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Himanshu rajput Dec 2015
Tanha yuhi kat jata safar agar tum sath na hote.....
manzil yuhi rhe jaati agar tum sath na hote....

dekhu to duniya mai saari magar....
ye rang dekh na pau....
jee kar bhi is duniya me....
adhoora bin tere rhe jau....

ye baarish yuhi tham jaati ager tum sath na hote....
ye duniya meri tham jaati agar tum sath na hote....

me jaanu to duniya ko kaeyi naam se.....
me jaanu mujhe bs tere naam se....
ye duniya na jaan paati mujhe....
jo ye lafz meri phechaan na hote....

ye naam yu he bikhar jata ager jo tum sath na hote....
hasti meri mar jaati ager tum phechaan na hote....

By : HR COLLECTION
Shivam Porwal Jan 2018
1 nayi raah ko chunna chahta hoon,
sabse kuch hatkr kuch naya, kuch alag karna chahta hoon,

Ha tum sahi samjh rhe **

mein udna chahta hoon!!!

Bhut kuch paane ki tadap hai abhi mujhme,
Us tadap ko hmesha zinda rkhna chahta hu,
Haan mein udna chahta hoon..

Apne dil me chupe jazbato ko bayyan karna chahta hu,
Apne hunar or kabiliyat se apni pehchan bnana chahta hu ,
Haan mein udna chahta hoon...

Dusro ko sabit krne ke liye nahi apne liye jeena chahta hu,
Apne hatho ki lakeero me mehnat aur kamyabi ke rang bhar dena chahta ***,
Haan mein udna chahta hoon..

Ye alag rasta shyd abhi logo ko samjh nhi aaega,
Kai baar shayd mera mzak bhi bnaya jaega,
Pr fir bhi usi kaam ko puri mehnat, shiddat aur dil ke sath karna chahta hoon,
Haan mein udna chahta hoon..

Aasman ki bulandiyo ko choona chahta hoon
Lakho zindagiyo ke liye 1 misaal Banna chahta hoon...

Haan mein udna chahta hoon
Haan mein udna chahta hoon !!!!



By : Shivam Porwal
Give wings to your dreams and get succeed in life
Tanuj Bhati Dec 2015
[] Ldkiyo pr ** rha  h atiyachaar
[ ]
[
] Hum dekh rhe hoke laachaar
[ ]
[] Ldkiya kr rhi desh k hr insaan se ek hi pukaar
[ ]
[
] Jago or in aatiyachaariyo ka kr do vinaas
[ ]
[] Kya dalega is gungi bhri srkaar ka achaar
[ ]
[
] Din pr din bad raha is desh me bhirstachaar
[ ]
[] Ab wo din aagya jb sbko uthana h hathiyaar
[ ]
[
] Or krna h sbko milkr in jalimo ka satiyanass
[ ]
[] Ksm khate h  fir na hoga damini jsa kisi k sath
[ ]
[
] Fir hr ldki niklegi ghar se hokr bilkul aajaad
[ ]
[]  ldkiyo pr ** rhe h atiyachaar
[ ]
[
] Dekh rhe h hum hoke laachaar
Simran pawar Aug 2020
Waqt ne waqt ko smjha diya ki ab vo waqt nhi h .
Jis waqt ki jarurt muje **,
Aur vo waqt mere kam ka **,
Fir bhi vo waqt ka shakhs yu shamne aa jata h,
Aur muje es waqt se us waqt ka safar kara deta h ,
Jaha ab vo meri manzil nhi h,
Bhad chuki hu me us waqt se lad kar,
Fir bhi kisi shaam vo waqt andero ki tarha yaad a jata h.
Fir m es waqt ko bhul,
Us waqt me kho jati hu.
Aur ye waqt
Waqt hi rhe jata h.
kalpana Kaushik Oct 2015
Ek rukha aasman ...ek pyasi jameen...esi hi kuch hamarI khaani.. Dooor h bhut..par nazro me basein.. Rutha ** ek to duja kaise hasse..!! Aankhe ** jab uski nam.. To bheege hum b hurdum.. Kosis bht ki nzre churane ki..par hum toh the Unke dil me phasse..!! Aankho se hi wo izhaar kr gye ..or hum sochte rhe ...unse khe kaise... !! Alag hme b kuch krna..tha...to kuch esa kia.. Maanga jo usne hath toh hmne <3 dil hi de dia !! Waqt b kitna bewafa h bin bole hi nikal.gya... Or wo ret ki trh meri muthhi se fisal gya..!! Wo sapna tha ya hqiqat BS m sochti rhti hu.. Uss hwa ka jhoka h wo..jiske sang m aaj b bahti hu !!!!
RACHANA Dec 2016
DIL - DIL SE

