Today,
An Old Lady Hugged Me

She Said, "Son

     Don't Put Your Faith In A Church
     Give It To god Instead

     As Long As You Believe
     In him
     he Will G  u  i  d  e   Y     o       u

  T                           R
               H                                 O        
                                                                ­      U                  H
              
                                                                ­                                               Life.

Believe In
him
Because
he Believes In YOU."
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                        A
       ­                nd
                     ItWas
                  AtThose
                Few Words
               ThatMyEyes
                B e g a n To
                  Tear Up
                        **

    god          Loves            You

    Don't       Forget          That

                   "I Won't"

                     I Said
                
                    Silently
              ­  
                  Thinking:
          But I'm An Athiest

one day I looked at people 
I saw anger 
expressions of frustration 
as he pondered over the deeds of his son
how he had given his all 
but he still turned out rebellious

one day I looked at people
I saw pain 
she couldn't hide it away
memories of her little daughter 
how she vanished into the cruelity of the world
how the world had used her, 
abused her 
mama's little girl

one day I looked at people 
I saw guilt 
people were guilty of oppressing 
other people 
people needed guidance 
to be guided away from greed, hate  
he needed his father's guidance
if he were to be a better man

one day I looked at people 
I saw deception 
lies, people telling other people 
fabricating, conneiving convinicing 
dragging them away from the truth
Ruth, couldn't stop 
she believed every story they told her 
men's promises 

one day I looked at people 
I saw hope 
I saw him fall in love 
it scared me
it didn't stop him 
he lost his soul in her eyes 
he didn't care about her past
he scrapped her rust 
forgot all the stories of harsh conditions 
she had been through 

one day I looked at people
I saw confusion 
fear of the unknown 
fear to take a leap of faith 
cause she wasn't sure he would understand her 
so she told herself 
she couldn't let another soul into her heart 
not again

One day i looked at people
I saw a system
A brokken system
A paralysed proper people
Pride driven
Pius leaded
By bias leaders who are as bróken as the system
Because they are people too
For he chose politics probably because
With love he had failed
He had failed to listen to hiss father too
So father hated him
He gathered

One day i looked at people
I saw a fight
Not for whats right
But to survive
Cause that's all she knew
Ruth had lived from one bed to another
Looking to fill the gap of the man who bedded her mum n left
But the Father figures made her a minute's satisfaction
She thought thats life
Even when he presented love
She thought itwas just a way to restrain her life
Love life n romance wás a thing for childs books
She gathered

One day i looked at people
I saw me
I saw how each of us are all the same
Humans
People
**** sapien
Same emotions
Same reactions
Same intentions
Same tortures
Same pains
Same same same

Cause if u grew with no father like ruth did and a mum who believed in love n had been broken hearted
And you witnesed her pain everday
Killing herself everday for you to live
Watched Man devour her
You would understand...you too would be just another Ruth
If you grew up with a father and no mother's touch
Father would wanna mold u to be him strictly
Stoping you from being you
Because he knows wat the world is like
Cause he also has met gals like ruth
Who are heartless
But is ******* you ...punishes you for the mistakes he has done
For with no woman's touch the discipline is too harsh
So when you break out of the shackles u live
You live you ...you leave all his warnings cause all this time he kept you locked in his world
Because you think it was all for his best not yours
Nqobani...thinking you would conquer his world for him ....nc nc uyabheda

one day i looked at people
I saw ruth
I saw nqobani
I saw you
I saw me
I saw all we needed was people to admit
That we all just people.the same
Stop judging but relate
Stop assuming
Stop discriminating
Cause him her could hv been you ......

Look at people
We are the people .....

Have you ever met anyone so beautiful
that they take your breath away.
I have.
It was my wife

Itwas not always like that.
We had two kids,
teenagers.
She had not been intimate
with me for two years.
Men are weak
we need to be needed,
right?
I sat across the room
from her and said
I want a divorce.

She looked at me
and shook her head.

I had spent my life
in real estate
sell sell sell
we were rich.
In money that is
but not in love.

Is there something else
you need to tell me,she said.
I lied and said said no nothing.
Do you have her number?
she whispered.

I gave her my phone
she looked at the busy calls
and pressed send

a lady answered.
She whispered to her
I forgive you
you are lonely.
But I hope you find someone
to replace your broken heart.
but not my husband.

Then she turned to me and said
You can leave
is that what you want?
I said softly I want you,
But you. Don't want me.

I got the second chance
I did not deserve.
But she did not want diamonds
or furs or money
she wanted my soul.
that stuff was too easy.

I had to work with her
at the homeless soup kitchen.
I said I can't
I have a deal closing tonight
,she did not care.

The lost souls came in
one by one.
She lifted stew
onto their plates.
And said to them
what's your name
Welcome
to our small dinner party.

I was made to wash
serve and clean
up day after day

Then one day a lady.
Came in she was desolate
She passed out from hunger
before she was served.
I held her.
And fed her soup
until she came around.
Then I drove home
and gave her blankets and food.

That night my wife came to me
she said that was ****
what you did tonight.
She held my hand
and led me to her bed
a place I had not
Seen for two years.

She kissed me
and it was as the first time.
I fell in love with her again.
No that's not true
I was already in love with her
just not worthy of her.

It got better
We were close.
There's nothing like your first love
you know.
Everyone knows that.

It was five years later the visit
of the crab sign took her.
She left me desolate.
She said its ok
you can have her now
I want you to be happy..

I kissed her softly
my tears flowed.
I only ever wanted you honey
Only you.

I sold the big place
I got an apartment now.
And I am spending
my life at the kitchen.

And some nights
When the street lamps are dim
And the sky is full of stars.
I see one pass by
Shooting into oblivion.
Far from the the night
in a line of curving light.

And I know God loves his stars
And he will keep them
safe in his world.

And she will will take the hand
Of some lost soul and say.
See the beautiful star honey
everything shines up here

I was strolling down the avenue, she caught me unaware
She appeared out of the mist, she blossomed out of nowhere
She placed her hands upon me, I was totally off guard
One hand upon my back the other on my heart
Rhythmically, slowly she massaged me into a trance
My soul was ravenous, it  was hungry for the dance
An angel half my age, I didn't know her name
She took my breath away, I'll never be the same
I've been physically seduced, but  this was very different
She brought peace to my heart and spiritual contentment
She said my heart was pure, she was here to ease my burden
"Don't come looking for me she said, just keep yourself in tune
This experience was so much more than physical
She doesn't hail from earth, It's nothing short of magical
The experience was mystical, itwas better than narcotics
It was exhilarating, spiritually *******.