"shoud" poems
THOU SHALT NOT BE MISERABLE - MAN-UP,
YOU HAVE AN OBSESSION WITH DEPRESSION,
HERE BEGINS THE LESSON - WHAT IS YOUR REASON?
WRITE DOWN YOUR GOOD THINGS - WHAT A SMILE BRINGS.
RESPECT YOURSELF, YOUR PARENTS AND FAMILY FOR ME,
DO NOT MAKE ACCUSATIONS, RATHER DECISIONS,
DO NOT DESIRE THAT WHICH YOU CAN NOT HAVE,
DO NOT COMMIT ****** AND THEFT - USE WHAT'S LEFT.
DO NOT DESIRE ANOTHER PERSONS DONKEYS, SLAVES,
CATTLE OR THEIR PARTNER - THREE OUT OF FOUR SHOUD BE OK,
I FORGOT THE HOUSE - YOU HAVE ONE OF YOUR OWN,
WHEN IT COMES TO ADULTERY - I DON'T WANT TO KNOW.
TODAY IS SPRING, I WANT TO HEAR WHAT MAKES YOU SING,
MAKE ME LAUGH, IF YOU SUCCEED - THE WINE I SHALL BRING.
Mar 21, 2016
Mar 21, 2016 at 6:47 PM UTC
"It is better we should both perish than that my enemy should live"
the scorpion; lethal
the frog; delicate
1st times a accident
2nd times a mistake
3rd time shoud've never happened.
but you were right it was inevitable for it to happen again.
With your kindness so dear and delicate,
your genuineness so rare
and your heart so pure
and my nature so continuous,
it wasn't a mistake or an accident,
you cannot break the cycle of nature,
just like the changing seasons.
it's like harming someone you care about,
and harming one at one's disadvantage,
with recklessness .
they aren't worth loving, or being affectionate towards,
May 14, 2012
May 14, 2012 at 8:18 PM UTC
I shoud've told the bartender to tie me to the last working pay phone.
But I didn't. I let her introduce herself. Sadie, she said, like The Beatle's song.
I'm hard to forget, so I asked, What's your motto?
She breathed in reverse. She looked at the door. She was past mottos.
It was Josh, right?
Yeah.
Let me tell you something. I'm the bad, **** ***** that's gonna wreck your health.
And she did.
Every weekend for 105 weekends. I opened her up like a paycheck.
I spent her on a big brass bed.
I spent her on glass tile.
I spent her on the kitchen island.
The Japanese table.
The water lily pond.
Her brother Frank or Gary or Marvin---some American classic---kept us
horizontal with white whiskey from his personal still.
Personal still.
And there is a house in New Orleans,
but there's another one in Colorado Springs,
one you should be wary of.
I shoud've told the bartender to tie me to the last working pay phone.
But I didn't. I let him tell me about his dream. My name is Jack, he said, as in Jumpin' Jack Flash.
Like the Rolling Stones' song?
Like the Stones' song, man.
You were in it.
Four white girls shared one mic. Karaoke night.
You were in my dream. Are you listening to me? I'm gonna say it anyways.
I only had one eye, but I could see you. Seen you plain as day.
You were scared of me. As you should be. We were on the coast.
No, I don't know which one. I saw that thought on your forehead.
It was a dream. Anyway, you were holding a pen. A giant pen.
And I asked for your name.
I lifted my drink from the makeshift napkin coaster. Pulled a pen out of my coat pocket.
Straightened out the napkin. I scribbled Nobody. Handed it to him. And aimed myself toward the interstate.
I shoud've told the bartender to tie me to the last working pay phone.
But I didn't. She had one helluva an afro. Her name was Katrina, not like any song, like the hurricane.
My skin tastes a little like coffee, Katrina said.
I like coffee.
You wouldn't like me.
Probably not. But I've been lost in this bar forever. I could change my mind.
No, sweetie. Forever ain't that long. Just ask my ex-husband.
Katrina paid for her drink. Asked me if I'd like the change.
Yeah, I'll take it.
I called my buddy Chris back in Oklahoma, but he didn't answer.