DIL DIL SE ** JAYE KHFA THO KYA ** .
KHFA HOKE CHUUT JAYE THO KYA **.
SATH CAHA THA KISI APNE KA WO APNA HI SATH NAA AYE THO KYA **.
KADAM SE KADAM CLNA THA USKE SATH WO NAA CHAL PAYE THO KYA **.
HUM THO INTJAR KRTE RHE UNKA MAGER YEE INTJAR HI RHE JAYE THO KYA **.
NO
Manvee Chauhan Apr 2020
Kuch ajnabi si halchal..
Kuredd rhi hamare Dil ko pal pal!!
Najaane kya bayaan krna chahti h..
Shayad aane waali koi aandhi h, Jo Hume barbaad krna chahti h!!
Najjane kya Sandesh lekar aai...
Shayad nhi samjh paa rhe hum iski gehraai!!
Kuch andherapan sa chaa rha h...
Jo Hume shayad pal pal maar rha hai!!
Kuch to ajeeb baat hai...
Shayad aane waali ek kaali Raat h!!
Shayad koi apna hi hai iske piche..
Jo dhakel rha Hume sabse niche!!
Shayad qismat mein hai yahi Likha ...
Ki Hain hum uski life ka ek maamuli sa sikka!!
Jo shayad koi keemat nhi rakhta h...
Lekin vo shayad nhi jaanta ki ye sikka Uske liye Jaan Dene ki Bhi himaat rakhta h!!!!!
                                    - manvee chauhan
Survived Mar 2019
Abhi toh aadhi raat hi hai,
Din ka aana abhi baki hai

Abhi toh unki aankhon mai khona suru hi kiye hai, unki yaadon mai khona abhi baki hai

Abhi toh unke lafzo ko hi sun paa rhe hai,
Unki saanson ko sunna abhi baki hai

Abhi toh bas beete hue pal hi yaad aa rhe hai, aane wale kal ko samjhna abhi baki hai

Abhi toh khuda se lad pare hai hum,
Unhe manna ke tumhe pana abhi baki hai

Abhi toh bas tum humse dur hue **,
tumhra wapas aake hume gale se lagana
abhi baki hai.

Abhi toh aadhi raat hi hai,
Din ka aana abhi baki hai
Abhishek kumar Jun 2018
Na hogi ab koi baat
Na hi hogi koi mulakat
Ab hum chalte hai
Bahut rhe liye ek bewafa ke sath

Tujhse na baat karne ka dukh toh hoga
Tujhse na milne ka afsoos bhi rhega
Par koi baat nhi
Jo hoga achhe ke liye hi hoga

Gussa na samjhna ise
Kyuki vo toh aata hi nhi mujhe
Kahi na kahi pyar hi hoga mera
Bas prkar alag hoga

Achha ab chalta hu
Khat chhota hi rehne deta hu
Apna aakhri pegaam bas yehi deta hu
Tumse milna ka toh nhi
Par tere salamat rehne ki duaa karta hu
Nat Lipstadt Sep 2023
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IF we are each created in His image,
how glorious is the diversity of our deities
,
each of us a tiny drop of paint on a tableau
of a small planet, insignificant but
uniquely beautiful intelligent species of godlike creatures,

deities~human

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wise enough to know mine philosophical shortcomings,
for they are many,
insufficient wisdom, more than sufficient laziness,
but sometimes even the *o b v i o u s

strikes a rhyming chord,
even so, delving into God’s image
is for the foolhardy,
ergo ipso facto,
I am that,
that fool

but the boundaries of common sense poetry,
offer healthy delimitations,
and as rhe day wanes, eyes go blurry,
I am content to laurels~rest:

