I can't....
Can't help these feeling
consuming me as
you assume about me,
presume to understand.
Listen sweetie -
I never had a choice
I wasn't right in my thinking.
In my reasonings left us both with
unrequested guilt.
Unanswered questions , doubted,
misguided- non-understanding,
abandoned- my un- abandoned disgust,
regretfully mistaken stolen moments,
regret deeply for not being there,
being not there even now....
Left a ache inside
for so long- I still cry,
I cry for myself too though.
It hurts to loose so much
to have nothing but questions,
doubt
wondering
wonderful bliss, mind erased...
blissfully -
no more thinking,
shaking crying,
blissful aint blessed when I had to forget.
don't speak or talk.. keep it in
deep inside
no one
tell no one.....
I was trapped,
taken,
thrown,
beaten & shaking.....
In my mind....
In my head- i felt no pain...
Lied to myself... lied about you.... about me.... about "it"...... about US.
******
Son-Of-A-Bitch!!!
Lying to me, lying to you,
lying lying lying
so much lying....
lying, drowning, dying, lying, crying, lying.......
PLEASE!!!!
how can they have lied- liars lying as i laid dreaming....
demons, screaming.....
I cried, screamed, dreamed & longed for this day
Fought & still fight for this day
A day where you'd know!
Where you unsheathe that sword-
Placed- deep in my heart, deep into my soul...
Did you know?
Did they tell you-
who I was?
Couldn't you of guessed?
Your eyes- my eyes
Your hand's - my hands
Your smile - my smile
Your laugh - its me!!!
I'm you
Your blood
My blood.
Didn't you notice
didn't you see
all me in you?
I knew from the moment your face
looked deep into my face
your shape
my shape
my mirror
your mirror.
Twin yet not - -
Mother╰♥•♥╮ Daughter
finally:
One - Whole
and
Together !
I Always Loved & Love You!
Dear child of mine -
╰♥•♥╮JANNELL ╰♥•♥╮
Always Me Ayeshah
May 7, 2010
May 7, 2010 at 12:41 AM UTC
I can't....
Can't help these feeling
consuming me as
you assume about me,
presume to understand.
Listen sweetie -
I never had a choice
I wasn't right in my thinking.
In my reasonings left us both with
unrequested guilt.
Unanswered questions , doubted,
misguided- non-understanding,
abandoned- my un- abandoned disgust,
regretfully mistaken stolen moments,
regret deeply for not being there,
being not there even now....
Left a ache inside
for so long- I still cry,
I cry for myself too though.
It hurts to loose so much
to have nothing but questions,
doubt
wondering
wonderful bliss, mind erased...
blissfully -
no more thinking,
shaking crying,
blissful aint blessed when I had to forget.
don't speak or talk.. keep it in
deep inside
no one
tell no one.....
I was trapped,
taken,
thrown,
beaten & shaking.....
In my mind....
In my head- i felt no pain...
Lied to myself... lied about you.... about me.... about "it"...... about US.
******
Son-Of-A-Bitch!!!
Lying to me, lying to you,
lying lying lying
so much lying....
lying, drowning, dying, lying, crying, lying.......
PLEASE!!!!
how can they have lied- liars lying as i laid dreaming....
demons, screaming.....
I cried, screamed, dreamed & longed for this day
Fought & still fight for this day
A day where you'd know!
Where you unsheathe that sword-
Placed- deep in my heart, deep into my soul...
Did you know?
Did they tell you-
who I was?
Couldn't you of guessed?
Your eyes- my eyes
Your hand's - my hands
Your smile - my smile
Your laugh - its me!!!
I'm you
Your blood
My blood.
Didn't you notice
didn't you see
all me in you?
I knew from the moment your face
looked deep into my face
your shape
my shape
my mirror
your mirror.
Twin yet not - -
Mother╰♥•♥╮ Daughter
finally:
One - Whole
and
Together !
I Always Loved & Love You!
Dear child of mine -
╰♥•♥╮JANNELL ╰♥•♥╮
Always Me Ayeshah
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