I called my buddy Ben back in Oklahoma, but he didn't answer.
Sam. Sarah. Brooks. Nothing. Silence.
Barkeep (I always wanted to say it), I don't think your phone is working.
It works. You gotta remember kid. You're on Rocky time.
There's an hour, every night,
where you're the only person you know that's awake.
Jul 30, 2013
Jul 30, 2013 at 2:48 AM UTC
a point when u feel abandoned by the people around u
a point when u loose it but u can't show it
a point when u wanna run away but u can't
what is your fault when the circumstances change
u didn't provoke someone to make them happen
the one who faces it is "U"
who decides that what is right n what is wrong
when people call u manipulative
don't jst feel bad
but kick that person out of our life
they don't deserve u
y shoud u pay for what others do
u make people trust u
u make people rely on u
u sacrifice ur comfort zone for them
but in the whole instance what did the other guy do?
the answer must be nothing
people face it
people ignore it
n when u try to clarify it out
they call u manipulative
a fresh start is nothing but a fake one
m going out not with a fresh start
but with a new one
going to people who genuinely care about me
who wanna be with me
unlike others who call u stubborn n manipulative jsst to protect their standard
m not changing
instead i m jsst converting into a new one
Jan 7, 2015
Jan 7, 2015 at 6:05 AM UTC
What is wrong with me?
Am i Too skinny? too fat?
Am i too tall? too short?
why cant i be happy with me?
what is wrong with me?
Am i too dumb? annoyingly smart?
Do i talk to fast? or prehaps to slow ?
am i too loud? or too quiet?
Why cant i be happy with me?
what i wrong with me?
am i too sensitive? am i heartless?
am i self-ish? or a little to selfless?
am I not silly enough?
should i be so jealous?
Do i care what people think?
Is this really where i wanna Live?
Am i stuck with this job or do i love it?
Should i have gone to school?
Is this the person i shoud be fighting for?
Do i need to go to the doctors?
Why cant i be happy with me?
whats wrong with me?
I just cant be happy because of ...me
Feb 15, 2013
Feb 15, 2013 at 2:37 AM UTC
May be I missed something…
Sitting lonely by the fireplace, in the rocking chair, just like the one he always wanted to have since childhood, and to sit just like that with such a serious face… thinking really widely and broadly about own… like Sherlock or Epicur… and with a glass of Merlot..
In the whole house just crackling of the fire and hissing of the conditioner… May be I missed something.. Said he, but now out loud to himself…
Something started vibrating, flashing with an idle melody through the dark silence of the house…
- Да.. answered he, in hope that it is some of the “close” people that remembered him in the New Years Eve..
- Hola! Puedo hablar a Sr. Miguel. Esta en el casa ahora?
- -Discúlpeme, está equivocado el número, señiorita…
- -Lo siento…
And she hang up the phone… wrong number… She needed somebody called Miguel…
hmm.. I should’ve said that I was Miguel. Then, shoud've reserved the table in a restaurant and asked her out… And when she woudn’t meet Miguel there, just before she starts leaving, accost her and tell:
-Hola, Senioritta. Me llamo Roberto. Esta muy bonita y estoy solo esta noche. Quiere beber algo comigo?
You don’t have to wonder that people treat a woman with such beauty like that. You’re not first, you’re not the last…
And she responded:
-Gracias y Mucho gusto Roberto. Me encantaria…
And then with projectors and street lights through bars and clubs until the dawn… and then it’s not lonely and very hot in your bed… and in the morning, a little bit ill and tired you ask her:
-Como te llamas?
-Maria…
That would be the last word you would hear from her.. and she gets dressed and gone, gone…
You’re lonely again.. inside just the fantasies and at front of you their reflections on the burning down fire…
Mar 22, 2010
Mar 22, 2010 at 8:29 PM UTC
"i Washed It"
"Not Good enough"
"But i Did i Did"
"Wash it again"
'i didn't know
How could i have known"
"because I told you not to!!"
"But she said i shoud
that i just let her wet it
i didn't know it was *****
............................................