I do not count the times,
I’ve called out my beseeching deities,
I do not count the numbers of names,
we have designated and available for them,
or how many I’ve employed, and which replied
or the varied shapes they assumed,
to get my attention,

but this is a poem,
cannot leave you hanging,
if you paid your dues for joining me this far:
the due is due you:


them
(their ONLY pronoun),
keep their answers
short and oft inexplicable,
yet strangely satisfying,
for being a deity
they employ common sense,
and the answers frequently found
on a list of Frequently Answered Questions (FAQ‘s)

the most common response,

“but you already knew that!”
10:28pm
Sep 21~23, 2023
nyc
Shabdo ke guldaste se likhte hain yaara,
Khuda kasam aapke bin dil nahi lagta humara.

Aap is dil ki dadhkan **,
Aaj fir se pukar rhe hain sun tou lo.

Suna hai dil ke rishtey bin kahe sab sun lete,
Laga lo kaske apni jaan ko gale se.

Aaj keh rhe hain mohabbat hai beinteha tumse,
Kabhi juda na hona humse.

Aapke bina jiya jaye na,
Maana hai tumhe khuda.

Aap par kabhi koi aanch na aane denge,
Har takleef khud seh lenge.

Shayar ** tum,
Ghazal hai hum.

Diya ** tum,
Baati hain hum.

Naina ** tum,
Roshni hain hum.

Khuda ** tum,
Bhakt hain hum.

Ek pal bhi na jaana dur,
Ye dil ** jayega chur chur.

Is duniya mein har koi bs rulana jaanta,
Aapse milkar ye dil ne seekha dadhakta.

Ek aap hi ** jeene ki wajah hamari,
Aapkebin ye naadan hai adhuri.

Maaf krna agar humse kabhi koi bhul ** jaye,
Aapke khatir hum apni jaan kurbaan kar jaye.

Aye hawa pahucha de un tak mere paigaam,
Unke bin hum hai gumnaam.

Har saans par bs naam hai tumhara,
Zindagi jeene ka ek hi maksad hai hamara.

Lafzon mein baya nahi kar sakte ,
Hum aapko kitna hai chahte .

Taqdeer hamari hai khushnaseeb,
Jo aap hain is dil ke itne kareeb .
Nat Lipstadt Sep 2024
awas amidst
the bits and bobs of my pseudo-sleep,
check my watch oft habitually,
understand
that the precisive time is not
what I seek,

no,
what I desire is reassurance of
some sort, that time is present,
that it is
a measurable actuality in,

my about,
a breathable actuality
woven into my
Body’s  Constructional
Constitutional Cconsciousness


that time is there, here,
for it is rhe

wondrous of all wonder,
it is a
present of, from,
and,
is love itself,

love is time…
(think on it)

it is all and only
butpossibility,
the future in
slow mo
is both
realizable & visible ,
even some part knowable;
its somes & sums,
as we daily
practice realizing it,
as if
time is a
smuggler of snuggles,
comforting but not
for too long
like
a new lover’s
exploratory
beginning beguiling explanations
reforming our ardor
into
viability

or

a glove
asking us each:
slow s l i d e
your hand inside,
then,
newly commence
waving yours,
airy all about

conducting a new self
into your
precious moment of precarious
existence,
that we dare not waste!

