward, seeking last night’s candlelight, Dawn’s fiery glow becomes a vortex of memory and lust—we slip, hip to hip A seed-shaped cog spills within; its milk is bitter sun, not honeyed night, the soft ticking falters—our wetness rusts the teeth of fragile gears, we press our palms to the fracture, bluffing the hunger of day’s appetite. All swallowed instants germinate in rapture; green shoots flare wild from every tear, morning slips through the leaf-lattice, feral, unstoppable—death, the room sighs oxygen unearned; we wake leaf-littered, dewed, a frontier unclear One last seed, caged behind the sternum, ticks backwards, waiting for breath, it counts in reverse, each tick a small fist begging still to be loved, we do not let it out; we cradle the echo, its name?
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Aug 24, 2025
Aug 24, 2025 at 2:45 PM UTC
Where Are the Swallowed Clocks That Held Back Our Morning?
On moon-damp sheets, you slowly open my violet fig, passing halves tongue to tongue, its seed-pearls, captive minutes embraced by our soft lips, each velvet pulse a swallowed clock tick, unthreading the night’s camisole—unstrung Our minutes take root inside our souls, night’s vines in green hour’s gentle grip, soft pods burst open, figs too ripe to cradle our desires, their wet seeds, exploring, ticking onward—dreaming of a solar eclipse Dawn’s pallid hand already tests the window, sprouting its cruel thorns and briars, we stack our stolen seconds like leaves against the latch, a barricade of lost cries, yet every green minute bleeds to gold, slipping through fingers, we tire— Seconds steep in our bellies like sour home-brewed wine highs, bubbles of yesterday escape—tiny pale moons clinging to folds and hips, drunk on recycled time, we speak only in overlapping echoes of whys? One corner of the mattress folds like a calendar page—blank, stripped, our shadows lengthen backward, seeking last night’s candlelight, Dawn’s fiery glow becomes a vortex of memory and lust—we slip, hip to hip A seed-shaped cog spills within; its milk is bitter sun, not honeyed night, the soft ticking falters—our wetness rusts the teeth of fragile gears, we press our palms to the fracture, bluffing the hunger of day’s appetite. All swallowed instants germinate in rapture; green shoots flare wild from every tear, morning slips through the leaf-lattice, feral, unstoppable—death, the room sighs oxygen unearned; we wake leaf-littered, dewed, a frontier unclear One last seed, caged behind the sternum, ticks backwards, waiting for breath, it counts in reverse, each tick a small fist begging still to be loved, we do not let it out; we cradle the echo, its name?
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- - - there are the days when i savor my isolation, i savor my freedom. in this state is when Urania came forth to lift my chin, to lift my gaze from finite walking-path unto Eternity of existence. She placated me, brought me to surrender of my Self. and i lay staring at the ceiling, longing for a little rest knowing i did this to myself, and i don’t complain to you. - - - there came a conclusion of self-destruction as the only thing to depend on. and i destroy myself through entertainment while fighting tooth and nail to survive. - - - Sunday 5.30ante. began Friday 9.30post, Saturday 9.30post is twenty-four. i am four short of thirty-six. and my turbulent stomach awaits the imbibement of a hard benzo – (shorten’d word to be hip. [also the reason i used an infinitive]) by this point i am deranged and trace mildly. not just a fancied flight alongside a reality my mind deceives me of. not just an insaned delirium i perpetrate. maintain. sustain. disdain. space to insure emphasis, - - - have i been outward too long. i sweat naked in the snow thanking, no Deity, but instead handful of multi-color’d, shaped, strength downers. and i smell’d on death perfume of flowers as its figure look’d me over – naked freezing wretch – and extend’d claw with rotting flesh no where in pace with this vessel’s. i began to blue, and the shadow of my end falter’d in my mind. lungs, in impulse, heaved air within themselves. stretching frozen sternum. - - - let’s take some math, how about: zn+1 = zn2 + c i am patient, please explain in detail.
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Dec 23, 2012
Dec 23, 2012 at 5:44 AM UTC
lost.