Full of things that i shouldn't know
plesures of lust, greed, sin
Dirt
a loss of innocence
I'll do anything to take it back
It wont come off
It wont come off
this dirt wont come off
(cries) tears
What em i to do
....................."Here child let me wash that away for you"....
Apr 3, 2012
Apr 3, 2012 at 11:24 AM UTC
Perish the thought!
Do not leave me in the void
bitter as a wormwood,
lonely as precipitated leaf,
neutral as silent stone,
cold as a sea of winter,
wide as a valley of fiery hell
grief-stricken as dead, young life.
Without you oranges lost sweet taste.
Without you my apartment forfeited soul.
Without you colours are false.
Without you my heart is pinched.
Without you eternal dreams left me.
Without you world has stopped for thousand years.
Without you life is cruel and predictable ride.
Without you I forgot what comfort means.
Without you I despise all world.
Perish the thought!
We shoud still continue to be together.
Remain with me in moments of infinity
before the last spark of hope lights up your repents.
Do not annihilate our love in vexation.
It is unutterable pain.
I don't wish to inflict us upon degradation and misery.
I wish God lives between two of us.
It is not too late
to listen patiently whisper of forgiveness,
to reveal frustrated feelings,
to extinguish embers of confusion,
to find in yourself shadow of lover from the past,
to sink in the depths of my arms,
to forget the human weaknesses,
to look white at each other,
to set the clocks of our bodies at the same time,
to unearth hidden in the rubble of routine chest of elations.
Perish the thought!
You cannot leave without word.
I know you are hot-tempered.
Do not leave me in these moments alone,
moments darker than night.
I will die in slaveries without you.
I put my soul in grave without you.
You are my first and last breath.
I kiss the ground you treaded softly with your feet.
I cuddle the space where you are.
I move my eyes in the hope they will see your form.
Perish the thought
before it is after dusk of our dreams.
I feel like I am completely stranger for you.
I breath half-savage hell in the air.
I am hardy of perfection of our souls.
We are made of the same colours of existence.
I will have to break your heart if you break mine.
But I don't feel strong enough to do this.
I still have power to love you.
Do I want to live without you?
Perish the thought!
Fling your arms around me!
Don't betray your heart!
Oct 17, 2014
Oct 17, 2014 at 12:26 PM UTC
I kiss your raw lips
and say goodbye.
The sun has yet to rise.
Let us walk in peace
with the morning star.
We should make love & die.
We shoud live life every day,
not just for some day.
Love. Love. Love.
Sweet darling, I’m here,
by the fog, by the light.
With you here,
Time lies within Time
and ages slip away into seconds,
and seconds turn into Love,
which will feed on my soul for all time.
Dec 10, 2015
Dec 10, 2015 at 10:30 AM UTC
Coming to that quiet place we made
Hand held close to my chest
Darling, I've got a secret I need let out
Won't you help?
Won't you help me again?
I've gone through it all standing on my own two feet
Been the subject of ridicule and the piece of this world
Totally ignored
Drinking from the wells splashing deep within the earth
Can't help but to get another drink
Shoud've got up and moved on
Can't help but to get another drink
As we walk, we tear our souls from our bodies
As we run, we say to them that they're too heavy to carry
All I ask, All I want
Is just a single word
Okay
Fine
Salvation
Sinking ever so more deeper in the recesses of this chair
Struggling to hold on to reality and things seen not there
How I wish you could see
My head is twirling round and round and round
Long ago it wasn't like this
And far from now it will stop for sure
But, for now, I just can't keep up with you
I've let loose my soul, broke my eyes
Burned my tongue, and hid my ears
Oh baby, all I can do is feel you out
Can't say I want to change that
For those watching this tragedy in the making
Take note of the change from disgust to hero
I don't want you to miss the point I'm trying to make
No, don't want that at all
With feelings going in and out
With sadness complementing the joy
I feel like I'm on a tightrope
I just want to know
Which way to go
Can't be this hard, can it?
I don't think, I don't think it's going to be the same anymore
All my dreams are smashed on the ground
Can't even see them anymore.