so:
write and right
are no accident,
but purposed
equals,
friends,
brothers and sisters,
one and both
coexisting
at
in
the same time…
writ in the dark hours
when the watch
watches over me
9/17/24
Warren-Johnson Aug 2018
Why do I even bother ?
Oh this is not a poem to sway you with romantic words, no infact i probably won’t share this with whom it belongs.
No more an apology, and reallity check for me!
Oh but that be said without malice for you!
Rather all I do is ***** things up!
Even though I’d try my heart to make sure to get it right with every intention to make your day!
I’d get it wrong I don’t even truly know where I went wrong!
But somehow hurt you i did!
Thats more painfully riviting ro my core far more than you pushing me away!
Many words come to mind from pathetic, useless, idiotic. Waste of human space, and many more, sad to describe anyone as this sadder realising this of oneself!
Should have got right the first time and save everyone the waste of time!
Have had to get my head around not doing anything they call stupid for so long, i honestly strugle to find a reason to carry on!  For what? Why?
And mostly cant say it would stupid, no be thei ly thing i can  think would make sense!
To hurt the one i love no matter what i do ill ***** it up!
Hurting you is an unbearable thought!
How could i live with myself?
Cant see how i can get rhrough that
Let alone this pain!
You mean so much to me!
Ive said is take a bullet for you! (Die for you)
But would rather live for you !
Now if you not there?
Cant see much hope at all !
No where! All rhe general reasons everyone would usually morivate you with, would hold so little weight!
This pain be out of this world i try but  cant expain this be of magnitudes earthquakes couldnt measure on the same scale!
And somehow i try find that reason in fear of hurting other loved ones!
Somehow i rather find hope!
Not the hope youd think though!
Oh no this is hope that my loved ones (famil)  will understand this pain and somehow forgive me for my intention be not to hurt  them, but to find ease finnaly!
Comfort knowing id be not the reson orhers will hurt tomorrow!
Yes dark and dismal thoughts!
Or are they?
Are they not in other ways considerate?
Oh oh i lean to think so..
Cassandra Leigh Nov 2014
I cannot connect
When i am in a room full of people i hide myself away in boxes
I was told once that we accept rhe love we think we deserve but i feel that i deserve solitude
I cannot escape the grasps of this all encompassing self loathing, and hatred, and pity
I know that I cannot love you until i learn to love myself
But no one ever told me how impossible that would be
Connect
Lets retrace
Back to amazing grace
Singin' ***** hymns
In front of the nations face
Wither it be
Conscious or nonconscious community
These fools be sellin' they
Compositions for free
Naw not me
Uh i pulled my bat and gat out
To let these fools know what we about ?
My goon soon to open up ya wombs
Til you last drop of blood now taste the tombs
Death aint strange things done changed
It wasnt long ago before i had much dough
Livin' the high life
Then a flash before my eyes
I seen my homies lose they life
Uh first he came with the pain
Had all eyes on him
Hail mary called em home
Ya know who im. Talkin' bout
Listen to the words of the song
Theres many more
I got my first buzz off purple haze
Uh jimmy souls still singin'
My hearts clingin'
On to all the *******
My minds everywhere but still cant
Find peace
So i pack a steel piece
Foreeal cuz fools be watchin' what ya say
Cuz if ya dont
Youll be dead naked or drugged out the next
Day
And the media knows rhe truth
But they exchange there souls for riches
Tiny grains of sand just like gold
And someday i will fold
**** the law and yall.tell.me what ye saw?
When i broke the jaws
Off lady liberty
The bit ch aint defendin' me
Or my homies
*****!!!!!! Its a conspiracyyyyy



They say im crazy and that my minds lazy
Cuz dont nothing phase me
Anymore i used to cry alot
But know im a grown man
So i hide alot
Of pain diggin' out my brain
Im growin' frantic
**** near insane
So im just letting yo know
Im on the urge of a ****
As freee will
Im going to defend mine
No heart for one time and many seen
The flat line
They claim they want peace
But all i see is war
Are we ever gonna even the score?
What happened with Michael
Wasnt that some bumshit
Everytime somebody get conscious
They quick to silence the prophets of the pulpit
And when they reach no one takes it
Serious they classify you delirious
This is serious
I aint playing no games
So ya need to quit snortin'
That in yo brain
Tv ******' up ya cognizance
And comprehension
Break the slavery chains
Free ya mental detention
And once ya get free
Youll see what i see
Money makes the world go around
Which in society is labelled as God
How odd?
Is that imagine that?
A world chasin' false reality
Givin they dreams to facade a fantasy
Sports
Is a joke how about we loot the courts
And hit em in the skirts
Bow down leave they ***** in dirt
I love pain
It make me focus more
Adrenaline rush til ya head touch
The floor of the concrete
Stiff with cold feet
Brace ya self in my shoes
What the **** would you do?
If the boys in blue was after you?
Protect all by means necessary
Like malcolm i see the cemetery
In the future
No fear in my soul im standing bold
So you fools keep on eyein' me
Your just proving my
Conspiracyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!! $
yea i got young honeys
that sell me drug money
aint nothin funny
******* like Gunny
boys intervene leave they necks runny
it dont matter the time crime
down for mine everytime
i pull the nine flat line
or machete
chop ya up like spaghetti
thwy wasnt ready
for yosef coming most of
rhe lyric so funky foggy
ya clear it periods
they cab see me drug slangin
mute those who lippin
tippin on my qs in case of set trippin
load them clips in
call a few of my partners
or disciples in
after couple shots of hen and gin
we put an end to sin and then
theyll remeber
the yosef cold as the december
month pull stunts
stay skunked and drunked
almost dunk
my mind into a pit of hell
my story neva fails
if ya crosss ill still prevail
living well
lookin for ghost to
come out they shell
ya cant bail im on ya trail
sell yeyo
cuz be fienin for yummy
crummy
for the love of that moneyyy!!!!