- - - there are the days when i savor my isolation, i savor my freedom. in this state is when Urania came forth to lift my chin, to lift my gaze from finite walking-path unto Eternity of existence. She placated me, brought me to surrender of my Self. and i lay staring at the ceiling, longing for a little rest knowing i did this to myself, and i don’t complain to you. - - - there came a conclusion of self-destruction as the only thing to depend on. and i destroy myself through entertainment while fighting tooth and nail to survive. - - - Sunday 5.30ante. began Friday 9.30post, Saturday 9.30post is twenty-four. i am four short of thirty-six. and my turbulent stomach awaits the imbibement of a hard benzo – (shorten’d word to be hip. [also the reason i used an infinitive]) by this point i am deranged and trace mildly. not just a fancied flight alongside a reality my mind deceives me of. not just an insaned delirium i perpetrate. maintain. sustain. disdain. space to insure emphasis, - - - have i been outward too long. i sweat naked in the snow thanking, no Deity, but instead handful of multi-color’d, shaped, strength downers. and i smell’d on death perfume of flowers as its figure look’d me over – naked freezing wretch – and extend’d claw with rotting flesh no where in pace with this vessel’s. i began to blue, and the shadow of my end falter’d in my mind. lungs, in impulse, heaved air within themselves. stretching frozen sternum. - - - let’s take some math, how about: zn+1 = zn2 + c i am patient, please explain in detail.
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Behind my sternum, exists a void. Made long ago on this voyage. Trail and error; attempting remedies From school, to art, to melodies Continue to spirits, and Buddha All these attempts: futile Confusion, anger, melancholy They say, "look in to find it's seed" But how would they react If they heard what I retract. That I've looked introspectively, From sphenoid to chest cavity And found nothing but a void
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Feb 1, 2014
Feb 1, 2014 at 2:54 AM UTC
Untitled
Dream for me a Savannah, a sestina in reds at Pandora’s threshold, clothed in bludgeons of light and these tears are nothing but the nightingale’s burden, the words laden and livid as storm across the mauve wasteland unfolds, the sky in its deceit, promises rain, delivers nothing, in this room the light will ruin me, the squall of glass slippers overhead, on my knees, now the abstraction of the body, opaque I write in the limber whisper of fingertips, deep villanelles about love, restless love on the skin of your back, histories annotated by gestures of supplication, I drag fingernails across a fairytale and out falls a wide-eyed harem, April-blue veils trail their blood, narrowing the flagrant staccato echo in my sternum, A palm reader warns of conduits and spells, the darkness that puddles like lake water in my mind, moths of Summer a fragrant blue, restless blue notes like scorpions scurry beneath the blankets, strands of hair, stained sheets this vacancy glows through the shears I forget, how early, and still the night falls here, as how early it fails.....
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Jan 10, 2013
Jan 10, 2013 at 5:07 PM UTC
Dreamscape:
I see a Woman eating her muffin looking at Man who is looking looking into the depths of his paper cup and the wrinkles and rivers on the back of his hand thinking When did I get those? Coffee Cup looking at the blue bin in the corner Coffee Cup thinking Well, I guess this is how it goes The secret force that wrenches eyes upward from the secret morning monologues happens like electricity happens and Man sees Woman's eyes and frowns and can't tell whether they are blue or brown. Crumbs are on her lap. Man doesn't notice but Woman thinks he does Moving imperceptibly and not wasting a calorie she flutters her hands over the warm loaves of her thighs. Man notices an ephemeral strain Simon and Garfunkle and becomes aware of a softening within his sternum and electrons slowing, softing, into a May spring aesthetic Woman rubs her finger which does not have a ring and Coffee Cup wonders if it will still have sentience within the bin or if the world with all its broken beauty and mornings and warm hands will suddenly just stop everything? I look at my keys. The sort that express, not the sort that open doors and drawers but even these, time to time, will fall beneath the wooden floors. Man pulls his long coat off the back of his chair without ceremony rises and turns to go leaves his cup on the table for a coffee girl to attend to and exits as the rain turns to snow. Woman sits. And sits. Woman might order another pumpkin muffin. Her knees are chilled, watching her pinkly from the edge of a pencil skirt like children's faces from a blanket. A moment later she makes that same comparison and laughs internally without gesture or sound. And Woman looks around. Woman smiles. Not because of Man or muffin or the secret life of a Coffee Cup but because she is Woman struck lively by the sudden meta fleeting passage of The Bigger and her eyes, definitively brown spark like bumper car antennae and struck by magic, the same magic electricity for an irreversible instant meet mine. And for one fourteenth of a moment Woman knows Me with all her life. I shiver and she lobs me the red bean bag and I hold the image in my mind like a relic of the living divine. The Bigger, the morning the secret was mine.