In sixty seconds I'll have gone past the horizon
In an hour or two I'll pass through the waves of torment
Kind friends, tell me
What is it that makes things go away?
I've searched long and hard for an anwer
And come up to only a subtle piano key
Being played
I've made every doubt perish
Every thought die
Still it lingers
Still it lingers in my eyes
We've pushed through things we didnt' know were there
And forgot those with which we built bridges to
And, to end it all, we've come this far
II.
Things change and roll on
I've lost every sensation but memory
Taken from me everything
Stolen in the night
Passion misplaced
Ransacked houses
Jun 14, 2010
Jun 14, 2010 at 4:26 PM UTC
I'M FROM AYUTHIA IN THAILAND, MADE OF TEAK,
I HAVE SO MANY STORIES IF I COULD SPEAK,
I'VE SEEN YOU LAUGH AND HEARD YOU CRY
AND EVEN WATCHED YOU WAVE GOODBYE;
STANDING HERE ON THE TV, THERE'S NO
BETTER VIEW IT SEEMS TO ME, THAT MAYBE
I SHOUD WRITE A BOOK - DON'T FROWN NOW,
I KNOW THAT LOOK, KNOW YOUR MOODS, KNOW
WHEN ANGER EXUDES FROM HIDDEN PORES AND
PETULANCE SHOWS ITSELF FROM UNKNOWN STORES;
THERE HAVE BEEN THE GOOD TIMES BUT MY MOOD
IS FIXED, NO WAY OF SAYING - EMOTIONS MIXED,
JUST REMEBER THAT I'M HERE FOR YOU, BROUGHT
WITH LOVE - A GUIDING LIGHT FROM HEAVEN ABOVE.
Mar 3, 2016
Mar 3, 2016 at 2:38 PM UTC
Langston was a late bloomer
She kissed me with a devotion
Lovely
8 The angle shoud be 99 per cent
Not snoop ****** round
Blink think nonstop sexed Up
'tea at five' Hi
Tectonics
Jan 12, 2016
Jan 12, 2016 at 2:57 PM UTC
Small, unnoticed,
Just a flicker in your chest,
Not enough to realize.
How long has it been since you felt it last?
Grand, unpredicted,
Exploding lights in my chest,
Dumb enough to realize.
How long can I last without feeling it again?
You say it's better to scare it off,
I say it's better to face it off,
Don't you think, that I know,
How bad is this for my own?
You realize,
And you decide,
That my wings shoud be shaved off.
While all I want,
Is our wings to fly together.
If I'm a silly butterfly,
I hope he is drums and fireworks on the rain
Sep 29, 2016
Sep 29, 2016 at 4:22 PM UTC
I DESTROY HOMES, TEAR FAMILIES APART, I TAKE YOUR CHILDREN AND THAT’S JUST THE START.
I’M MORE COSTLY THEN DIAMONDS, MORE COSTLY THEN GOLD. THE SORROW I BRING YOU IS A SIGHT TO BEHOLD.
IF YOU USE ME, REMEMBER I’M EASILY FOUND, I LIVE ALL AROUND YOU, IN SCHOOLS AND IN TOWNS.
I LIVE WITH THE RICH, I LIVE WITH THE POOR, I LIVE DOWN THE STREET AND MAYBE NEXT DOOR.
MY POWER IS AWSOME, TRY ME YOU’LL SEE, BUT IF YOU DO YOU MAY NEVER BREAK FREE.
JUST TRY ME ONCE AND I MAY LET YOU GO, BUT TRY ME TWICE AND I’LL OWN YOU SOUL.
WHEN I POSSES YOU YOU’LL STEAL AND YOU’LL LIE, YOU’LL DO WHAT YOU DO, JUST TO GET HIGH.
THE CRIMES THAT YOU’LL COMMIT, FORM MY NARCOTIC CHARM, WILL BE WORTH THE PLEASURE YOU’LL FEEL IN YOUR ARMS.
YOU’LL STEAL FROM YOUR MOTHER, YOU’LL STEAL FROM YOUR DAD, WHEN YOU SEE THEIR TEARS, YOU SHOUD BE SAD.