Foe the luv of them greens
**** and money
Got me chasin fantasies
I'm stuck in a daisy never me lazy crazy
As can be put yo chips my chips in
An nd together we could be rippin
Up mics smokin em like pipes
My yearn for these dead presidents
Might cost ya life and you'll be
Living with dead resident never hesitant
To make moves to show and prove
And you know who?
Be coming with 64s top low
Haters stay low or embrace the halo
Luv the smell of yeyo
To my nose takin major blows
Quick dose of reality my locality
Be in the pits of hell o well
Take a trip wirh me as I sail
Through ocean of money
So fools don't think it's funny
I'm coming up quick with them knots
Sells from fat rocks
Cuz I Be itching for the luv of the moneyyyyyyy
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2018
The sky opened
Wirh a smile, watched the clouds clear
I see sun for the first time in awhile
I lean into your arms and am held near.

Energy flowing between us has me thinking of infinity
An eternity with you still would not be long enough
Every conversation I joyfully drink like whiskey
There is always a laugh with you, even when life gets rough.

Your kiss dulls sharp sting of pain
I know your comforting words always exist
The moon rises up each night just for us
You wake with an expression I cannot resist.

When dew clings to emerald blades of grass
It is almost as if they're crying over rhe beauty of our bond
All the worries flee my anxious mind
Time makes me grow more and more fond.
I feel the ending may be a little abrupt
Diya soni Jun 2023
Koi mujhe hi aake bata de kya h mere man ka hal? Kyuki me bezuban hu.

Koi mujhe hi aake bata de ki me kya chahti hu, kyuki me kayar hu

. Koi mujhe hi aake sikha de apne liye ladna  kyuki me mashroof hu apne khilaf gawahi dene me.

Koi mujhe hi aake dhund de mujhe,
Rasta jo bhatak chuki hu
Aur rah milne wale log bhi jaha pohchna na h waha ka pata sahi nai bata rhe

Pata nai roshni aur kitni door h, shayad koi dur se batti dikha de ki manzil waha h

Koi mujhe bata de ki hadson ki wajah se
Andr sab kuch bikhar chuka h ya abhi kuch baki h

Koi to ** jo mujhe bata de ki jo me hu aur jo me hona chahti thi, in dono ko kese ek karu

H koi esa raahi? Jo mujhe hi dekh kr bataye me kitna dur aa chuki hu, kyuki meri raahein to dhundli dikhti h mujhe

Aao aur mujhe batao meri kimat kitni h iss safar me.. kyuki mera hisab bigad diya h duniya ne
DiamondGirl Jul 2015
My eyes are swollen shut
I could never spell anyway
So I will just write the blurry words
Pushing their way out
Out of me