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Oct 22, 2012
Oct 22, 2012 at 11:44 AM UTC
The Bigger
I see a Woman eating her muffin looking at Man who is looking looking into the depths of his paper cup and the wrinkles and rivers on the back of his hand thinking When did I get those? Coffee Cup looking at the blue bin in the corner Coffee Cup thinking Well, I guess this is how it goes The secret force that wrenches eyes upward from the secret morning monologues happens like electricity happens and Man sees Woman's eyes and frowns and can't tell whether they are blue or brown. Crumbs are on her lap. Man doesn't notice but Woman thinks he does Moving imperceptibly and not wasting a calorie she flutters her hands over the warm loaves of her thighs. Man notices an ephemeral strain Simon and Garfunkle and becomes aware of a softening within his sternum and electrons slowing, softing, into a May spring aesthetic Woman rubs her finger which does not have a ring and Coffee Cup wonders if it will still have sentience within the bin or if the world with all its broken beauty and mornings and warm hands will suddenly just stop everything? I look at my keys. The sort that express, not the sort that open doors and drawers but even these, time to time, will fall beneath the wooden floors. Man pulls his long coat off the back of his chair without ceremony rises and turns to go leaves his cup on the table for a coffee girl to attend to and exits as the rain turns to snow. Woman sits. And sits. Woman might order another pumpkin muffin. Her knees are chilled, watching her pinkly from the edge of a pencil skirt like children's faces from a blanket. A moment later she makes that same comparison and laughs internally without gesture or sound. And Woman looks around. Woman smiles. Not because of Man or muffin or the secret life of a Coffee Cup but because she is Woman struck lively by the sudden meta fleeting passage of The Bigger and her eyes, definitively brown spark like bumper car antennae and struck by magic, the same magic electricity for an irreversible instant meet mine. And for one fourteenth of a moment Woman knows Me with all her life. I shiver and she lobs me the red bean bag and I hold the image in my mind like a relic of the living divine. The Bigger, the morning the secret was mine.
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Gracious god, I Am handcuffed to the bed (white wine and cigarettes)— I will not forgive regrets. This hornet’s nest, a home— I choke on church bells, starved of faith— an empty sternum, bellyache. Among the living dead, I speak the language: “Let me in!” But I cannot betray my sin.
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Aug 9, 2018
Aug 9, 2018 at 1:06 AM UTC
Pure White Emptiness
No place for roleplay in this illumined shrine of sanctified skin and porcelain where the most literal of lovers whelm in the stainless steel hot spring's silver stream where the smoke screen of clothing clashes with the steam cloud rising like ironic bread in Eden's kitchen where a woman turns around wrings and whips her satin slope of hair around a shoulder leaving to her man ideas and a bar of soap that slithers effortlessly in his palm like a melted deck of cards where a bubbled corner is embedded in the small of her back elevated from the tailbone to the neck and lowered like the zipper of the dress he parted not so long ago where a jolt of urgency accelerates an exercise in the ski of soap around the junction of the hips and outer buttocks and a segue silently approved by her arms hoisted to attend to hair thought to be already washed and conditioned where the soap is shared by both hands on the scaling of her sudded sternum presaging an unseen demand from the beacons of progression swelling in the wet heat where a hand of soap and hand of slide verifies the demand of hands on her beaded ******* where he answers her swell with his stiffness in the final feel of mystery before a soft shift of arms approximates a plea for a frontal rinse where hands return to ****** crowned chest sparking the advent of eye contact all the while where his ****** intensifies in proportion to the eyes closed in anticipation of their saturated mouths' magnetic duet where saliva and the cooling water mix on their cameos of tongues slipping through their lips in the midst of the mist and where their towels hang in a forgotten heap while he takes her dripping body in his arms and carries her to where the roleplay will have to wait after all
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May 6, 2014
May 6, 2014 at 12:35 PM UTC
CISTERN