YOU’LL FORGET YOUR MORALS AND HOW YOU WERE RAISED, I’LL BE YOUR CONSCIENCE, I’LL TEACH YOU MY WAYS.
I TAKE KIDS FROM PARENTS AND PARENT FROM KIDS, I TURN PEOPLE FROM GOD AND SEPARATE FRIENDS.
I’LL TAKE EVERYTHING FROM YOU, YOUR LOOKS AND YOUR PRIDE. I'LL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU. RIGHT BY YOUR SIDE.
YOU’LL GIVE UP EVERTHING, YOUR FAMILY, YOUR HOME,YOUR FRIENDS YOUR MONEY, THEN YOU’LL BE ALONE.
I’LL TAKE AND TAKE, TILL YOU HAVE NOTHING TO GIVE. WHEN I’M FINISHED WITH YOU. YOU’LL BE LUCKEY TO LIVE.
IF YOU TRY BE WARNED, THIS IS NO GAME, IF YOU GIVE ME A CHANCE I’LL DRIVE YOU INSANE.
I’LL RAVISH YOUR BODY, I’LL CONTROL YOUR MIND, I’LL OWN YOU COMPLETLE, YOUR SOUL WILL BE MINE.
THE NIGHTMARES I BRING YOU, WHILE LYING IN BED, THE VOICE YOU’LL HEAR INSIDE YOUR HEAD.
THE SWEATS THE SHAKES, THE VISIONS YOU’LL YOU SEE, I WANT YOU TO KNOW THERE ALL GIFTS FROM ME.
BUT THEN IT’S TO LATE, YOU’LL KNOW IN YOUR HEART, THAT YOU ARE MINE AND WE SHALL NEVER PART.
YOU’LL REGRET YOU TRIED, THEY ALWAYS DO, BUT YOU CAME TO ME, NOT I TO YOU.
YOU KNEW THIS WOULD HAPPEN, MANY TIMES YOU WERE TOLD, YOU CHALLENGED MY POWER, YOU CHOOSE TO BE BOLD.
YOU COULD OF SAID NO AND JUST WALKED AWAY, IF YOU COULD LIVE THAT DAY OVER WHAT WOULD YOU SAY.
I’LL BE YOU MASTER YOU’LL BE MY SLAVE. I’LL EVEN GO WITH YOU, WHEN YOU GO TO YOUR GRAVE.
NOW THAT YOU MET ME. WHAT WILL YOU DO, WILL YOU TRY ME OR NOT, IT’S ALL UP YO YOU.
I CAN BRING YOU MORE MISERY THEN WORDS CAN TELL. COME TAKE MY HAND, I’LL TAKE YOU TO HELL.
Nov 30, 2014
Nov 30, 2014 at 10:09 AM UTC
I fell into a trap- deep and damp and dark.
And my chest was tight and heaving.
A place where the light would refuse to come, a place of solitude.
A place without you.
You are my sunshine, but you won't shine for me.
I am so in love with you.
May 14, 2014
May 14, 2014 at 6:36 PM UTC
What should i do when all i have is myself to lose.
Run this way,when my mind is telling me to run another
&&never; listen to another,&love; God like no other,&show; my love
towards everyone.What should i do,when my heart is telling me,something
but my ears refuse to listen..&&my; body is taking over everything,
My love is under all my pain..&⁢'s driving me insane,hope i will l
earn to love the same.
Jun 14, 2013
Jun 14, 2013 at 3:49 PM UTC
IT IS AT ONCE
( for Monica )
It is at once
nothing and everything.
A simple incident
on meeting.
"Your shoelace is open
Mr. Dempsey."
she tells him in case he
shoud fall or stumble.
"I know that love
but I can't get down to it."
So, Monica Sweeney
kneels and ties
my father's undone shoelace.
This simple act of compassion
and respect for his age
achieves for him
almost Biblical proportions.
It's almost insignificance
a tiny treasure."
"It was like being Christ..."
he will tell me after as
only he could tell it
each telling bringing tears.