I am confused
Do rhe right thing be ignored
Do the wrong thing
Get his attention but he'll call you a *****
Cook and clean and be ready for love
It's simply not enough
Give less
give it to someone else
All his "feelings" come up
What the ****
I give up
Your being used by subliminal clues
The media leaves you
Lost and confused bemused
By topics using our labor for profits
Government been aware
Straight truths no dare as i stare
Down into the valley of darkness
Killed off the old me but theres no carcass mark this
The day and age turned the spiritual page
What i saw my soul got enraged and engaged
Into a mental state of mind
That the average couldn't understand
If i told them mines
Dreams im speaking on
Everybody around me a mime
Silenced brains make for an easy drain
Got pharmaceutical drugs
Pushing legal *******
To the grain
But dont want ya smoking marijuana
But if i smoke marijuana
Then im a gonna
Loading penitentiaries to profit fat greedy wealthy
Elitist im sick of this
World we living since the first planted sin
In the garden Of Eden
Who do you believe in?
Is it Christ Horus Allah or Buddhas teaching
While they got books placed
For you read in if you in
To the problems that arise
Youll see the got us hypnotize
By the idiot box droppin' everyday
Delays say we on our way
Up but its going reverse
**** the curse the struggles getting worse
Sooon jobs well be in a hearse
And replace by robots
Industrialism was really meant to be a prison sharpen your visions
Maybe you can see the decisions
Made by the whitehouse
Pushing us closer to rfids if you don't believe me?
Check all over ya cars is chipped
Debit to credit cards chipped
Animals chipped electronic devices chipped
Now they trying to get us chipped
Fools tryna play God end up on the side against all Odds
Play the game carefully yea
Its like moves of chess or monopoly
Taking all properties
How is there is price on earth
When everything in the open is free
But then came along man
Yeah i mean demi god fallen angles
Giving mankind jingles and dangle
With unknown spirit cuz they fear it
Ignorin' instincts causin' trama to grow
But rather follow cash rolls
Only to take bad toll
Down the valley of deathrows
Add the bottom of the abyss
It aint no shadows just demons that flow
And go in and out ya temple
Mankind soo simple
Thinking they better then universe
But nature always wins just check rhe curse
God showing creations like roses sprouting up out of cracked concretes
Lets me know humans already in defeat
And build over just fr it to happen again
We waged with sin soon to end
Cant wait til the world crumbles
Watching how many spirits tumble
And become humble
Beg for redemption
But God will reject your soul aint no exemptions
Whooaaa
Akta Agarwal Mar 2021
Har pal yh baat satati hai
Aaene hme fir dikhati hai
Bewafae ni hmari yh hai
Magar kehe na sake ki tujhe ab v cahteh hai
Tune waadeh kiye the waqt dene ka hme
Magar fir na ske apna hme
Mauka v diya or dastur v hmne
Par sayad kismat m na tha saath hmara
Cahat tu hi jo rhe mera
Pr mere mohabhat pe na hoga koe hq tera
Cahat hr baar mukammal nhi hoti it h
Vladimir s Krebs Nov 2015
i have crashed in to the middel of the desert. i have lost hope since theres nothing out here to save my words to write my fear of dying. i feel like im spinning in my own memories that fade away. i keep seeing the same patch of rocks. i dont know but i need the cool shad befor i fall over. i could keep walking but theres no chance of sivilization so maybe ill scream and go crazy.  i keep walking the sand rocks. but its just the circles that trapme in my own insaine liitle game. the wild greens i ate have mad me additted to rhe barries witch bring a high.  the heat grows stronger. i even wonder who i am since theres no name to even know me. the san feels nice on my feet but the sun blisters my patciants its own self.  i feel like i am going in cicles  when i dont know who the **** i am. my madness has grew and my addition to the barries made time stop.
i was board when i couldnt think
poeticalamity Jan 2014
hopefully the cage around my heart
finally (lets) me go free tonight
my feet are ready to (run)
and sprint and fly
(away) from all the things
that have me stapled to rhe ground,
i am not put (together) like i should be anymore
Me and You May 2014
In the middle there is a black stone
With white lines written on it:

This will give you a new name
And new hope.

And as the pretty sound of these words fades, i hear a new sound.

