Everywhere I turn
Is a memory I have to erase
An outline
I can no longer trace.

So i can enjoy life again
Without you
Stained all over it
Covered in your ink
Burned in my brain
Memories, i wish i could erase.
Itd be the easy way,
Then i’d have no pain.

Your ink bled into me
And washed out any pigment i had left.

I see flashbacks all over this town.
The places I go when I want to reflect,
Are places we had some wild ***
Places we talked for hours
And lost ourselves in
Eachother
Uncovering our purpose
Reminding you that you aren't worthless.
While you held me in your arms
And talked about quantum physics
That was so comforting
You stimulated my mind and my body
That's all I ever needed.
I was at ease,
Could have been eternity.

i also remember,
what our days would progress to be.
Your mind
turned against me.
You just want to be mr. teach

Always leaving in disdain
Feeling empty,
Feeling forbidden,
Feeling like I gave you another chunk.
You chucked it up to the dust,
And I called it love.

I’ve given you more of me than i have to myself,
You know im one of a kind,
You wont see me going down the conveyer belt.
This love is rare,
I see the good in you, and the bad too,
I actually see you
And I chose to love you.
Through and through.
Its all I know how to do.

So unhappily happy when im with you.
I had no end goal.
I became so addicted to you,
Even with all the mental abuse.

But when I leave,
i start to feel free.
You only see a glimpse of me.
But I'm still haunted by memories
What we could be

I gave so much,
All you did was take,
Spread hate,
Get irate,
Get me addicted,
And become vindictive.

Now  when I go to my safe place,
The sand in my feet,
The breeze in my hair,
The sun kissing my skin
The veil feels thin

All I see is you here.
Spread across the water
Spread across the sand,
the dirt,
and the trees.
I see a million memories at this creek,
Even though you have always been so mean to thee.

You have bled over everything,

Washed out any pigment I had left.
I just want to get back to me.
The one that Dances,
Laugh,
& Sings.

A lot of unlearning,
And reprogramming,
needs to take place
I'm not in a race,
just need to slow my pace,
thoughtwho knows how many days
It'll take.

Steady, I pave ahead
Purpose, I'm all in.
Walk the path with ease,
With grace.
I know I can't be replaced.
How could i ever forget you?
You will probably never deal with this,
Because you were never there.
Trapped in stagnant air.

I guess i was just someone there.
Someone to talk to,
did you ever try to look underneath?
when you look into my eyes..
your reflection is all you see.

But i see now.
How clear it is to me,
i gave you so much of my time.
You just took from me,
and left me empty.

a lesson, is what you are now.
You taught me,
No matter how much trying,
we are not meant to be.

you were just temporary.
Im sorry for you,
cause youll never find anyone like me.


-klarity

So over this fight
Done staying up all night
Telling myself this is alright
But this is my life.
A purpose to obtain
Yet i spend my days hiding away
Smoking away my pain
And putting on a fake face

Each hit i take
Feels like a bit of relief
With a smack in the face.

How could i be so weak?
How could i let a chemical control me?
Is it just the rush i seek?

It helps me get through the week,
But when its time to lie to asleep,
I cant help but feel all the shame
Ive buried underneath.

Answers, i seek.
I don’t want to treat myself this mean.
Through the things i eat,
And how i cope to get through my misery
Discipline, i need.

How could i be so weak?
I let a chemical
Such as nicotine
Control me.

I fade away
Into the blank space
I close my eyes,
And tell myself,
Just one more day.

I am not a sheep.
Fear and doubt have expanded within my psyche
And taken over what I truly believe.

I know I have the key.
All i need to do is one thing,
And the rest will fall into place.
Trust and believe,
The universe is listening.

My guides are waiting for me
To reclaim
The parts of me that im scared to let free.
My power,
My talent,
And my frequency.
It needs releashed.
The circle is not complete
If I keep my gifts just for me.

I must master self control
To do what is good for the soul.
So i can be free,
And truly be me.
Im halfway there,
But im gripping so tight to this pole
Why do i think i cant let go?
It feels like if i do,
The ocean will swallow me whole.
But really, home is where ill go.
The home thats been waiting for me
To grab the key
And step in

I will be my friend.
Care for myself
Reach ultimate zen
Patience is running thin

My life is not a game.
I am sick and tired
Of this recipe
That only ends
To a road of obsolete.

Nobody knows, the smile i put on is just a show.
If i can do anything,
Is to make me proud of me.

I know what i need to do.
Decide and follow through.
Maybe you wont even be so blue.
Youll be glad that you took the chance
On taking care of yourself again.

Some people, dont get that chance.
You dont need to live life so fast.
Trust and believe,
There is more than you think..
Rooting for you.
On your team.

– be the one who says they can.
Be the one who outlasts and adapts
Be the one to make people believe,
But first,
I must believe in me

Aligned
I am not out of time
I will recover
From all thats happened to me,
From this body that feels like its deteriorating.


I will  commit
Embody self discipline
And show me,
That i AM on my own team.
No more working against me..

-klarity

All i see
Uncovering in front of me
Tearing at the seam
Colors colliding
All around
Feel the sound
Frequency released

Turn around
Its you,
Staring into
The mirror reflecting
Hi, hello.
Finally facing she.
klarity
the ones that sees beneath

shadows, coming to rise
Inner child, always resides
within the frame,
& she hides,she silently cries
she hates the way she thinks
I feel her pain, i want to comfort her
Must keep her safe.

Yet, her patience grows thin
I can't keep playing pretend.
can only run from myself
For so long
Until there's no more distractions
to save me from my own self.
Sure,
Try to put the reflection on the shelf.
Did the old you fade away?
Or are you just lying to yourself
Rejecting & silencing the parts of you
that still need help.
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Keep running
Keep wishing
Keep waiting
The clock
Still ticking
Keep dancing
Until your sweet ever afters
you must see your shadows,
And not run astray
Time to integrate.
A healthy array
Of truth and acceptance

Instead of judging
Seek to understand
Is what i always say,
How about i apply it to
The one who's typing this
The who cant sleep
The one who feels the emptiness
And the bliss
Yet feeling irate.
Shes a paradox wrapped in skin
She loves herself yet she hates
& she's trapped in her brain.

What causes her to act in ways.
That she will probably rregret
Tomorrows yetserday..