"...having his feet dried
by Mary Magdalene's hair."
Even in his dying
he will recall it
" that lady helped me
whenI couldn't help myself
she was kindness itself"
It was at once
everything and nothing
Sep 22, 2017
Sep 22, 2017 at 4:38 AM UTC
you shoud give in to temptation, at least that is what wilde tells us. but if you do, if you allow your soul's deepest wish to come true, dont you just give room for more? more to wish for more to hope for? is that really any better than keeping a temptation?
Jan 17, 2018
Jan 17, 2018 at 3:12 PM UTC
It must be a dream but I don't remember closing my eyes, it truely is a dream
I don't remember reality feeding me lies
If you crave a happy ending then clearly you haven't been paying attention
This must be the ally I heard about
Keep breathing which is hard when panic pushes oxygen into my lungs
This isn't my bed, its unfamiliar, there shoud be another way to explain it
A doorway but no door, should I call for help Wait I'm dreaming
Do you know what's going on?
Ignoring the freakness moving closing closest I feel the burn, I'm squessing my fits
I'm not looking to get saved, I'm grown
I'm a lady I should wake up and go ***
Mar 29, 2014
Mar 29, 2014 at 1:57 PM UTC
I know I should be grateful
because I have all to be:
I've got a house and food
and people to bother me;
And I know I should be grateful
to be made someone someday,
why I'm not a can't say.
We made things harder by making them easier,
I should think about school,
about grades and the rules
I should keep myself busier!
I shoud look myself more tidy,
I should speak like this and that,
Your baldness and healthy skin
are caused by the same hat.
I should be so much
that I don't want too!
I'm thinking of Greek afternoons, and islands and butterflies...
May 16, 2018
May 16, 2018 at 1:30 PM UTC
I told them that what bothered me was
Everything and nothing in particular
Shoud it provide comfort?
To not have a demon?
To not have a cause?
To not have an answer?
Questions and tears are all that’s left
Broken hearts, broken bottles, broken lives
Tear and Tear and Tear at the very root of my soul
No one knows the future,
And even less know the past.
We just sit here,
Stationary
Plagued by those momentary thoughts of hope
Only to realize, that hope is fleeting
Love
Fear
Death
Cries
All succumb to the nature of what it is to be:
Human
Sep 21, 2015
Sep 21, 2015 at 11:33 PM UTC
I can't feel anything.
I'm just empty.
I can't absorb everything.
I'm so lonely.
I can't just take this.
I feel so gloomy.
What shoud I do?
May 19, 2021
May 19, 2021 at 6:20 AM UTC
Only one
Love
Only one
Life
Only one
Lesson
To learn
...
...
....
On broken streets
Broken people still dream
Dream of you
Dream that you shall be here
••
The healer has a song
He constantly sings it
And the wind becomes
Healing hands
And lo!
Your face!
••
Naked dancer o'er the high hill
Greets the Dawn
••
Naked high school girl on ****** sheets
Creates the Pain
••
In the background
lady Gaga
Gags me out the door with a spoon
Singing the glory of the ****
••
On and on
••
You so decent
So devoted to the truth you seek
-----
You
A god!
A goddess!
MY HEART IS BREAKING!
seeing you like you are
-/--/-
Only one love
Life
Lesson to learn
••
We stagger along alone
We shoud simply stop and heal ourselves
But we don't
Oct 1, 2013
Oct 1, 2013 at 2:07 PM UTC
Everytime she speaks her word
It collides in my hopeful heart
As well with her being dexterous
I'm left thunderstruck in any way of art
Her confidence and adroit attitude
Made her sparkle more than a star
She bright up the universe of whom
Even in a distant, even in miles of hour
She lights the path that followed by me
She became my guide as I look upon
her aesthetic look
Everything I see is just so true and near
Her love that's written in many books
I know her glowing heart is given to me
I shoud keep and love it like it's mine
Her smile when she says I love you sincerely
A moment that I will always want to
repeat all the time
Oct 1, 2018
Oct 1, 2018 at 9:12 AM UTC