"nevaeh" poems
***Our story begins in a galaxy far far away
on the dark chocolate side of The Milky Way
the planets all look like cookies and donuts
boys and girls grow to be bakers and astronauts
they have five different planets that orbit two suns
****** is smaller and Butter is the bigger one
the first is Glazey-1 the second is Eclarian-2
spell Heaven backwards and Nevaeh-3 comes into view
the forth is my favorite, they call it Smore-4
most well known for it’s white melting core
and last but certainly not least is Oreo-5
it’s surface is hardest and is smallest in size
a special place for sure is this sweet solar system
planets sparkle after a sugary rain sweetens and mists ‘em
watch a cartoon, blow a balloon or hum your favorite tune
or you can do as I do, and wish upon Macaroon Moon***
May 31, 2015
May 31, 2015 at 9:47 AM UTC
*My children are always on my mind
The God
The evil
The aluminati
The government
My relationship status
Dinner
Laundry
Clean the house
Loneliness
Go to work
grocery shopping
Feed Chika and Spike
I wish my best friend loved himself
Why won't my girls stop fighting
I wish Mickayla respected me as I taught her to respect others
I wish Nathan was closer
I wish Nevaeh could be greatful
I wish I could know true love
why can I think of nothing
why do I feel empty
I love my friends
I miss my friends
I want to go to Zims
I want to have a good time
I need a vacation
Why do I have to fight with my kids for help
Why won't Brian help himself be happy
I can't I help myself be happy
I'm always up and down
I'm pretty today
I wonder if I work the bar this weekend
What is so wrong with me I'm undateable
I have so much **** to do where do I start
**** I've a dysfunctional crazy family
I wish someone would take me by the throat throw me down pin me to the bed and **** me like they can't help but want me so bad
I miss some of my old friends
I love long hot baths
I wish it where summer all the time
I wish I saw my parents more
There's never enough time
Why am I so alone
Why am I so uncontented
I want to cut but I wont
What is my porpoise
I hope I don't **** my kids up too bad
I want to die but cant
God, I know you can hear me; please help me
I wish I was good enough
I wish I was loved as much as I love
Frogs are cool
I'm Batman
I'm Edgar Allan Poe
I'm Tim Burton
I'm Melanie Martinez
I'm so **** shy
Why can't I let any one in
Why am I broken
I hope my kids make it further in life than I do
I wish I had all the answers
I wish someone could tell me what I need to do and help to do it
I wish I where on a kayak right now
I don't want to be single anymore
I'm over whelmed
I'm under-stimulated
I'm empty
I'm a slob
I have too many shoes
I'm a very fortunate and lucky person
I have more than most
Will anything ever be enough to make me content
I just want to be left alone
I want someone to cuddle
I'm such a **** contradiction
I wish my brother... Many things starting with that he wasn't such a fool and that he wouldn't have alienated the family
I wish I had some candy
I think I'm tired
I hope my girls had fun at the game
I'm going to bed now
Maybe I'll have more to tell tomorrow
I doubt it though
I never finish anything*
Feb 16, 2017
Feb 16, 2017 at 8:24 PM UTC
Do you see what's beneath the yks?
The sanity's madness on thrae
The liar's truth in nevaeh
Can you see what's beneath the sky?
Sep 9, 2013
Sep 9, 2013 at 9:53 AM UTC
she was 5lbs 3oz
for the circumstances, she wasn't so small
with potential to grow big and strong
but potential is different from promise
Nevaeh
her name is heaven backwards
I suppose because she was born backwards of heaven
her little heart beats so fast
Nevaeh
if her name was Heaven, do you think she still would've been born with hell pulsing through every vein in her body
do you think she would have to recieve nutrients through tubing
do you think her organs would still reject everything that could help her get healthy
do you think her mother would still be allowed to bring home the baby
do you think God would still be trying to take her away from me
Nevaeh
withdrawal is not cute. even on a baby.
Nevaeh
her mother chose for her to be born dying
Nevaeh
there is a better place, potentially
but potential isn't promise
Nevaeh
May 20, 2015
May 20, 2015 at 10:49 PM UTC
Wind chimes backward are like heaven in my
We cannot escape the past
So you and i will never last
"I love you" and lies were a blast
But even love, too, has it's final dance
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Feb 18, 2019
Feb 18, 2019 at 8:24 PM UTC
I've
loved a lot
in my lifetime
and
I've loved
many, deeply.
But She, aside from God,
is the greatest LOVE
I've ever
known
Jun 13, 2018
Jun 13, 2018 at 11:05 AM UTC
a love that is new
is unexpected
is unplanned
never a mistake, but an embraced surprise
caught in the middle
was something so innocent
not to be touched
not to be heard
not to be seen
only felt
a love that is pure
is fresh
is unpolluted
never parting from origin
a secret so hard to keep
but your burden is too heavy,
my shoulders too weak
i have to let go
he cries
he kisses goodbye
he touches you for the first and last time
i pray on my knees
holding you
the most precious of gifts in my hands
diligently made into perfect form
he and i stroke your delicate skin
knowing this is the end
a love that is forever
is strong
is unconditional
my love could not keep you with me
my strength could not keep you with me
you slipped away
love was not enough
love is never enough
Jul 16, 2018
Jul 16, 2018 at 6:29 PM UTC