No place for roleplay in this illumined shrine of sanctified skin and porcelain where the most literal of lovers whelm in the stainless steel hot spring's silver stream where the smoke screen of clothing clashes with the steam cloud rising like ironic bread in Eden's kitchen where a woman turns around wrings and whips her satin slope of hair around a shoulder leaving to her man ideas and a bar of soap that slithers effortlessly in his palm like a melted deck of cards where a bubbled corner is embedded in the small of her back elevated from the tailbone to the neck and lowered like the zipper of the dress he parted not so long ago where a jolt of urgency accelerates an exercise in the ski of soap around the junction of the hips and outer buttocks and a segue silently approved by her arms hoisted to attend to hair thought to be already washed and conditioned where the soap is shared by both hands on the scaling of her sudded sternum presaging an unseen demand from the beacons of progression swelling in the wet heat where a hand of soap and hand of slide verifies the demand of hands on her beaded ******* where he answers her swell with his stiffness in the final feel of mystery before a soft shift of arms approximates a plea for a frontal rinse where hands return to ****** crowned chest sparking the advent of eye contact all the while where his ****** intensifies in proportion to the eyes closed in anticipation of their saturated mouths' magnetic duet where saliva and the cooling water mix on their cameos of tongues slipping through their lips in the midst of the mist and where their towels hang in a forgotten heap while he takes her dripping body in his arms and carries her to where the roleplay will have to wait after all
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I have love for you Rooted in my jawbone Your secret perfume Convection heat in a back seat I want your thin fingers Tangled in the web of my ribs I want to lose you In the honeycombed purple layers of my heart tissue I will cradle your head on my sternum Letting my lungs do the work If only Your elbows were not so sharp Then I would crave the dig of your fingernails Your pastures of hair The butterfly tremble of your lips Speechless- words no longer hold the weight My tongue on the novel curves of your sigh Tasting the twenty summers of your growth Trembling due to lack of oxygen Trembling at the onset of lust The kneading want of knuckle bones Drawing me ever closer to the colors of light Static in the stereo of the Cerebral cortex Bunched nerves Shocked into submission By your bleached bone canines Open and breathe The quick pinch endocrine valves Releasing steam Drape me with your skin Wrap me up in your pulsing warm veins I bleed blue On every day of the week I am deafened By the rage of your heartbeat I am stricken dumb The symphony of your eyelids Swelling in my chest a familiar lust The wind from your eyelashes Could blow us out of this winter And right into spring All the days of the year I bleed blue The dedication of your palm On my cheek Warms me like a leaf in sunlight Peel me layer from layer You will find no lies in between the pages I am your machine Waiting to be properly lubricated I cannot wait for our first day under the sun I can't wait to get you out of the fluorescent lights Of the Assembly line We will journey together to forgotten realms And sleep beneath the strange constellations
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May 10, 2013
May 10, 2013 at 2:00 PM UTC
Blue Eye
I have love for you Rooted in my jawbone Your secret perfume Convection heat in a back seat I want your thin fingers Tangled in the web of my ribs I want to lose you In the honeycombed purple layers of my heart tissue I will cradle your head on my sternum Letting my lungs do the work If only Your elbows were not so sharp Then I would crave the dig of your fingernails Your pastures of hair The butterfly tremble of your lips Speechless- words no longer hold the weight My tongue on the novel curves of your sigh Tasting the twenty summers of your growth Trembling due to lack of oxygen Trembling at the onset of lust The kneading want of knuckle bones Drawing me ever closer to the colors of light Static in the stereo of the Cerebral cortex Bunched nerves Shocked into submission By your bleached bone canines Open and breathe The quick pinch endocrine valves Releasing steam Drape me with your skin Wrap me up in your pulsing warm veins I bleed blue On every day of the week I am deafened By the rage of your heartbeat I am stricken dumb The symphony of your eyelids Swelling in my chest a familiar lust The wind from your eyelashes Could blow us out of this winter And right into spring All the days of the year I bleed blue The dedication of your palm On my cheek Warms me like a leaf in sunlight Peel me layer from layer You will find no lies in between the pages I am your machine Waiting to be properly lubricated I cannot wait for our first day under the sun I can't wait to get you out of the fluorescent lights Of the Assembly line We will journey together to forgotten realms And sleep beneath the strange constellations
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