"jannell" poems
LIVING IN THIS LIFE WITH NO PAIN
LIVING IN THIS LIFE WITH NOTHING TO GAIN
LIVING IN THIS LIFE NOT HAVING A CARE OF THE WORLD
LIVING IN THE LIFE OF NO SORROWS
LIVING IN THE LIFE
OF NOTHING TO LOSE
LIVING IN THE LIFE OF I DON'T CARE
LIVING IN THE LIFE WITHOUT DISSAPOINTMENT
LIVING IN THE LIFE WITHOUT THE WORDS I'M SORRY
LIVING IN THE LIFE WITHOUT TEARS
LIVING IN THE LIFE WITOUT FEAR
LIVING IN THE LIFE WITHOUT ****
LIVING IN THE LIFE WITHOUT ******
LIVING IN THE LIFE WITHOUT COMPETION
LIVING IN THE LIFE WITH NO AIDS
LIVING IN THE WITHOUT DEATH
LIVING IN THE LIFE WITHOUT WORRY
LIVING IN THE LIFE WITHOUT ANY DOUBT IN YOUR MINE
LIVING IN THE WORLD WITHOUT DRUG ADDICTS
LIVING IN THIS WORLD SAYING I'M FINE
WE CAN ONLY WISH WE LIVED IN A PERFECT WORLD BUT IN ALL REALITY YOU HAVE TO KNOW GOD DIDN'T PUT US IN THE WORLD TO BE PERFECT KNOW THAT YOUR GOING TO GO THROUGH SOME HARD TIMES IN LIFE THATS WHAT LIFE IS REALLY ABOUT KNOW THAT ITS NOT AS BAD AS IT SEEMS BUT YOU CAN'T KEEP GOING ON WITH WHY AND WHY NOTS JUST DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO TO GET WHERE YOU NEED TO BE AND YOULL BE FINE TRUST ME YOUR TIME WILL COME GOD HAS A PLAN FOR YOU
UNTIL NEXT TIME LOVE JANNELL
May 12, 2010
May 12, 2010 at 9:22 AM UTC
I can't....
Can't help these feeling
consuming me as
you assume about me,
presume to understand.
Listen sweetie -
I never had a choice
I wasn't right in my thinking.
In my reasonings left us both with
unrequested guilt.
Unanswered questions , doubted,
misguided- non-understanding,
abandoned- my un- abandoned disgust,
regretfully mistaken stolen moments,
regret deeply for not being there,
being not there even now....
Left a ache inside
for so long- I still cry,
I cry for myself too though.
It hurts to loose so much
to have nothing but questions,
doubt
wondering
wonderful bliss, mind erased...
blissfully -
no more thinking,
shaking crying,
blissful aint blessed when I had to forget.
don't speak or talk.. keep it in
deep inside
no one
tell no one.....
I was trapped,
taken,
thrown,
beaten & shaking.....
In my mind....
In my head- i felt no pain...
Lied to myself... lied about you.... about me.... about "it"...... about US.
******
Son-Of-A-Bitch!!!
Lying to me, lying to you,
lying lying lying
so much lying....
lying, drowning, dying, lying, crying, lying.......
PLEASE!!!!
how can they have lied- liars lying as i laid dreaming....
demons, screaming.....
I cried, screamed, dreamed & longed for this day
Fought & still fight for this day
A day where you'd know!
Where you unsheathe that sword-
Placed- deep in my heart, deep into my soul...
Did you know?
Did they tell you-
who I was?
Couldn't you of guessed?
Your eyes- my eyes
Your hand's - my hands
Your smile - my smile
Your laugh - its me!!!
I'm you
Your blood
My blood.
Didn't you notice
didn't you see
all me in you?
I knew from the moment your face
looked deep into my face
your shape
my shape
my mirror
your mirror.
Twin yet not - -
Mother╰♥•♥╮ Daughter
finally:
One - Whole
and
Together !
I Always Loved & Love You!
Dear child of mine -
╰♥•♥╮JANNELL ╰♥•♥╮
Always Me Ayeshah
May 7, 2010
May 7, 2010 at 12:41 AM UTC
**** **** real its crazy how you grow up so fast and all you really have is a memory of your past so you say to yourself is this real is this how i'm suppose to feel and you think of all the **** that you been through the good and the bad and you say wow what a life i had i came from nothing and i went to something ive cried tears of joy and tears of pain ive suffered and ive conquered and ive feared, feared the worst feared the best feared life feared death feared nothing feared something and im still in fear seventeen years and i feel i know a little to much growing up in the world was and still is hard but i know that im still going to continue to make it im still going to continue to try i can't give up after all the **** ive been through im going to show every one that told me i couldnt make it i can im going to prove all my enimes wrong i also know in order to keep succeeding in this life that i have to pray have faith and paitcence bt in order to do that first i have to believe in me
LOVE JANNELL
May 12, 2010
May 12, 2010 at 8:48 AM UTC