It is the bright laughter of two children in rhe rain -

And the light begins to shine infinitely
Akta Agarwal May 2021
Dharam K naam or hote dange h
Dharam K naam pe khote insaniyt h
Akhir yh dharam h kya
Hindu, muslim, eshahi
Kya hm kisi K khun s dharam ka pta lga sakte h
Fir yh dharam nibhana etna jaruri q h
Q dharam K naam pe insaano ko bata jata h
Kya dharam h sarwopari h
To fir yh insaaniyt Kay h
agr insaaniyt nibhane K liye dharam ki maryada tuti to yh paap kese h
Q un dange pashad m Kuch maasum bchcho ki masumiyt chinta yh smaaj h
Aakhir dharam kese bdha hua jb wo glt rash m hi le jata h
aakhir q yh log dharam K arth ko bigaar rhe h
Or jhuti insaaniyt K naam or insaan ko maar rhi h
Aakhir q?
Jordan St Angelo Jul 2022
smile now act like you're
happy
"You are happy"
That is a lie

Snile now act like it's not so bad
"It's not so bad"
That's so ******* hollow, dude.

I am overcome by nostalgia for experiences that occured years and decades before I was born.
I ******* hate grunge music.
I should have been a cis white male privilege zshielded ignorant beatnik
I should be tripping ***** on mescaline with Kerouac and  Cassady at this very moment.
I am overcome by many things.
By many feelings  .
Many bottles of whiskey.
Many capsules of vyvanse
Many failed put option bets
Many failed courtships
Many fleeting pursuits of soulmates and joy innate.

I choose to live.
I want to die.
Thos does jot not matter.
This may be resurrected respected from the archives one day
One day will likely statiaically probably not occur

What's going on Bunker Club?
I could make there for a rojnd or two before last call

I want to die i choose to live

I suppose there are no .ore beatniks by thos point

I wonder what Cassady Kerouac or the one dude whome I love but am too fu ked up to remember his name the ine that wrote Howl yeah that one all of th

I qonder would they qould have done given these modern soma tools
Given these fentanyl laced uppers
Given this rising tide of fascism and plasti. Refuse

I wonder...

No one cares
N o on e matter
S
Nothing is or has ever been anyth
Ing

I wonder an db I wish
And I must have lost track of the substance here

I wonder was Ginsberg, yeah that was his name, I wonder what Ginsberh would haave done hiven all that's going on.
Given all that I have amd most. Ertainly don't have.
I wonder what he would have to say about all of this then

I wonxer if he qould still Ginsberg that genius ****** HOWL as hard now as he did in rhe fu ki.g 50s.

I wonder if she ever loved me.
I wonder if I ever loved.
I woncer if any of this was genous
And I wonder if this was all jist the alcohol drug addled  futile selfindilgent ******* that it seems to neeee

Maybe it's art
Maybe it is

Maybe you should go outside
Maybe I sbould eat a meal

Maybe everyone shod just
At the very least
Ask themselves how the personally define the concept of happiness
Maybe theyvand we and i should think about tha

Maybe wr should be happy
Maybe i should be happy

Maybe this is art
Maybe this is nothing
Maybe this is sibstance abuse
Maybe when I doe they'll gind this a ccount 20 years latet and study it in text books
Maybeayyne you sho)uld go outside amd
Maybe
Maybaybe
You should ask yourself what the definition of happiness really
Is
CommonStory Feb 2019
Before I start this

Thank you,

I used to be so helpful

I need to call my momma

I think I need a girlfriend

Time to talk to papa

I used be so different

Now I know the problem

Maybe I should love her

But where's the issue

Maybe I should bleed

But I am not a cutter

I love the pleasure sensation

But not the feeling of slicing my skin like butter

On a summer day

A wonderful day

Through my skin with an iron dagger like a tragic story

I need to get my ****

All together probably

I need to stop my procrastination

Well maybe I'll start tomorrow

Where are all my virtues

Behind the sins I follow

This is not the issue even the though rhe consequence follows in sequential order
Bordered on my persons if the action do more than my conciousness can fathom i shall falter with this ******* world

That's why papa said my **** is int he dirt

But I do not like cabbage

Maybe a couch potatoe

why does it even matter

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Please read the disclaimer

In this day and age of digital things

I got everything I really should need????
Copyright Matthew Marquis Xavier Donald 2/22/2019

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